I understand life is forever changing, and I am a cyclic human being …

• Every ending is an opportunity for a new beginning
• Each loss is an opportunity to learn, heal, and grow
• Every morning is another opportunity to start again
• Each NEW MOON is an opportunity for another lunar cycle
• Every seasonal shift is an opportunity to align my rhythm with the Earth

Just like nature, our energy, creativity, and internal focus are designed to shift, so we can step into a new frequency of growth.

We shift into SPRING – to plant new seeds and initiate projects

We shift into SUMMER – to bask in our full expression of abundance

We shift into AUTUMN – to harvest our lessons and let go of old habits

We shift into WINTER – to rest in deep reflection so our roots can grow strong

It’s spring time here in the southern hemisphere, so I’m shaking off the stagnant energies of winter, feeling a little more inspired. My desire for connection and community is naturally returning, and I’m nurturing the seeds I planted into the fertile soil (both literally and figuratively speaking)

Literally – I planted the seeds into soil, watered them, waited for germination, and now I’m providing consistent care for the seedlings, so they will grow.

Figuratively – my words, thoughts and choices are the seeds of my intentions, that take root in my psyche. Forming neural pathways, and creating the internal patterns that will grow into external realities over time.

Are you conscious of the reality you are unconsciously creating?

According to those in the collective who are conscious of the energic shifts, there are themes rising into consciousness post New Moon, and the conversations are changing – because truths are coming to light.

For me, the focus is around intimacy, but the projections have dissolved, the fantasy has faded, I see others how they truly are, and I know my own worth.

My heart keeps burning for truth 🔥

I’ve realized that coming into alignment isn’t always what I expect ..

… but it’s ALWAYS on purpose ✨

The last thing I expected was to feel called to reopen a door I had closed, but the conversation has begun, and Lilith is ripping the truth out of both the Divine masculine and feminine (both within ourselves, and in relation-ship)

For the masculine, the stars are asking us …

• Who do I really love?
• What have I lost to realize this?
• Why am I afraid of true love?
• How have I avoided accountability?
• Why do I chose the comfort zone of familiarity?

For the feminine, the stars are asking us …

• Where am I still romantazing someone’s potential?
• Where am I still calling waiting surrender?
• Where am I confusing connection with actual physical relationship?
• Where am I accepting energetic crumbs because I feel someone’s soul?
• Where am I betraying myself, and why?

Those questions are essential because a healthy relationship with SELF and with another cannot be created upon all that supressed truth, and that’s why the divine feminine is being pulled out of waiting, the divine masculine is being pulled out of avoidance, and both energies are being pulled out of the fantasy.

Awareness without behavioural change is NOT transformation 🔥

According to star gazers …

• Venus in Scorpio is asking us to admit how we really feel
• Chiron is asking us to face the wound with more honesty
• Lilith is telling us to tell the fucking truth !!!
• Mercury in Libra wants us to talk about that truth
• Uranus is ready to break the old programming
• NEW MOON in Virgo needs us to take practical action to change it

This is having a BIG impact on the TWIN FLAME connections

Divine masculine has been telling himself – that she will always be there waiting for him to catch up … but she won’t

Divine feminine has been telling herself – that she needs to keep holding space for him so he can fully meet her … but she doesn’t

LOVE has never been the question for me, because I love wholeheartedly 💖

… but intimate relationship has exposed every place I didn’t truly love myself.

The insecurity, the deep abandonment and betrayal wounds, the fear of not being enough and asking for too much, the fear of being seen for who I really am, and the possibility of never experiencing the soulful love I truly desire.

According to star gazers, the twin flame soul journey has reached a point of no return – because there is no going back into union without seeing the cycle for what it truly is. The wounds have been exposed, the truth has been revealed, the old program is breaking, and the relationship dynamic is resetting.

The stars are asking us …

Are we capable of loving each other well in a grounded frequency?

but the most important question I am asking my SELF is …

Who am I becoming now I’m no longer willing to repeat the story that challenged, confused, and changed me?

