I’ve been reflecting upon my seasons, reasons and lifetime.

Thinking about my destiny and fate …

The FATES are (3) sister Goddesses spinning and weaving the threads of life, but like all ancient myths – there is some truth to be found in those stories.

In modern time …

CLOTHO – is symbolic of how our life begins – because who our parents are, which time we are born into, where we are raised, and what our childhood was like will set the foundation of our life’s path.

LACHESIS – is symbolic of our free will to choose – because we get to decide what we do and how we live our life, and those experiences will stretch and shape us on our journey.

ATROPOS – is symbolic of inevitable endings – because no matter how well we live – unexpected events, accidents, illness, aging and death is something we can’t stop, no matter how much we try to prevent it.

“Fate shuffles the cards and we play”

On my call OUT to adventure in 2016, grief and loss became unexpected companions on the path, guiding me towards a future I wasn’t ready to build.

(3) significant losses changed me, and it was followed by the BIGGEST plot twist of all – a global pandemic that changed EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in some way, shape or form. I didn’t fully appreciate it at the time, but losing my mother, my father, and my soul sister during that time altered my path, by changing the relationship I had with my SELF.

Guiding me through (3) very different stories …

✨ Divine Feminine

✨ Divine Masculine

✨ Sacred Union

We ALL seek meaning from the experiences that challenge us to change, but I also believe “The purpose of life is to taste experience to the upmost,” before we RIP, and during those (9) years of drifting through uncertainty, I tasted many, but I have a bad habit of romanticizing something that hurts me.

LEO season is over, but the courage to share the truth in our hearts remains with us, and the SUN entering VIRGO a few days ago is shifting us from expressive fire energy – to grounded earth energy (my strongest element 🌱)

Walking through an ECLIPSE CORRIDOR I was asking …

🌀What do I know what I don’t want to know?

🌀What do I see what I don’t want to see?

🌀What do I feel what I don’t want to feel?

This eclipse season hasn’t been revealing something new – it’s been shining a light on what we’ve always known, but didn’t want to see or feel.

For me, it’s acknowledging that I gave my ALL to someone building, creating and sharing with another. I stayed present during the chaos in his world – because as my twin flame, I believed he was the ONE I was destined to grow together with, but then he left me in the uncertainty of my world, and trust was betrayed.

✨What began for you in 2024?

✨Why did it challenge you?

✨How have you changed because of it?

When fate and destiny collide, the collision creates a profound turning point

Choice meets purpose 💫

Fate is passive, destiny is active, and the collision of those energies is a catalyst that forces us to choose our direction (destiny), and when these two forces collide, then it will manifest in (3) different ways …

A catalytic life event – when an unexpected twist of fate forcefully pushes us toward our true calling or life purpose. This can be a tragic experience, a sudden encounter, and unchosen circumstances that feel out of our control.

A “meant-to-BE” relationship – when universe brings two people together by chance (fate) and they want to BE together, then they must both choose to do the hard work of building a life together (destiny) or they will separate.

Preparation meets opportunity – when our internal growth, ambitions, and readiness (destiny) perfectly align with a sudden, external window of opportunity presented by the universe (fate).

According to the star gazers, this month’s FULL MOON is in Pisces ♓

Astrologers view the zodiac as a journey …

Aries is the first sign (birth and beginnings), and Pisces is the final sign (completion and transition). Being the final sign of the zodiac, Pisces carries themes of completion, and for me this month’s eclipse season has brought another release that’s been happening in layers.

A release that began with a loosening of an attachment …

🌀… then a layer brought emotion into awareness

🌀… then a layer clarified my truth

🌀… then a layer revealed why I held on

🌀… then a layer created space for a different possibility

Because the heart needs time to soften around what it’s ready to release 💞

According to the star gazers,“the eclipse energy is helping us to release old limitations, reconnect with new possibilities, and move toward the next expression of our journey with greater clarity, confidence and trust.”

🔥Let completion have its sacred moment

🔥Let what is loosening become lighter

🔥Let what has fulfilled its purpose be honoured

“The new chapter doesn’t need to be visible in order to exist. Sometimes the first evidence of a beginning is simply the space that appears when we finally stop holding onto what has already ended, and perhaps that space is exactly where the next light will enter.”

