EQUINOX is a seasonal shift that marks the exact moment when the Sun crosses directly above the Earth’s equator. It shines equal light on both hemisphere’s, and gives equal amounts of day and night.
It’s a return to balance 💫
For those of us in the southern hemisphere – it’s the start of Spring, so our energy is naturally shifting into outward manifestation. We’ve planted the seeds of our intention, and will now be feeling a renewal of our life force. Fresh energy, hope and inspiration will be flowing, and a new sense of SELF is emerging.
For those of you in the northern hemisphere – it’s the start of Autumn, so your energy will be naturally shifting into an inward reflection. It’s a time of releasing stagnant energies, letting go of what no longer serves you, and harvesting the fruits of your labour. You’ll be feeling the need to slow down, as you welcome the darker months.
That is the beauty of the bright bless-ed day and the sacred night 💫
Equinox is an opportunity to experience the equilibrium of duality. It’s the meeting of polarities, a natural rhythm that moves light into dark, and dark into light, and an invitation to align with the dualities within ourselves.
I LOVE how nature reminds us of our INTERCONNECTNESS 💫
The Sun has shifted into Libra, and it’s ruled by Venus, which is the planet of LOVE, so themes of balance and harmony in relationship is strong.
Here in the southern hemisphere, I’m welcoming more LIGHT into my being ✨ and I’m feeling the LOVE 💖
I understand life is forever changing, and I am a cyclic human being …
Every ending is an opportunity for a new beginning
Each loss is an opportunity to learn, heal, and grow
Every morning is another opportunity to start again
Each NEW MOON is an opportunity for another lunar cycle
Every seasonal shift is an opportunity to align my rhythm with the Earth
Just like nature, our energy, creativity, and internal focus are designed to shift, so we can step into a new frequency of growth.
We shift into SPRING – to plant new seeds and initiate projects
We shift into SUMMER – to bask in our full expression of abundance
We shift into AUTUMN – to harvest our lessons and let go of old habits
We shift into WINTER – to rest in deep reflection so our roots can grow strong
It’s spring time here in the southern hemisphere, so I’m shaking off the stagnant energies of winter, feeling a little more inspired. My desire for connection and community is naturally returning, and I’m nurturing the seeds I planted into the fertile soil (both literally and figuratively speaking)
Literally – I planted the seeds into soil, watered them, waited for germination, and now I’m providing consistent care for the seedlings, so they will grow.
Figuratively – my words, thoughts and choices are the seeds of my intentions, that take root in my psyche. Forming neural pathways, and creating the internal patterns that will grow into external realities over time.
Are you conscious of the reality you are unconsciously creating?
Coming into alignment isn’t always what I expect, but it’s ALWAYS on purpose ✨
The last thing I expected was to feel called to reopen a door I had closed, but the conversation has begun, and Lilith is ripping the truth out of both the Divine masculine and feminine (both within ourselves, and in relation-ship)
For the masculine, the stars are asking
Who do I really love?
What have I lost?
Why am I afraid of true love?
How have I avoided accountability?
Am I chosing comfort over growth?
For the feminine, the stars are asking
Where am I still romantazing someone’s potential?
Where am I still calling waiting surrender?
Where am I confusing connection with actual physical relationship?
Where am I accepting energetic crumbs because I feel someone’s soul?
Where am I betraying myself, and why?
A healthy relationship can’t be created upon all that supressed truth, and that’s why the divine feminine is being pulled out of waiting, the divine masculine is being pulled out of avoidance, and both energies are being pulled out of the fantasy, and illusions of love.
Awareness without behavioural change is NOT transformation 🔥
According to star gazers …
Venus in Scorpio is asking us to admit how we really feel
Chiron is asking us to face the wound with more honesty
Lilith is telling us to tell the fucking truth !!!
Mercury in Libra wants us to talk about that truth
Uranus is ready to break the old programming
NEW MOON in Virgo needs us to take practical action to change it
This is having an impact on TWIN FLAMES 🔥
Divine masculine has been telling himself – that she will always be there waiting for him to catch up … but she won’t
Divine feminine has been telling herself – that she needs to keep holding space for him to fully meet her … but she doesn’t
According to star gazers, the twin flame soul journey has reached a point of no return – because there is no going back into union without seeing the cycle for what it truly is. The wounds have been exposed, the truth has been revealed, the old program is breaking, and the relationship dynamic is resetting.