Because I’m not the same woman I was, and I’m feeling the shift …

• From tolerance – to healthier boundaries
• From reaction – to making conscious choices
• From the wound – to the inner wise woman

Regardless of the stories we are telling ourselves, the collective narrative around relationship IS changing – because although we still value the sanctuary of marriage, we are moving away from socially enforced templates.

Toward models that are built on individual choice, emotional agility, and mutual growth, and that’s why the dynamics that once held traditional relationships together are fundamentally shifting.

• From a need for security – to SELF actualization
• From the forever – to a deeper sense of fulfilment
• From co-dependancy – to interdependancy

I believe this shift is happening because of the changes within us …

Women are becoming more conscious of their inner masculine energy, and men are becoming more conscious of their inner feminine energy, and as we both become a fuller expression of ourselves, we need to learn how to relate with each other from a NEW sense of SELF, and it will challenge us.

It bothers me that so many women my age are giving up on love, but it doesn’t surprise me – because men have disappointed us, but those are the feelings that shift our focus inwards. To a deep desire to protect our own well-being, and a conscious choice for personal peace, that’s healing the deeper wounds.

I believe that’s the balance we are here to restore, but the patriarchal system has disconnected us ALL from our spiritual truth, and men are on their own healing journeys, but they are responding to the shift within us.

It’s an interconnected journey 💫

When women stop accepting less than they deserve, and hold men accountable, it prompts those who genuinely love us to do the inner work, so we can experience a healthy relationship.

Balance is restored by women anchoring into their own sense of worth, so we can create the space for healthier masculine energy to step up – because it’s not just about us rising in our power, it’s about inviting him to heal, soften, and step into his own authentic power alongside us.

The stars are reflecting the glimmer of HOPE I still hold in my heart 💖

NEW MOON in Virgo is about setting practical intentions, to ground energy

So, it’s about PRACTICAL MAGIC 💫

Yup, my witchy bitches – that’s why the movie is being released today ✨

Post eclipse season revelations showed us what we’ve outgrown, and now Virgo energy bridges the gap between spiritual realization and physical reality.

It’s asking …

How do our daily habits support the next chapter of our life?

Virgo energy invites us to gently, and quietly plant the seeds of our intentions into fertile soil, and nourish them through our daily choices – because growth happens when those seeds are consistently nurtured and cared for.

The integration of our intentions ✨

Virgo shadow is hyper-critical, needs a sense of control, overthinks, and questions our self worth, but we are already good enough, we just need to notice what is/isn’t working and then come into alignment.

How do we heal and integrate the shadow aspects of Virgo?

• Forgive and learn from the past
• Embrace change and seek balance
• Practice SELF care and be kind

According to the star gazers VIRGO is asking …

Does the way we live support the person we are becoming?

Looking beyond the stars, there’s a planetary shift having an impact, revealing a BIGGER story beneath the practical and grounded energy of Virgo.

• Mercury moves into Libra – rational focus and speaking truth
• Venus moves into Scorpio – deep desire for intimacy to balance extremes
• Uranus stations direct in Gemini – an internal rewiring of the system
• Pluto is retrograde in Aquarius – cosmic checkpoint of the macro – micro

Are you honouring your own truth (or) are you living according to someone else’s system, and therefore rejecting your SELF?

Welcome any surprise revelations that serve your higher vibration 💫

“Look towards them with a receptive energy of grace and humility, and you’ll receive the gifts of this potent promise” (Romy)

Because there’s healing opportunities around relationship and SELF worth 💖

As a Capricorn sun with an Aquarius moon – this alignment is illuminating my (3rd) house of communication. Allowing me to look at the tension of extremes objectively, without feeling overwhelmed by the influence of emotion. Bridging logic and vulnerability, so I can communicate more honestly about my deepest desires, and intimate boundaries, even if it feels a little risky.

• What did you release during the eclipse season?
• What was the resistance telling you?
• Have you been avoiding something?
• How did you surrender control?

Now, is the time to focus on the practicalities of those changes …

• What simple step can you take to improve your life?
• How can you organize your space?
• What healthy habit can you maintain for you well-being?
• How can you make it part of your daily routine?