Every ending is a new beginning they say, and for me it’s about consciously choosing my SELF in every moment, even when those waves of grief trigger feelings of loss – because the missing guides us to live with more presence.

My path has guided me HERE to this moment, living this life, having this experience, knowing that my destiny is something I project forward into the future, and then actively move towards with intention 💫

I am the creator of my own destiny 🌀🔥🌱💧✨

As the clock struck midnight
she woke with thoughts
turning into stories
about LOVE

Unable to sleep
she’s listening to the rain
falling from the sky
like a melody

Heavy beats tapping a steady rhythm
Lighter drops adding a softer note
Fluctuation changing the tempo

Nature singing its own song 🎵

She lights a candle
and feels the romance
but she’s alone with her SELF

Living within the dream
mastering detachment
while craving connection

Balancing desire with self respect
because her heart wants to be held
but her soul needs peace

She’s embracing the solutitude
alone with her thoughts
flowing with her feelings

Thinking about …

Seasons, reasons and lifetimes

The dynamic patterns
between people
and the bonds we share

How they are like ships in a port

Courtship, relationship and partnership
Kinship, fellowship and mateship
Friendship, companionship, and situationship

to name a few

Love is a state of being
but how we relate with another
depends on our self-awareness
and how we communicate

When it comes to LOVE
she wants the complete package

Intimacy, passion and commitment

So she’s practicing deep self-intimacy
fueling her own passions
and making a commitment

To her own happiness

I woke from a dream last night, and it felt symbolic – I was showing my adult children around a beautiful BIG home I was living in. The house was grand, with lots of rooms I hadn’t fully explored yet, and I knew one of the rooms was haunted, but I didn’t want to go into it – not because I was afraid, but because I was dis-interested and not really bothered about the ghost.

My sisters and I used to love sharing our dreams with Dad – because he helped us to interpret the meaning, but over the years I’ve become better acquainted with my own psyche, and I’ve learned to understand my own dreams.

I often dream about a building during significant challenges and/or change in my life, and this dream reflects a shift I’m grateful for – because we’re in what the star gazers call “The Eclipse Corridor.”

We are in-between the Solar and Lunar Eclipse (12th – 28th August)

What did LEO season awaken for YOU?

For me, it was an intimate conversation about LOVE, and what my heart desires, but I’ll write more about that during my FULL MOON reflection – because this blog is about the dream I had last night, and what it means for me.

The BIG house – represents my psyche, and the grandeur of this beautiful home is symbolic of the restored peace, clarity, and space I’ve reclaimed in my mind – because some people plant seeds of doubt in our minds that grow into limiting beliefs. If this has happened to YOU, then identify the source, challenge the narrative, and UPROOT that fucker out of your psyche.

Unexplored rooms – symbolic of what I’m yet to discover and develop.

A haunted room – represents ghosts from the past, symbolic of lingering memories that still haunt me, but my lack of interest to go into the room suggests I’m not giving my energy to it. I acknowledge that I may have ghosts, and I’m comfortable co-existing with them – because it’s part of my history.

My calm disinterest – because I’ve healed from an experience that hurt me.

Showing my adult children – is the most profound part of my dream that feels most significant – because by guiding them through my beautiful new “home,” I’m subconsciously showing them how to build a peaceful life, by sharing my strength, boundaries, and growth with them.

When I asked Google AI for a dream interpretation …

“You have successfully evicted the chaos from your mental space and reclaimed your palace. The dream is confirming that you have transitioned from a place of conflict to a place of grand, beautiful peace- and you are proudly standing in that power as a mother and an individual.”

Today, I’ve been processing that truth – because the dream is forever changing.

A conversation playing in my head got me out of bed early this morning – because it feels like an important conversation to have, and that’s why I’m awake at 3am writing this blog, to share with those who feel called to read it.

This months energy has created some significant shifts within me, and I’ve been journaling about the process – because the Solar Eclipse and New Moon coinciding with the Lions Gate brought some interesting insights to share.

For me, the SOLAR ECLIPSE occurring in the northern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine masculine, the NEW MOON occurring in the southern hemisphere triggered stories about the divine feminine, and I felt both within me – because masculine energy is my logic and reason (head), and feminine energy is my emotions and intuition (heart).