The stars are asking …
Are we capable of loving each other well in a grounded frequency?
Regardless of the stories we are telling ourselves, the collective narrative around relationship is changing – because the relationship with our SELF is forever changing when we learn and grow 🌀
Although we still value the sanctuary of marriage, some of us want more than we once needed – because how we relate is changing 🌀
Obviously, I still need to feel safe and secure in relationship, but I don’t need to be with another to feel safe and secure – I want more SELF actualization in relationship, so we both take responsibility for our own inner security, then we can create a safe space to BE together in a relationship.
Obviously, I still need the commitment, loyalty and trust in relationship, but I don’t need the promise of forever – I want more mutual fulfilment in relationship, so we both feel more present in the moment, making the daily choice to BE together – because we want to learn and grow together IN love.
I believe, that’s how we begin to relalate interdependently with each other, instead of creating a co-dependent relationship. A balance of mutual support, and emotional closeness while still preserving each person’s individual autonomy, and clear boundaries of SELF.
For me, this understanding has come from what may have perceived to be “bad choices” in relationship, and they’re not wrong, but each consequence has taught me a valuable lesson in love, and I’m grateful for that 🙏💜✨️
Women are becoming more conscious of their inner masculine energy, and men are becoming more conscious of their inner feminine energy.
As we both become a fuller expression of ourselves, we are learning how to relate with each other from a NEW sense of SELF.
My HOPE is the light in my heart ✨️ and that’s why I never lose my FAITH in LOVE 💖
So YES, it bothers me that so many women my age are giving up on romantic love, but it doesn’t surprise me – because men continue to disappointed us in so many ways, but those are the feelings that shift our focus IN-wards. To a deep desire to protect our own emotional well-being, and that’s healing the deeper wounds.
I believe that’s the balance women are here to restore in this lifetime, and the men are on their own healing journeys, but they are responding to us – because it’s an interconnected journey.
NEW MOON in Virgo is about setting practical intentions, to ground energy
So, it’s about PRACTICAL MAGIC 💫
Yup, my witchy bitches – that’s why the movie is being released today ✨
Post eclipse season revelations showed us what we’ve outgrown, and now Virgo energy bridges the gap between spiritual realization and physical reality.
It’s asking …
How do our daily habits support the next chapter of our life?
Virgo energy invites us to gently, and quietly plant the seeds of our intentions into fertile soil, and nourish them through our daily choices – because growth happens when those seeds are consistently nurtured and cared for.
The integration of our intentions ✨
Virgo shadow is hyper-critical, needs a sense of control, overthinks, and questions our self worth, but we are already good enough, we just need to notice what is/isn’t working and then come into alignment.
How do we heal and integrate the shadow aspects of Virgo?
Forgive and learn from the past
Embrace change and seek balance
Practice SELF care and be kind
According to the star gazers VIRGO is asking …
Does the way we live support the person we are becoming?
Looking beyond the stars, there’s a planetary shift having an impact, revealing a BIGGER story beneath the practical and grounded energy of Virgo.
Mercury moves into Libra – rational focus and speaking truth
Venusmoves into Scorpio – deep desire for intimacy to balance extremes
Uranus stations direct in Gemini – an internal rewiring of the system
Pluto is retrograde in Aquarius – cosmic checkpoint of the macro – micro
Are you honouring your own truth (or) are you living according to someone else’s system, and therefore rejecting your SELF?
Welcome any surprise revelations that serve your higher vibration 💫
“Look towards them with a receptive energy of grace and humility, and you’ll receive the gifts of this potent promise” (Romy)
Because there’s healing opportunities around relationship and SELF worth 💖
As a Capricorn sun with an Aquarius moon – this alignment is illuminating my (3rd) house of communication. Allowing me to look at the tension of extremes objectively, without feeling overwhelmed by the influence of emotion. Bridging logic and vulnerability, so I can communicate more honestly about my deepest desires, and intimate boundaries, even if it feels a little risky.
What did you release during the eclipse season?
What was the resistance telling you?
Have you been avoiding something?
How did you surrender control?