Listen to your own intuition, and TRUST your inner knowing 💫

As a Capricorn woman (earth), I need stable ground to climb those metaphoric mountains, and dive deep into the depths. My Aquarius Moon (air) significantly influences my emotions, and I need the freedom to fully express my feelings and process my thoughts. My Cancer rising (water) needs emotional security to trust the guidance of my intuition and sensitivity.

Stability, the freedom to express, and emotional security are my core needs ❤️

I feel the passions of (fire) when I’m in relationship with another, but my fascination with light and shadow is another way I play with the element.

Fire isn’t just about the heat and intensity of our passions, it’s also about illumination, contrast, perception, and having the courage to take action.

What attracts me?

People attract and connect for different reasons, and ALL relationships teach us something about ourselves, but my attraction to another has changed as I mature – because I keep growing.

Over the years, my openness to experience hasn’t always been “positive,” and I’ve tasted the bittersweetness of love gone wrong TOO many times – because I’ve held on, stayed longer, loved harder, and suffered the consequences of my choices – but I keep learning.

My healing journey is teaching me …

• How to feel a deep connection – without losing myself in the attachment
• How to balance fluctuating hormonal and emotional energy – without drowning
• How to align with higher vibrations – without drifting off with the fairies into never never land.

To BE an embodiment of my spirituality 𖤓☾✩

Eclipse season is over, but the story continues, and “revelations have been enlightening⚡️but the integration afterward is when real wisdom lands.”

According to star gazers, JUPITER and SATURN were agreeable yesterday, and the last time this happened was in 2014. Some say, that ever since then – one seed has been growing (or) proving it can grow in every and ALL situations 🌱

Hmmmmmm 🤔 curious

If I were a flower, I’ve always said that I would be the Dandelion – so this resonates in a way I never expected, and it’s shining a light on a bigger picture.

What was happening for YOU in 2014?

2014 – began by actualizing a dream, then a relationship ended – because I was becoming conscious of the mother wound, and he wasn’t open to heal his own trauma. It was my first encounter with the “shadow” in relationship, and it opened a door I never expected.

The present day Saturn and Jupiter alignment is asking us to look back at what started in 2020 – because according to star gazers, whatever began in 2014 hit a wall in 2024.

OK … I’m paying attention 💫

2020 began in a Buddhist monestary …

… ending in the Bermuda Triangle 🌪

During the global pandemic, and after (3) significant losses, I reconnected with a man I share a soulful resonance – in 2020, and then again in 2024, but the shadow challenged us both. Each ending triggering an abandonment wound for me, and he has his own wounds to heal.

✨️😵‍💫🪞😵‍💫✨️

“Our relationship with the shadow is the hidden, unconscious, or repressed parts of our personality, and it directly dictates how we bond, trigger, and experience conflict in our romantic partnerships with another.”

According to stargazers, anything we commit to this week has (10) months of support behind it, so it’s important to clarify our intention for the future – because that’s the destiny we are choosing to project, the reality we will create, the experience we will have, and the dream we will actualize ✨️

We are ALL Alchemists …

Learning to turn the lead into gold 💫

TRANSMUTION – processing our heavy and painful emotional energy – into constructive and creative outlets

TRANSFORMATION – restructuring our core identity, as our conscious awareness of SELF expands, and our lens of perception changes

TRANSCENDING – looking beyond our own ego and personal struggles – to see a deeper connection to something bigger than ourselves

Every one of us have a shadow to integrate and heal, but it’s not a fixed identity. It’s a temporary state of being that guides us through shadow work.

I believe our core essence is LOVE ❤️ and LIGHT ✨️ and we are ALL connected to the same Source energy 💫

If that’s my belief, then why did the TWIN FLAME connection challenge me?

Because my emotional instability (due to grief, loss, uncertainty, hormones, and my sensitivity to the collective energy), and his own mental health challenges created an imbalance that wasn’t always easy to manage. An imbalance that concerned our loved ones, and rightly so, but the effects of a triangulation triggered me the most – because they had many ships in the port, and she was his anchor ⚓️

How does Triangulation Manifest?