We naturally move between these two states all day without realizing it – because masculine energy motivates us into action and helps us to get shit done (DO-ing), and feminine energy guides us IN to rest and re-set so we can better connect with others (BE-ing). Regardless of our gender, this relationship is something we ALL experience within us, and when we understand this, that relationship with SELF will influence every other relationship in our lives.

When our head and heart are in alignment …

we are in a sacred union with SELF ✨

As a woman, that’s why intimate relationship has challenged me so much, but the beautiful paradox of life is – when we fail, then we learn.

I have so many blessings to be grateful for, and I am …

… but why does grief still surface sometimes?

Well, life has been teaching me that no matter how we feel, both sides of a polarity exist, and that’s why I’ve been learning how to flow with the truth of my feelings, instead of choosing a side – because both can be true.

It’s normal to slide on this scale, and that’s how we learn to find our BALANCE, but we need to also feel a deeper CONNECTION with ourselves.

For example …

As a mother, my greatest joy is baring witness to my children’s happiness, as they grow together with their partners in love … so when my daughter shared her wonderful news the other day, I was so happy that her partner of (8) years had proposed to her when he did – because it reflects a beautiful alignment with this months Leo energy, and his courage of the heart.

I wanted to share this happiness with those closest to me, and I noticed how my mood shifted into feelings of sadness – because the first person I wanted to call was my Mam, and just like that I felt the grief of loss – a feeling that then triggered all the disappointments of my own love story.

That’s how easy it is to lose ourselves in the moment.

Being conscious of what was happening within me, allowed the truth of my feelings to flow with less resistance, and I was back in the moment with happiness again, and I felt grateful … but grief was still present.

Because I am still very much single with no current desire to change that relationship status, and my Mam still isn’t here.

Well, actually that isn’t entirely true …

Because after sending my sisters a message, Mam popped up in my FB newsfeed moments later. As promised – she’s still letting me know that she is ALWAYS with us, and as my sister said yesterday …

“Trace, she had front seat viewing of the proposal,” and we laughed.

Our shared grief became another special moment, the LOVE felt stronger than ever, and those are the moments I feel Mam’s presence the most.

Truth is, losing my parents and soul sister like we did, challenged me to change in ways I never expected, and I became someone I didn’t imagine I would BE – because my open heart took a few too many risks during a time of BIG change in my life, but grief and loss have provided some important insights.

NO, I am not the same woman I was last year, and I won’t be the same woman I am today next year either – because NEW experiences change us, and as a woman who is OPEN to change, I’m in a constant state of growth.

As I improve the relationship I have with my SELF, I notice how I’m relating to others with more presence – because I’m being even more honest with myself, and less reactive to my own triggers. Therefore, I’m less distracted by my own thoughts, and more connected with the truth in my own heart.

LOVE isn’t something we lose …

… it’s an enduring connection that transforms within us ✨

Yesterday’s Solar Eclipse energy was occurring in the northing hemisphere, and I was HERE in the southern hemisphere experiencing the New Moon energy. Both events invite us IN to look at our shadow, but a Solar Eclipse creates fast change, and a Dark Moon feels like a slower reset.

It’s no coincidence that we are noticing the habits we want to change, so we can plant the seeds for new growth – because here in the southern hemisphere nature is shifting us into the season of Spring. 🌱

My conversations with the Moon are intimate, and that’s why intimate relationship felt significant yesterday, but that is NOT where I want my attention to flow – because as always, I had many other conversations about living a life that feels good for me, with or without a significant other.

Yesterday I wrote – I AM HERE because NOW is the only time that matters.

Today I ask myself …

• How am I telling my SELF to BE?
• What am I telling my SELF to DO?
• Where am I telling my SELF to GO?

I don’t want to go anywhere other than where I am, but I am moving forwards. I’m building a life of doing what I enjoy, and I always want to BE my true self – honest and authentic, but that isn’t always on the positive side of the sliding scale, and that’s how shadow is created in our psyche – IF we don’t accept the (-) aspects of ourselves, each other, and life.

