My last blog entry was 31st January 2021, but I didn’t know it was going to be the last one I would write in 5 years.

… or why?

I stopped writing my blogs when a relationship ended because I had hoped to be writing for the Gypsy Queens and Bohemian Kings, but I lost incentive. After living through what often felt like a waking nightmare (the death of our parents and a soul sister) while I was also living the dream (my call OUT to adventure, to explore another way of being in the world), another loss during a global pandemic spiralled me even deeper IN to the depths. Feeling a stronger connection with spirit, I felt lost in the story I was writing. Trying to make sense of a world that doesn’t always make sense to me, and l didn’t know where I belonged.

I was still writing about my experiences, but my sharing was limited to family and friends on the book of face, because I didn’t feel comfortable about my ex partner reading those thoughts and feelings. At the time, I wasn’t really sure why I had lost my inspiration to blog, but looking back I can see the disconnection was part of my process.

The final blog I wrote was about transformation, and alot of significant things happened during those 5 years.

• Returning to the UK during the global pandemic, and exposing myself to the virus
• Recovering from covid, and learning more about healing
• Reconnecting with an ex partner in the UK, and learning more lessons in love
• Recovering from another failed relationship, and learning more about myself and who I want to be
• Reconnecting with my SELF and focusing on my healing work
• Reconnecting with an ex partner in Australia, and learning more lessons in love
• Recovering from another failed relationship, and learning more about myself so I could recognize the patterns I kept repeating
• Rebuilding my life and starting over again
• Remembering the magick of my own medicine

Sometimes it can feel like we’re regressing in life, but we often return back to what we know, to learn deeper truths. Personal growth isn’t a linear experience, it’s a spiral of constant learning.

We’re all here to learn our own lessons …

In 2022 I was homeless in the UK for about 3 months, and although I had the support of family and friends, I wanted to learn how to stand on my own two feet, even if that meant living out of my car for a few weeks, and living in a tent for a few months. I didn’t want to be a burden on others because of another failed relationship, and I didn’t want to feel less than because of it.

This experience was both humbling and liberating because it challenged me to experience life without my usual supports. For some, it would feel like the lowest of the low, and I had definitely reached another rocky bottom, but it’s not so bad if you like to collect rocks.

I’ve actually been homeless ever since I left Australia in November 2016, to work in the UK as a live in carer. Since then I’ve been living the life of a gypsy, coming back and forth between the UK and Australia, drifting through the lives of others, hoping to find my way ‘home’ (whatever that means for us )

Before leaving the UK, to return back to my family in Australia, I actualized my dreams.

• Driving the NC500, to explore the Scottish Highlands, and the Outer Hebrides, to stand in the Calanais Stone Circle.
• Walking the Camino de Santiago in Spain as a pilgrim, to experience life beyond my physical and mental limits.
• Working more intentionally within a healing role, by embracing my spiritual connection.
• Resolving a 32 year inner conflict that kept pulling me back to the UK.

But returning to Australia in 2023 challenged me more than I had anticipated. Maybe I’ve changed too much? Perhaps I don’t fit in like I once did?

Maybe that’s why gypsy life appealed to me? Perhaps the Gypsy Queen and Bohemian King had unfinished business? I didn’t want it to be another lesson in love, and it was a challenging lesson to learn, but I have grown from my experiences, and I am grateful for each and everyone of them.

Life rarely goes to plan, but I believe Universe is responding to our deeper desires and dreams. When things don’t go as planned (or as hoped), perhaps we’re destined for something else, but this will challenge us. We fear the unknown of uncertainty, and that’s why we tend to hold onto what we’ve outgrown for longer than we should.

Realignment can often feel like a loss, but it’s part of a Divine plan …

According to Chinese Astrology, 2025 was the year of the Wood Snake, and this energy challenged us to LET GO of what no longer serves our highest good. I had hoped to be letting go of this extra weight I’ve been lugging around, but I got fatter.

For me, 2025 was another dark night of the soul, and I struggled with depression, but I understood it was a need to deeply rest with my SELF, and slowly, but surely, I began to reconnect, rebalance, and realign with my higher self again.

We’ve now shifted into the year of the Fire Horse, and this energy is seeking forward movement, that brings a sense of confidence. It’s asking us to stay balanced, grounded and purposeful in our choices, so we can actualize our full potential in whatever way that means for us. For me, it’s about standing more confidently in my own truth, and sharing the magick of my own medicine.

When we learn we teach, and we teach best what we need to learn the most. That’s what it means to be a wounded healer, and it’s the path I’ve been destined to live, and a road I’m called to walk. As I begin to share my story with others, not everyone will be comfortable with their role in my life. This could become an obstacle on my path, but I’m no longer attached to the old stories of limitation.

I am the author of my own story, and I’m writing a narrative of liberation to help others on their healing journey. I’m focusing on rebuilding my life, and I’m counting my blessings …

• Renting a beautiful little cottage on a rural block of land, surrounded by nature
• Forming deeper connections with those who love and respect me
• Working in the community and learning more about the systemic struggles
• Learning how to be part of the solution in my daily interactions
• Creating a life that feels more supportive, so I can BE more creative
• Building stronger foundations, to grow roots so I can embody my spiritual growth

Coming ‘home’ isn’t about returning to people or a place, it’s a reconnection with the deepest part of ourselves. I feel more supported, safe, and secure because my sense of stability has shifted from external circumstance – to an internal source of emotional regulation. As a woman in transition (menopause), my hormonal fluctuations have been challenging me, but I’m learning from it.

After a traumatic experience, or significant life changes, we learn how to rewire our fight and flight nervous system, so we can become our own safe harbour during life’s storms.

When life places YOU in hot water do you want to be the potatoe, the egg, or the coffee bean?

Do you want to soften, harden or be transformed by your most challenging experiences?

I’m allowing them to keep TRANFORMING me because I’m here to live my best life, as my best self, in the best way I know how, but life continues to challenge me, and it probably always will, but I’m learning how to learn, heal and grow from my most challenging experiences. I embrace who I am today, but I also acknowledge how many times I’ve allowed people to disrespect me because I didn’t truly value myself. How often I’ve settled for less than I deserved, because I didn’t truly believe I was worthy of more. How I’ve taken on the burden of other people’s opinions, because I doubted my own path. How the judgements of others has held me back from being ALL of who I am because I feel TOO much for some.

We live in a world that doesn’t want us to shine our light TOO brightly because it creates more shadow. When we are illuminating our own path, we expose what’s hidden and denied in others, but the lesson is not to dim our light to make others comfortable. It’s to keep shining so we can inspire others to stand more confidently in their own truth, so they can shine brightly too.

NOW is the time to RISE n’ SHINE 🔥 ✨️