The “Third-Party” Interruption – when a twin flame is involved with another partner (karmic or soul mate), it creates a classic love triangle.

A Mirror for Insecurities – because twin flame connections intensely mirror deep wounds, a third party often exposes unhealed attachment issues, abandonment fears, or jealousy.

Avoiding Direct Confrontation – like a psychological triangulation, it acts as a pressure-release valve, to avoid the intensity or direct conflict of the mirror.

Energetic Interference – many in the twin flame community view a third party as an energetic block (like “sliding cardboard between magnets”) that disrupts the direct polarity and flow between the two souls.

There’s lots of information out there about a Twin Flame connection, and I don’t agree with it all, but I do believe the mirror reflects our deepest wounds, and that’s why it’s a catalyst for SELF love, individual healing, and personal growth, but I don’t want to be challenged in the same way anymore, and I can appreciate why people often abandon the twin flame journey.

To share life with a soul mate

I’ve been acknowledging my lack of healthy boundaries in the past – because I’ve often lost my SELF in the emotional storms of intimate relationship conflict, abandoning my SELF to maintain the balance, by throwing myself into the depths of a stormy sea 🌊 🌪🌀

The ultimate lesson for me has been ..

To STOP self sacrificing, and choose to prioritize my own mental health, emotional well-being, and inner peace, but I’ve been sitting in the discomfort (hence my comfort eating struggles)

Breaking our “bad,” habits, and changing our generational patterns asks us to sit with the discomfort – because choosing ourselves whole heartedly doesn’t always feel “good.”

Some connections never end – because love is forever, but we need to love them from a distance to maintain the peace.

My heart burns for TRUTH ❤️‍🔥

I’ve been reflecting upon my seasons, reasons and lifetime.

Thinking about my destiny and fate …

The FATES are (3) sister Goddesses spinning and weaving the threads of life, but like all ancient myths – there is some truth to be found in those stories.

In modern time …

CLOTHO – is symbolic of how our life begins – because who our parents are, which time we are born into, where we are raised, and what our childhood was like will set the foundation of our life’s path.

LACHESIS – is symbolic of our free will to choose – because we get to decide what we do and how we live our life, and those experiences will stretch and shape us on our journey.

ATROPOS – is symbolic of inevitable endings – because no matter how well we live – unexpected events, accidents, illness, aging and death is something we can’t stop, no matter how much we try to prevent it.

“Fate shuffles the cards and we play”

On my call OUT to adventure in 2016, grief and loss became unexpected companions on the path, guiding me towards a future I wasn’t ready to build.

(3) significant losses changed me, and it was followed by the BIGGEST plot twist of all – a global pandemic that changed EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in some way, shape or form. I didn’t fully appreciate it at the time, but losing my mother, my father, and my soul sister during that time altered my path, by changing the relationship I had with my SELF.

Guiding me through (3) very different stories …

✨ Divine Feminine

✨ Divine Masculine

✨ Sacred Union

We ALL seek meaning from the experiences that challenge us to change, but I also believe “The purpose of life is to taste experience to the upmost,” before we RIP, and during those (9) years of drifting through uncertainty, I tasted many, but I have a bad habit of romanticizing something that hurts me.

LEO season is over, but the courage to share the truth in our hearts remains with us, and the SUN entering VIRGO a few days ago is shifting us from expressive fire energy – to grounded earth energy (my strongest element 🌱)

Walking through an ECLIPSE CORRIDOR I was asking …

🌀What do I know what I don’t want to know?

🌀What do I see what I don’t want to see?

🌀What do I feel what I don’t want to feel?

This eclipse season hasn’t been revealing something new – it’s been shining a light on what we’ve always known, but didn’t want to see or feel.

For me, it’s acknowledging that I gave my ALL to someone building, creating and sharing with another. I stayed present during the chaos in his world – because as my twin flame, I believed he was the ONE I was destined to grow together with, but then he left me in the uncertainty of my world, and trust was betrayed.