So, I’m going to share a little story about how I dance with my own shadow …

This morning, I realized I had missed an event I wanted to attend yesterday, because I was lost in my own reflection, and it made me feel selfish for being so self absorbed. As soon as I realized, I reached out to the woman I didn’t show up for, apologized for forgetting, acknowledged how my attention was elsewhere, and expressed how sorry I was for missing the opportunity to support and share the experience with her.

This beautiful woman, began her message with …

“You were exactly where you needed to be yesterday, my friend.”

Although I agree, it didn’t make me feel any better about letting her down, and being the intuitive woman she is, that’s why she ended the message with …

“NO guilt allowed … fuck it right off.”

Those words made me smile – because it reflected the LOVE this woman not only feels for others, but the depth of love she must feel for herself, and I acknowledge the change for me – because guilt doesn’t have the same hold on me as it once did.

It’s NOT normal to respond with guilty feelings when we’ve failed to show up for someone we care about, it’s something we learn from the experiences we’ve struggled with.

How do YOU react when you feel guilty?

• Do you experience remorse?
• Do you have a strong urge to fix the mistake?
• Do you over apologize to make amends?
• Do you lash out or pull back?
• Do you give too much to feel better about yourself?
• Do you become over sensitive and defensive?
• Do you withdraw and hide from the person you’ve hurt?
• Do you avoid the conversation completely?

I’m guilty of doing ALL of those things at different times, for different reasons, with different people, so I’ve danced with guilt many times. I’ve learned how quickly guilt shifts into shame, and those stories are harmful for our self worth.

GUILT says – you made a bad choice, and it makes us feel wrong

SHAME says – you are a bad person

The LESSON is to learn and grow from those experiences

LOVE sees us for who we really are, and not what we did (or) didn’t do

I am blessed with the friendship of so many women that keep reflecting LOVE back to me, and for that I am extremely grateful – because it’s why I feel seen, heard, supported, and held in a safe emotional space.

It’s the reason why my nervous system is no longer in fight, flight or freeze response, and now feels calmer. It’s why I feel connected, balanced, and aligned even though it feels like my hormones are on crack sometimes (menopause)

When we no longer need to defend or protect ourselves, we can focus on fixing the hurt we caused ourselves and others – because our healing doesn’t just improve the relationship we have with ourselves, it changes how we relate with each other, and that’s why our healing matters.

My intimate conversations with the Moon …

… is an open and honest conversation with LOVE ❤️

My conversations with the Moon are intimate, and my rituals are simple

This morning I lit a fire before dawn
Because I wanted to sit under the dark, starry sky ✨️

Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune are in alignment … but Saturn and Neptune are in retrograde 💫

Science states the planets are too far away to have an impact on us, but star gazers share insights into how planetary alignments influences our soul story.

This is a brief understanding …

The SUN represents our outward expression of SELF, conscious ego, and the core essence of our soul, urging us to shine our unique light into the world

The MOON represents our subconscious mind, emotional core, and our inner most self that reflects our deepest intuition

MARS is the warrior planet that gives our soul courage to pursue it’s destiny

MERCURY is the planet of communication, translating the soul’s experience through language we understand.

JUPITER is the planet of Dharma, metabolizing our experiences into wisdom

URANUS is the planet of liberation, helping the spirit to break FREE

SATURN is the planet of Karma, teaching us about cause – effect

NEPTUNE is the planet of dreams, guiding the soul back home – to LOVE

SATURN is in RETROGRADE – taking us through a karmic audit to complete unfinished business. Delivering the hard lessons, collecting karmic debts, and setting the boundaries we need for the soul to transition from resistance to wisdom, and accountability to self mastery.

NEPTUNE is also in RETROGRADE – it’s dissolving illusions, and breaking down egos so the soul can reconnect with universal love, collective unconscious, and the Divine, to experience the return to our soul purpose.

That’s what’s happening above us, but what’s happening for YOU down here?

For me, it’s a decision to stop writing about the past, a strong desire to be more present in the moments, and a choice to create with more conscious energy.

Gazing into the fire

I asked …

Why do we struggle to let go?
What are we really holding onto?
Was it ever truly ours?
What are we afraid to lose?