Now, is the time to focus on the practicalities of those changes …
What simple step can you take to improve your life?
How can you organize your space?
What healthy habit can you maintain for you well-being?
How can you make it part of your daily routine?
Listen to your own intuition, and TRUST your inner knowing 💫
Until we eventually find our BALANCE ☯︎ n a healthy relationship 💞
Sometimes that will be with another, other times it will be with ourselves.
Regardless of our relationship status, everyone is learning lessons in love, and no matter how much we want it, some relationships just won’t work out.
But if I AM the love …
Do we really fall out of it?
When did LOVE become the relationship?
LOVE is a state of being, our thoughts constantly interrupt. To tell us what love IS and isn’t, but those voices don’t always speak the truth.
Being in a relationship is a choice, and a commitment we make, but even the best relationships will eventually end, because NOTHING lasts forever.
When love is lost the suffering begins, and the missing begins to guide us IN, to the depths of ourselves.
LOSS triggering us to heal …
We seek FAITH ✝☪✡
Because the struggle is real, and the pain of loss uncomfortable.
So we strengthen our faith to feel better, but our faith based beliefs are also forever changing.
If I AM the love …
Do we really lose it?
In the past religious beliefs externalised the Divine
The Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost became the patriarchy of control.
Worshipping the sacred Masculine Suppressing the sacred Feminine
SPIRIT became an energy outside of us, something that belongs in heaven or hell.
Disconnection creating more struggle, and the suffering became purposeful.
We’ve created a world of judgement …
The right and the wrong The sinner and the saint The righteous and the damned
We seek HOPE ✨️
Because we want to create another world
That’s why spiritual based beliefs are internalising the Divine.
The sacred feminine reclaiming her place, to challenge the toxicity.
So we can heal the collective wounds, and create something NEW 💫
The Mother, the Maiden and the Crone becomes the matriarch of connection
We feel her presence in the heart 💖
Regardless of our gender, she is RISING within us ALL 🔥
As a Capricorn woman (earth), I need stable ground to climb those metaphoric mountains, and dive deep into the depths. My Aquarius Moon (air) significantly influences my emotions, and I need the freedom to fully express my feelings and process my thoughts. My Cancer rising (water) needs emotional security to trust the guidance of my intuition and sensitivity.
Stability, the freedom to express, and emotional security are my core needs ❤️
I feel the passions of (fire) when I’m in relationship with another, but my fascination with light and shadow is another way I play with the element.
Fire isn’t just about the heat and intensity of our passions, it’s also about illumination, contrast, perception, and having the courage to take action.
What attracts me?
People attract and connect for different reasons, and ALL relationships teach us something about ourselves, but my attraction to another has changed as I mature – because I keep growing.
Over the years, my openness to experience hasn’t always been “positive,” and I’ve tasted the bittersweetness of love gone wrong TOO many times – because I’ve held on, stayed longer, loved harder, and suffered the consequences of my choices – but I keep learning.
My healing journey is teaching me …
How to feel a deep connection – without losing myself in the attachment
How to balance fluctuating hormonal and emotional energy – without drowning
How to align with higher vibrations – without drifting off with the fairies into never never land.
To BE an embodiment of my spirituality 𖤓☾✩
Eclipse season is over, but the story continues, and “revelations have been enlightening⚡️but the integration afterward is when real wisdom lands.”
According to star gazers, JUPITER and SATURN were agreeable yesterday, and the last time this happened was in 2014. Some say, that ever since then – one seed has been growing (or) proving it can grow in every and ALL situations 🌱
Hmmmmmm 🤔 curious
If I were a flower, I’ve always said that I would be the Dandelion – so this resonates in a way I never expected, and it’s shining a light on a bigger picture.
What was happening for YOU in 2014?
2014 – began by actualizing a dream, then a relationship ended – because I was becoming conscious of the mother wound, and he wasn’t open to heal his own trauma. It was my first encounter with the “shadow” in relationship, and it opened a door I never expected.
The present day Saturn and Jupiter alignment is asking us to look back at what started in 2020 – because according to star gazers, whatever began in 2014 hit a wall in 2024.