✨What began for you in 2024?

✨Why did it challenge you?

✨How have you changed because of it?

When fate and destiny collide, the collision creates a profound turning point

Choice meets purpose 💫

Fate is passive, destiny is active, and the collision of those energies is a catalyst that forces us to choose our direction (destiny), and when these two forces collide, then it will manifest in (3) different ways …

A catalytic life event – when an unexpected twist of fate forcefully pushes us toward our true calling or life purpose. This can be a tragic experience, a sudden encounter, and unchosen circumstances that feel out of our control.

A “meant-to-BE” relationship – when universe brings two people together by chance (fate) and they want to BE together, then they must both choose to do the hard work of building a life together (destiny) or they will separate.

Preparation meets opportunity – when our internal growth, ambitions, and readiness (destiny) perfectly align with a sudden, external window of opportunity presented by the universe (fate).

According to the star gazers, this month’s FULL MOON is in Pisces ♓

Astrologers view the zodiac as a journey …

Aries is the first sign (birth and beginnings), and Pisces is the final sign (completion and transition). Being the final sign of the zodiac, Pisces carries themes of completion, and for me this month’s eclipse season has brought another release that’s been happening in layers.

A release that began with a loosening of an attachment …

🌀… then a layer brought emotion into awareness

🌀… then a layer clarified my truth

🌀… then a layer revealed why I held on

🌀… then a layer created space for a different possibility

Because the heart needs time to soften around what it’s ready to release 💞

According to the star gazers,“the eclipse energy is helping us to release old limitations, reconnect with new possibilities, and move toward the next expression of our journey with greater clarity, confidence and trust.”

🔥Let completion have its sacred moment

🔥Let what is loosening become lighter

🔥Let what has fulfilled its purpose be honoured

“The new chapter doesn’t need to be visible in order to exist. Sometimes the first evidence of a beginning is simply the space that appears when we finally stop holding onto what has already ended, and perhaps that space is exactly where the next light will enter.”

Every ending is a new beginning they say, and for me it’s about consciously choosing my SELF in every moment, even when those waves of grief trigger feelings of loss – because the missing guides us to live with more presence.

My path has guided me HERE to this moment, living this life, having this experience, knowing that my destiny is something I project forward into the future, and then actively move towards with intention 💫

I am the creator of my own destiny 🌀🔥🌱💧✨

As the clock struck midnight
she woke with thoughts
turning into stories
about LOVE

Unable to sleep
she’s listening to the rain
falling from the sky
like a melody

Heavy beats tapping a steady rhythm
Lighter drops adding a softer note
Fluctuation changing the tempo

Nature singing its own song 🎵

She lights a candle
and feels the romance
but she’s alone with her SELF

Living within the dream
mastering detachment
while craving connection

Balancing desire with self respect
because her heart wants to be held
but her soul needs peace

She’s embracing the solutitude
alone with her thoughts
flowing with her feelings

Thinking about …

Seasons, reasons and lifetimes

The dynamic patterns
between people
and the bonds we share

How they are like ships in a port

Courtship, relationship and partnership
Kinship, fellowship and mateship
Friendship, companionship, and situationship

to name a few

Love is a state of being
but how we relate with another
depends on our self-awareness
and how we communicate

When it comes to LOVE
she wants the complete package

Intimacy, passion and commitment

So she’s practicing deep self-intimacy
fueling her own passions
and making a commitment

To her own happiness

I woke from a dream last night, and it felt symbolic – I was showing my adult children around a beautiful BIG home I was living in. The house was grand, with lots of rooms I hadn’t fully explored yet, and I knew one of the rooms was haunted, but I didn’t want to go into it – not because I was afraid, but because I was dis-interested and not really bothered about the ghost.

My sisters and I used to love sharing our dreams with Dad – because he helped us to interpret the meaning, but over the years I’ve become better acquainted with my own psyche, and I’ve learned to understand my own dreams.

I often dream about a building during significant challenges and/or change in my life, and this dream reflects a shift I’m grateful for – because we’re in what the star gazers call “The Eclipse Corridor.”