Sometimes we are feeding the very thing we want to release …

💫A memory that still bothers us because it mattered
💫An experience that challenged us to change
💫A person we will always love because they left an impact
💫A relationship we’ve outgrown but never wanted to lose
💫A job we’ve always done but it no longer feels like our work
💫A person we never thought we would become
💫A life we imagined living with someone who is no longer here
💫A chapter we are stuck in because we won’t turn the page
💫A story we keep telling ourselves but the script has already changed

We ALL feed the old stories, the fear of loss, the disappointment, and the need to understand why it happened long after the moment has already passed, and then we wonder why we still feel a strong connection to it …

… but that IS the shadow work we are here to do.

Today’s Solar Eclipse and the NEW MOON are in LEO

Leo energy is BOLD, passionate, deeply devoted, powerful, fiery, radiant, confident, courageous, inspiring, warm, and open hearted. This energy creatively expresses itself, and it leads from sovereignty.

The shadow of Leo is expressed differently…

It seeks external validation, finds it hard to apologize or admit mistakes, seeks attention, leaves others feeling unseen, and lack of attention feels like rejection, but underneath the armour is insecurity, and a fragile sense of worth.

If you have been moving through the shadow …

• What is being revealed to you?
• What has come to light?
• What has been obscured from you, but never really lost?
• What do you want to give your energy to now?

For me, it’s been mostly around intimate relationship (surprise surprise)

LOVE never ends … but many relationships do

Although no-one actually belongs to us, our attachments will tell us otherwise

NOTHING stays the same when we learn
EVERYTHING changes when we heal and grow
That’s the purpose of an experience.

For me …

The truth is obvious
The heart has always known
The lessons have finally landed
The energy is grounded
The change has already happened

I AM HERE 🔥

As a woman, I’ve asked myself that question often, and those who care about me frequently tell me to love my SELF more, but if we are being brutally honest

We ALL struggle to truly love ourselves.

Loving ourselves isn’t something we’ve been taught to do, it’s something we learn to do after suffering the consequences of our choices …

Have you noticed …

Saying NO makes us feel bad?

Disappointing someone makes us feel selfish?

Setting a boundary makes us feel guilty?

Resting makes us feel lazy?

Rejecting social norm makes us feel ashamed?

Challenging limiting beliefs makes us feel uncomfortable?

Standing in our truth makes us feel vulnerable?

Change makes us feel afraid?

Why do all of those feelings make it feel wrong?

Because we care about others, and sometimes putting our self first is seen to be a selfish act.

… but that doesnt make it right !!

We won’t improve the relationship we have with ourselves, and others if we don’t notice how our own thoughts make us feel.

I’m still learning how to truly love my SELF, and some lessons have left scars – because I haven’t always trusted my own intuition, honoured my own truth, respected my own feelings, valued my own time, regarded my own energy, and known my own worth … but that’s how I have learned to trust my own intuition, honour my own truth, respect my own feelings, value my own time, regard my own energy, and know my own worth, and when those lessons finally land …

EVERYTHING changes 🌀 but we still feel the wobbles of change 😵‍💫

Most of us have been practicing our versions of self love for years, but it’s about more than making healthier food choices, reducing stress, moving and stretching our bodies, looking after ourselves, improving our sleeping habits, bubble baths, lighting candles, rituals, crystals, aromatherapy, massage, meditations, filling our crown chakra with sunlight, bathing under the moon, eating our favourite foods, buying things we like for ourselves, reading books, listening to podcasts, and repeating positive affirmations.

It’s acknowledging our worth, reaffirming our value, and relating to others from there.

• TRUE LOVE embraces who we are – flaws and all
• TRUE LOVE forgives the past – but can still say NO thankyou
• TRUE LOVE doesn’t hold on in fear – because it’s forever flowing
• TRUE LOVE releases judgment – but it will hold us accountable
• TRUE LOVE speaks the truth – and trusts the process
• TRUE LOVE embraces the journey – and is open to experience it all

LOVE will ask us the harder questions …

• Have you changed the patterns that keep taking you back to the same experience – because you haven’t learned the lesson yet?
• Do you keep choosing relationships that make you feel unseen, unheard, unmet, unfulfilled, too much, and not enough?
• Do you abandon yourself to make everyone else feel comfortable?
• Do you say YES when your entire body wants to say NO?
• Does the need for validation keep pulling you back into the same loops?
• Do YOU have the courage to meet your SELF completely?