OK … I’m paying attention 💫
2020 began in a Buddhist monestary …
… ending in the Bermuda Triangle 🌪
During the global pandemic, and after (3) significant losses, I reconnected with a man I share a soulful resonance – in 2020, and then again in 2024, but the shadow challenged us both. Each ending triggering an abandonment wound for me, and he has his own wounds to heal.
✨️😵💫🪞😵💫✨️
“Our relationship with the shadow is the hidden, unconscious, or repressed parts of our personality, and it directly dictates how we bond, trigger, and experience conflict in our romantic partnerships with another.”
According to stargazers, anything we commit to this week has (10) months of support behind it, so it’s important to clarify our intention for the future – because that’s the destiny we are choosing to project, the reality we will create, the experience we will have, and the dream we will actualize ✨️
We are ALL Alchemists …
Learning to turn the lead into gold 💫
TRANSMUTION – processing our heavy and painful emotional energy – into constructive and creative outlets
TRANSFORMATION – restructuring our core identity, as our conscious awareness of SELF expands, and our lens of perception changes
TRANSCENDING – looking beyond our own ego and personal struggles – to see a deeper connection to something bigger than ourselves
Every one of us have a shadow to integrate and heal, but it’s not a fixed identity. It’s a temporary state of being that guides us through shadow work.
I believe our core essence is LOVE ❤️ and LIGHT ✨️ and we are ALL connected to the same Source energy 💫
If that’s my belief, then why did the TWIN FLAME connection challenge me?
Because my emotional instability (due to grief, loss, uncertainty, hormones, and my sensitivity to the collective energy), and his own mental health challenges created an imbalance that wasn’t always easy to manage. An imbalance that concerned our loved ones, and rightly so, but the effects of a triangulation triggered me the most – because they had many ships in the port, and she was his anchor ⚓️
How does Triangulation Manifest?
The “Third-Party” Interruption – when a twin flame is involved with another partner (karmic or soul mate), it creates a classic love triangle.
A Mirror for Insecurities – because twin flame connections intensely mirror deep wounds, a third party often exposes unhealed attachment issues, abandonment fears, or jealousy.
Avoiding Direct Confrontation – like a psychological triangulation, it acts as a pressure-release valve, to avoid the intensity or direct conflict of the mirror.
Energetic Interference – many in the twin flame community view a third party as an energetic block (like “sliding cardboard between magnets”) that disrupts the direct polarity and flow between the two souls.
There’s lots of information out there about a Twin Flame connection, and I don’t agree with it all, but I do believe the mirror reflects our deepest wounds, and that’s why it’s a catalyst for SELF love, individual healing, and personal growth, but I don’t want to be challenged in the same way anymore, and I can appreciate why people often abandon the twin flame journey.
To share life with a soul mate
I’ve been acknowledging my lack of healthy boundaries in the past – because I’ve often lost my SELF in the emotional storms of intimate relationship conflict, abandoning my SELF to maintain the balance, by throwing myself into the depths of a stormy sea 🌊 🌪🌀
The ultimate lesson for me has been ..
To STOP self sacrificing, and choose to prioritize my own mental health, emotional well-being, and inner peace, but I’ve been sitting in the discomfort (hence my comfort eating struggles)
Breaking our “bad,” habits, and changing our generational patterns asks us to sit with the discomfort – because choosing ourselves whole heartedly doesn’t always feel “good.”
Some connections never end – because love is forever, but we need to love them from a distance to maintain the peace.
I’ve been reflecting upon my seasons, reasons and lifetime.
Thinking about my destiny and fate …
The FATES are (3) sister Goddesses spinning and weaving the threads of life, but like all ancient myths – there is some truth to be found in those stories.
In modern time …
CLOTHO – is symbolic of how our life begins – because who our parents are, which time we are born into, where we are raised, and what our childhood was like will set the foundation of our life’s path.
LACHESIS – is symbolic of our free will to choose – because we get to decide what we do and how we live our life, and those experiences will stretch and shape us on our journey.
ATROPOS – is symbolic of inevitable endings – because no matter how well we live – unexpected events, accidents, illness, aging and death is something we can’t stop, no matter how much we try to prevent it.
“Fate shuffles the cards and we play”
On my call OUT to adventure in 2016, grief and loss became unexpected companions on the path, guiding me towards a future I wasn’t ready to build.