We are in-between the Solar and Lunar Eclipse (12th – 28th August)

What did LEO season awaken for YOU?

For me, it was an intimate conversation about LOVE, and what my heart desires, but I’ll write more about that during my FULL MOON reflection – because this blog is about the dream I had last night, and what it means for me.

The BIG house – represents my psyche, and the grandeur of this beautiful home is symbolic of the restored peace, clarity, and space I’ve reclaimed in my mind – because some people plant seeds of doubt in our minds that grow into limiting beliefs. If this has happened to YOU, then identify the source, challenge the narrative, and UPROOT that fucker out of your psyche.

Unexplored rooms – symbolic of what I’m yet to discover and develop.

A haunted room – represents ghosts from the past, symbolic of lingering memories that still haunt me, but my lack of interest to go into the room suggests I’m not giving my energy to it. I acknowledge that I may have ghosts, and I’m comfortable co-existing with them – because it’s part of my history.

My calm disinterest – because I’ve healed from an experience that hurt me.

Showing my adult children – is the most profound part of my dream that feels most significant – because by guiding them through my beautiful new “home,” I’m subconsciously showing them how to build a peaceful life, by sharing my strength, boundaries, and growth with them.

When I asked Google AI for a dream interpretation …

“You have successfully evicted the chaos from your mental space and reclaimed your palace. The dream is confirming that you have transitioned from a place of conflict to a place of grand, beautiful peace- and you are proudly standing in that power as a mother and an individual.”

Today, I’ve been processing that truth – because the dream is forever changing.

A conversation playing in my head got me out of bed early this morning – because it feels like an important conversation to have, and that’s why I’m awake at 3am writing this blog, to share with those who feel called to read it.

This months energy has created some significant shifts within me, and I’ve been journaling about the process – because the Solar Eclipse and New Moon coinciding with the Lions Gate brought some interesting insights to share.

For me, the SOLAR ECLIPSE occurring in the northern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine masculine, the NEW MOON occurring in the southern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine feminine, and I felt both within me – because masculine energy is my logic and reason (head), and feminine energy is my emotions and intuition (heart).

We naturally move between these two states all day without realizing it – because masculine energy motivates us into action and helps us to get shit done (DO-ing), and feminine energy guides us IN to rest and re-set so we can better connect with others (BE-ing). Regardless of our gender, this relationship is something we ALL experience within us, and when we understand this, that relationship with SELF will influence every other relationship in our lives.

When our head and heart are in alignment …

we are in a sacred union with SELF ✨

As a woman, that’s why intimate relationship has challenged me so much, but the beautiful paradox of life is – when we fail, then we learn.

I have so many blessings to be grateful for, and I am …

… but why does grief still surface sometimes?

Well, life has been teaching me that no matter how we feel, both sides of a polarity exist, and that’s why I’ve been learning how to flow with the truth of my feelings, instead of choosing a side – because both can be true.

It’s normal to slide on this scale, and that’s how we learn to find our BALANCE, but we need to also feel a deeper CONNECTION with ourselves.

For example …

As a mother, my greatest joy is baring witness to my children’s happiness, as they grow together with their partners in love … so when my daughter shared her wonderful news the other day, I was so happy that her partner of (8) years had proposed to her when he did – because it reflects a beautiful alignment with this months Leo energy, and his courage of the heart.

I wanted to share this happiness with those closest to me, and I noticed how my mood shifted into feelings of sadness – because the first person I wanted to call was my Mam, and just like that I felt the grief of loss – a feeling that then triggered all the disappointments of my own love story.

That’s how easy it is to lose ourselves in the moment.

Being conscious of what was happening within me, allowed the truth of my feelings to flow with less resistance, and I was back in the moment with happiness again, and I felt grateful … but grief was still present.

Because I am still very much single with no current desire to change that relationship status, and my Mam still isn’t here.

Well, actually that isn’t entirely true …

Because after sending my sisters a message, Mam popped up in my FB newsfeed moments later. As promised – she’s still letting me know that she is ALWAYS with us, and as my sister said yesterday …

“Trace, she had front seat viewing of the proposal,” and we laughed.

Our shared grief became another special moment, the LOVE felt stronger than ever, and those are the moments I feel Mam’s presence the most.

Truth is, losing my parents and soul sister like we did, challenged me to change in ways I never expected, and I became someone I didn’t imagine I would BE – because my open heart took a few too many risks during a time of BIG change in my life, but grief and loss have provided some important insights.

NO, I am not the same woman I was last year, and I won’t be the same woman I am today next year either – because NEW experiences change us, and as a woman who is OPEN to change, I’m in a constant state of growth.

As I improve the relationship I have with my SELF, I notice how I’m relating to others with more presence – because I’m being even more honest with myself, and less reactive to my own triggers. Therefore, I’m less distracted by my own thoughts, and more connected with the truth in my own heart.

LOVE isn’t something we lose …

… it’s an enduring connection that transforms within us ✨

Yesterday’s Solar Eclipse energy was occurring in the northing hemisphere, and I was HERE in the southern hemisphere experiencing the New Moon energy. Both events invite us IN to look at our shadow, but a Solar Eclipse creates fast change, and a Dark Moon feels like a slower reset.

It’s no coincidence that we are noticing the habits we want to change, so we can plant the seeds for new growth – because here in the southern hemisphere nature is shifting us into the season of Spring. 🌱

My conversations with the Moon are intimate, and that’s why intimate relationship felt significant yesterday, but that is NOT where I want my attention to flow – because as always, I had many other conversations about living a life that feels good for me, with or without a significant other.

Yesterday I wrote – I AM HERE because NOW is the only time that matters.

Today I ask myself …

• How am I telling my SELF to BE?
• What am I telling my SELF to DO?
• Where am I telling my SELF to GO?

I don’t want to go anywhere other than where I am, but I am moving forwards. I’m building a life of doing what I enjoy, and I always want to BE my true self – honest and authentic, but that isn’t always on the positive side of the sliding scale, and that’s how shadow is created in our psyche – IF we don’t accept the (-) aspects of ourselves, each other, and life.

So, I’m going to share a little story about how I dance with my own shadow …

This morning, I realized I had missed an event I wanted to attend yesterday, because I was lost in my own reflection, and it made me feel selfish for being so self absorbed. As soon as I realized, I reached out to the woman I didn’t show up for, apologized for forgetting, acknowledged how my attention was elsewhere, and expressed how sorry I was for missing the opportunity to support and share the experience with her.

This beautiful woman, began her message with …

“You were exactly where you needed to be yesterday, my friend.”

Although I agree, it didn’t make me feel any better about letting her down, and being the intuitive woman she is, that’s why she ended the message with …

“NO guilt allowed … fuck it right off.”

Those words made me smile – because it reflected the LOVE this woman not only feels for others, but the depth of love she must feel for herself, and I acknowledge the change for me – because guilt doesn’t have the same hold on me as it once did.

It’s NOT normal to respond with guilty feelings when we’ve failed to show up for someone we care about, it’s something we learn from the experiences we’ve struggled with.

How do YOU react when you feel guilty?

• Do you experience remorse?
• Do you have a strong urge to fix the mistake?
• Do you over apologize to make amends?
• Do you lash out or pull back?
• Do you give too much to feel better about yourself?
• Do you become over sensitive and defensive?
• Do you withdraw and hide from the person you’ve hurt?
• Do you avoid the conversation completely?

I’m guilty of doing ALL of those things at different times, for different reasons, with different people, so I’ve danced with guilt many times. I’ve learned how quickly guilt shifts into shame, and those stories are harmful for our self worth.

GUILT says – you made a bad choice, and it makes us feel wrong

SHAME says – you are a bad person

The LESSON is to learn and grow from those experiences

LOVE sees us for who we really are, and not what we did (or) didn’t do

I am blessed with the friendship of so many women that keep reflecting LOVE back to me, and for that I am extremely grateful – because it’s why I feel seen, heard, supported, and held in a safe emotional space.