(3) significant losses changed me, and it was followed by the BIGGEST plot twist of all – a global pandemic that changed EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in some way, shape or form. I didn’t fully appreciate it at the time, but losing my mother, my father, and my soul sister during that time altered my path, by changing the relationship I had with my SELF.
Guiding me through (3) very different stories …
✨ Divine Feminine
✨ Divine Masculine
✨ Sacred Union
We ALL seek meaning from the experiences that challenge us to change, but I also believe “The purpose of life is to taste experience to the upmost,” before we RIP, and during those (9) years of drifting through uncertainty, I tasted many, but I have a bad habit of romanticizing something that hurts me.
LEO season is over, but the courage to share the truth in our hearts remains with us, and the SUN entering VIRGO a few days ago is shifting us from expressive fire energy – to grounded earth energy (my strongest element 🌱)
Walking through an ECLIPSE CORRIDOR I was asking …
🌀What do I know what I don’t want to know?
🌀What do I see what I don’t want to see?
🌀What do I feel what I don’t want to feel?
This eclipse season hasn’t been revealing something new – it’s been shining a light on what we’ve always known, but didn’t want to see or feel.
For me, it’s acknowledging that I gave my ALL to someone building, creating and sharing with another. I stayed present during the chaos in his world – because as my twin flame, I believed he was the ONE I was destined to grow together with, but then he left me in the uncertainty of my world, and trust was betrayed.
✨What began for you in 2024?
✨Why did it challenge you?
✨How have you changed because of it?
When fate and destiny collide, the collision creates a profound turning point
Choice meets purpose 💫
Fate is passive, destiny is active, and the collision of those energies is a catalyst that forces us to choose our direction (destiny), and when these two forces collide, then it will manifest in (3) different ways …
A catalytic life event – when an unexpected twist of fate forcefully pushes us toward our true calling or life purpose. This can be a tragic experience, a sudden encounter, and unchosen circumstances that feel out of our control.
A “meant-to-BE” relationship – when universe brings two people together by chance (fate) and they want to BE together, then they must both choose to do the hard work of building a life together (destiny) or they will separate.
Preparation meets opportunity – when our internal growth, ambitions, and readiness (destiny) perfectly align with a sudden, external window of opportunity presented by the universe (fate).
According to the star gazers, this month’s FULL MOON is in Pisces ♓
Astrologers view the zodiac as a journey …
Aries is the first sign (birth and beginnings), and Pisces is the final sign (completion and transition). Being the final sign of the zodiac, Pisces carries themes of completion, and for me this month’s eclipse season has brought another release that’s been happening in layers.
A release that began with a loosening of an attachment …
🌀… then a layer brought emotion into awareness
🌀… then a layer clarified my truth
🌀… then a layer revealed why I held on
🌀… then a layer created space for a different possibility
Because the heart needs time to soften around what it’s ready to release 💞
According to the star gazers,“the eclipse energy is helping us to release old limitations, reconnect with new possibilities, and move toward the next expression of our journey with greater clarity, confidence and trust.”
🔥Let completion have its sacred moment
🔥Let what is loosening become lighter
🔥Let what has fulfilled its purpose be honoured
“The new chapter doesn’t need to be visible in order to exist. Sometimes the first evidence of a beginning is simply the space that appears when we finally stop holding onto what has already ended, and perhaps that space is exactly where the next light will enter.”
Every ending is a new beginning they say, and for me it’s about consciously choosing my SELF in every moment, even when those waves of grief trigger feelings of loss – because the missing guides us to live with more presence.
My path has guided me HERE to this moment, living this life, having this experience, knowing that my destiny is something I project forward into the future, and then actively move towards with intention 💫
I woke from a dream last night, and it felt symbolic – I was showing my adult children around a beautiful BIG home I was living in. The house was grand, with lots of rooms I hadn’t fully explored yet, and I knew one of the rooms was haunted, but I didn’t want to go into it – not because I was afraid, but because I was dis-interested and not really bothered about the ghost.
My sisters and I used to love sharing our dreams with Dad – because he helped us to interpret the meaning, but over the years I’ve become better acquainted with my own psyche, and I’ve learned to understand my own dreams.
I often dream about a building during significant challenges and/or change in my life, and this dream reflects a shift I’m grateful for – because we’re in what the star gazers call “The Eclipse Corridor.”
We are in-between the Solar and Lunar Eclipse (12th – 28th August)
What did LEO season awaken for YOU?
For me, it was an intimate conversation about LOVE, and what my heart desires, but I’ll write more about that during my FULL MOON reflection – because this blog is about the dream I had last night, and what it means for me.
The BIG house – represents my psyche, and the grandeur of this beautiful home is symbolic of the restored peace, clarity, and space I’ve reclaimed in my mind – because some people plant seeds of doubt in our minds that grow into limiting beliefs. If this has happened to YOU, then identify the source, challenge the narrative, and UPROOT that fucker out of your psyche.
Unexplored rooms – symbolic of what I’m yet to discover and develop.
A haunted room – represents ghosts from the past, symbolic of lingering memories that still haunt me, but my lack of interest to go into the room suggests I’m not giving my energy to it. I acknowledge that I may have ghosts, and I’m comfortable co-existing with them – because it’s part of my history.
Mycalm disinterest – because I’ve healed from an experience that hurt me.
Showing my adult children – is the most profound part of my dream that feels most significant – because by guiding them through my beautiful new “home,” I’m subconsciously showing them how to build a peaceful life, by sharing my strength, boundaries, and growth with them.
When I asked Google AI for a dream interpretation …
“You have successfully evicted the chaos from your mental space and reclaimed your palace. The dream is confirming that you have transitioned from a place of conflict to a place of grand, beautiful peace- and you are proudly standing in that power as a mother and an individual.”
Today, I’ve been processing that truth – because the dream is forever changing.
A conversation playing in my head got me out of bed early this morning – because it feels like an important conversation to have, and that’s why I’m awake at 3am writing this blog, to share with those who feel called to read it.
This months energy has created some significant shifts within me, and I’ve been journaling about the process – because the Solar Eclipse and New Moon coinciding with the Lions Gate brought some interesting insights to share.
For me, the SOLAR ECLIPSE occurring in the northern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine masculine, the NEW MOON occurring in the southern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine feminine, and I felt both within me – because masculine energy is my logic and reason (head), and feminine energy is my emotions and intuition (heart).
We naturally move between these two states all day without realizing it – because masculine energy motivates us into action and helps us to get shit done (DO-ing), and feminine energy guides us IN to rest and re-set so we can better connect with others (BE-ing). Regardless of our gender, this relationship is something we ALL experience within us, and when we understand this, that relationship with SELF will influence every other relationship in our lives.
When our head and heart are in alignment …
we are in a sacred union with SELF ✨
As a woman, that’s why intimate relationship has challenged me so much, but the beautiful paradox of life is – when we fail, then we learn.
I have so many blessings to be grateful for, and I am …
… but why does grief still surface sometimes?
Well, life has been teaching me that no matter how we feel, both sides of a polarity exist, and that’s why I’ve been learning how to flow with the truth of my feelings, instead of choosing a side – because both can be true.
It’s normal to slide on this scale, and that’s how we learn to find our BALANCE, but we need to also feel a deeper CONNECTION with ourselves.
For example …
As a mother, my greatest joy is baring witness to my children’s happiness, as they grow together with their partners in love … so when my daughter shared her wonderful news the other day, I was so happy that her partner of (8) years had proposed to her when he did – because it reflects a beautiful alignment with this months Leo energy, and his courage of the heart.
I wanted to share this happiness with those closest to me, and I noticed how my mood shifted into feelings of sadness – because the first person I wanted to call was my Mam, and just like that I felt the grief of loss – a feeling that then triggered all the disappointments of my own love story.
That’s how easy it is to lose ourselves in the moment.
Being conscious of what was happening within me, allowed the truth of my feelings to flow with less resistance, and I was back in the moment with happiness again, and I felt grateful … but grief was still present.
Because I am still very much single with no current desire to change that relationship status, and my Mam still isn’t here.
Well, actually that isn’t entirely true …
Because after sending my sisters a message, Mam popped up in my FB newsfeed moments later. As promised – she’s still letting me know that she is ALWAYS with us, and as my sister said yesterday …
“Trace, she had front seat viewing of the proposal,” and we laughed.
Our shared grief became another special moment, the LOVE felt stronger than ever, and those are the moments I feel Mam’s presence the most.