It’s the reason why my nervous system is no longer in fight, flight or freeze response, and now feels calmer. It’s why I feel connected, balanced, and aligned even though it feels like my hormones are on crack sometimes (menopause)

When we no longer need to defend or protect ourselves, we can focus on fixing the hurt we caused ourselves and others – because our healing doesn’t just improve the relationship we have with ourselves, it changes how we relate with each other, and that’s why our healing matters.

My intimate conversations with the Moon …

… is an open and honest conversation with LOVE ❤️

My conversations with the Moon are intimate, and my rituals are simple

This morning I lit a fire before dawn
Because I wanted to sit under the dark, starry sky ✨️

Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune are in alignment … but Saturn and Neptune are in retrograde 💫

Science states the planets are too far away to have an impact on us, but star gazers share insights into how planetary alignments influences our soul story.

This is a brief understanding …

The SUN represents our outward expression of SELF, conscious ego, and the core essence of our soul, urging us to shine our unique light into the world

The MOON represents our subconscious mind, emotional core, and our inner most self that reflects our deepest intuition

MARS is the warrior planet that gives our soul courage to pursue it’s destiny

MERCURY is the planet of communication, translating the soul’s experience through language we understand.

JUPITER is the planet of Dharma, metabolizing our experiences into wisdom

URANUS is the planet of liberation, helping the spirit to break FREE

SATURN is the planet of Karma, teaching us about cause – effect

NEPTUNE is the planet of dreams, guiding the soul back home – to LOVE

SATURN is in RETROGRADE – taking us through a karmic audit to complete unfinished business. Delivering the hard lessons, collecting karmic debts, and setting the boundaries we need for the soul to transition from resistance to wisdom, and accountability to self mastery.

NEPTUNE is also in RETROGRADE – it’s dissolving illusions, and breaking down egos so the soul can reconnect with universal love, collective unconscious, and the Divine, to experience the return to our soul purpose.

That’s what’s happening above us, but what’s happening for YOU down here?

For me, it’s a decision to stop writing about the past, a strong desire to be more present in the moments, and a choice to create with more conscious energy.

Gazing into the fire

I asked …

Why do we struggle to let go?
What are we really holding onto?
Was it ever truly ours?
What are we afraid to lose?

Sometimes we are feeding the very thing we want to release …

💫A memory that still bothers us because it mattered
💫An experience that challenged us to change
💫A person we will always love because they left an impact
💫A relationship we’ve outgrown but never wanted to lose
💫A job we’ve always done but it no longer feels like our work
💫A person we never thought we would become
💫A life we imagined living with someone who is no longer here
💫A chapter we are stuck in because we won’t turn the page
💫A story we keep telling ourselves but the script has already changed

We ALL feed the old stories, the fear of loss, the disappointment, and the need to understand why it happened long after the moment has already passed, and then we wonder why we still feel a strong connection to it …

… but that IS the shadow work we are here to do.

Today’s Solar Eclipse and the NEW MOON are in LEO

Leo energy is BOLD, passionate, deeply devoted, powerful, fiery, radiant, confident, courageous, inspiring, warm, and open hearted. This energy creatively expresses itself, and it leads from sovereignty.

The shadow of Leo is expressed differently…

It seeks external validation, finds it hard to apologize or admit mistakes, seeks attention, leaves others feeling unseen, and lack of attention feels like rejection, but underneath the armour is insecurity, and a fragile sense of worth.

If you have been moving through the shadow …

• What is being revealed to you?
• What has come to light?
• What has been obscured from you, but never really lost?
• What do you want to give your energy to now?

For me, it’s been mostly around intimate relationship (surprise surprise)

LOVE never ends … but many relationships do

Although no-one actually belongs to us, our attachments will tell us otherwise

NOTHING stays the same when we learn
EVERYTHING changes when we heal and grow
That’s the purpose of an experience.

For me …

The truth is obvious
The heart has always known
The lessons have finally landed
The energy is grounded
The change has already happened

I AM HERE 🔥