Truth is, losing my parents and soul sister like we did, challenged me to change in ways I never expected, and I became someone I didn’t imagine I would BE – because my open heart took a few too many risks during a time of BIG change in my life, but grief and loss have provided some important insights.
NO, I am not the same woman I was last year, and I won’t be the same woman I am today next year either – because NEW experiences change us, and as a woman who is OPEN to change, I’m in a constant state of growth.
As I improve the relationship I have with my SELF, I notice how I’m relating to others with more presence – because I’m being even more honest with myself, and less reactive to my own triggers. Therefore, I’m less distracted by my own thoughts, and more connected with the truth in my own heart.
LOVE isn’t something we lose …
… it’s an enduring connection that transforms within us ✨
Yesterday’s Solar Eclipse energy was occurring in the northing hemisphere, and I was HERE in the southern hemisphere experiencing the New Moon energy. Both events invite us IN to look at our shadow, but a Solar Eclipse creates fast change, and a Dark Moon feels like a slower reset.
It’s no coincidence that we are noticing the habits we want to change, so we can plant the seeds for new growth – because here in the southern hemisphere nature is shifting us into the season of Spring. 🌱
My conversations with the Moon are intimate, and that’s why intimate relationship felt significant yesterday, but that is NOT where I want my attention to flow – because as always, I had many other conversations about living a life that feels good for me, with or without a significant other.
Yesterday I wrote – I AM HERE because NOW is the only time that matters.
Today I ask myself …
How am I telling my SELF to BE?
What am I telling my SELF to DO?
Where am I telling my SELF to GO?
I don’t want to go anywhere other than where I am, but I am moving forwards. I’m building a life of doing what I enjoy, and I always want to BE my true self – honest and authentic, but that isn’t always on the positive side of the sliding scale, and that’s how shadow is created in our psyche – IF we don’t accept the (-) aspects of ourselves, each other, and life.
So, I’m going to share a little story about how I dance with my own shadow …
This morning, I realized I had missed an event I wanted to attend yesterday, because I was lost in my own reflection, and it made me feel selfish for being so self absorbed. As soon as I realized, I reached out to the woman I didn’t show up for, apologized for forgetting, acknowledged how my attention was elsewhere, and expressed how sorry I was for missing the opportunity to support and share the experience with her.
This beautiful woman, began her message with …
“You were exactly where you needed to be yesterday, my friend.”
Although I agree, it didn’t make me feel any better about letting her down, and being the intuitive woman she is, that’s why she ended the message with …
“NO guilt allowed … fuck it right off.”
Those words made me smile – because it reflected the LOVE this woman not only feels for others, but the depth of love she must feel for herself, and I acknowledge the change for me – because guilt doesn’t have the same hold on me as it once did.
It’s NOT normal to respond with guilty feelings when we’ve failed to show up for someone we care about, it’s something we learn from the experiences we’ve struggled with.
How do YOU react when you feel guilty?
Do you experience remorse?
Do you have a strong urge to fix the mistake?
Do you over apologize to make amends?
Do you lash out or pull back?
Do you give too much to feel better about yourself?
Do you become over sensitive and defensive?
Do you withdraw and hide from the person you’ve hurt?
Do you avoid the conversation completely?
I’m guilty of doing ALL of those things at different times, for different reasons, with different people, so I’ve danced with guilt many times. I’ve learned how quickly guilt shifts into shame, and those stories are harmful for our self worth.
GUILT says – you made a bad choice, and it makes us feel wrong
SHAME says – you are a bad person
The LESSON is to learn and grow from those experiences
LOVE sees us for who we really are, and not what we did (or) didn’t do
I am blessed with the friendship of so many women that keep reflecting LOVE back to me, and for that I am extremely grateful – because it’s why I feel seen, heard, supported, and held in a safe emotional space.
It’s the reason why my nervous system is no longer in fight, flight or freeze response, and now feels calmer. It’s why I feel connected, balanced, and aligned even though it feels like my hormones are on crack sometimes (menopause)
When we no longer need to defend or protect ourselves, we can focus on fixing the hurt we caused ourselves and others – because our healing doesn’t just improve the relationship we have with ourselves, it changes how we relate with each other, and that’s why our healing matters.