Have you processed and grown from everything you’ve experienced?

• The conditioning – programmed responses, and habitual reactions?
• The wound – trauma, abuse, and pain?
• The split – disconnection, imbalance and unalignment?
• The fear, grief, rejection, betrayal, abandonment, and neglect?
• The longing, yearning, missing and desire?
• The envy, jealousy, and insecurities?
• The dream, fantasy, illusions, and delusions?
• The anger, guilt, shame, regrets, and remorse?
• The unmet needs, shattered dreams, and unfulfilled desires?

I have – but I notice how I’ve been feeling lost in the reflection, and that’s the door I am closing – because those experiences have already served their purpose, and NOW is what matters most.

For me, TRUE LOVE is like vulnerability – because it sounds like TRUTH and it feels like COURAGE, but it isn’t something we find outside of ourselves – it’s something we feel within before we can truly experience it with another.

The core essence of who we are IS TRUE LOVE .. so it’s within YOU ❤️

Tomorrow is the 8th day of the 8th month, and according to star gazers, the LIONS GATE is most potent, but how do we work with this energy?

THE LIONS GATE opened on the 26th July, and will close on the 12th August, but this years activation is flowing directly into the clearing and rebirth energy of a Solar Eclipse (12th), and NEW Moon in Leo (13th), so it’s a powerful time to activate, release, and renew. The cosmic alignment of Earth, the Sun in Leo, and Sirius (the spiritual sun) empowers us to claim our highest truth. In numerology, the number 8 represents power, success, karmic balance, cause – effect, and infinity. Whatever thoughts, habits, and patterns we feed into this infinity loop will repeat and cycle back to us.

Where is YOUR energy flowing?

what are you feeding?

The 8th of the 8th is a powerful window to manifest, so ask yourself …

• Who would I be if I stopped living by other people’s expectations?
• Does the way I spend my daily time align with my true purpose?
• What am I ready to stop carrying?
• What old habits am I releasing?
• What version of myself am I currently stepping into?
• What do I want to invite or welcome into my life next?
• What NEW life path am I choosing?

The August sky is creating some interesting conversations, and each planetary alignment brings another theme, lesson and energy to work with, but retrograding planets are inviting us to slow down, and look back.

There’s a story playing out for us this Eclipse season … and it’s on purpose.

First, Pluto went retrograde (6th May – 15th October) – Pluto’s themes are around transformation, power, rebirth, and the underworld. Hidden truths are rising into our awareness, so we can release unsupportive patterns no longer serving our highest good. Clearing heavy emotional weight creates space for a higher vibrational timeline, but only if we let go of old habits, feel our emotions fully, and set clear boundaries to protect our new energy.

Then, Neptune went retrograde (7th July – 12th Dec) – Neptune’s themes are around dreams, imagination, spirituality, mysticism, and the subconscious. This will feel like the reality check we need, to dissolve any illusions and fantasies, so we don’t keep repeating the same lessons.

Then, Saturn went retrograde (26th July – 10th Dec) – Saturn’s themes are around responsibility, structure, and discipline. According to the star gazers Saturn rules Capricorn (my SUN), and Aquarius (my MOON). Karmic patterns end, soul contracts align, past cycles close, and our efforts start to pay off.

• Every choice has a consequence
• Every intention creates a chain reaction
• Every lesson has a purpose
• Every delay protects us
• Every challenge prepares us

The collective story will be impacting on us all in some way, shape or form, but our personal narratives create a ripple effect on the collective story.

Chiron going retrograde on the 3rd will be triggering old wounds that still bleed so we can look at it from another perspective, and release the past – because those experiences have already served their purpose.

Chrion asks us to honour our needs, wants and desires …

• Where have I been carrying wound energy?
• How has this been holding me back from valuing myself?
• How safe do I feel to receive?
• Am I holding back in fear?
• How deeply do I trust life to support me?
• Can I allow myself to be nourished?
• Do I feel connected to the rhythm of life?

“Chiron energy will call out victimisation and emotional avoidance, it’s achingly truthful and it will open up the scars that didn’t fully heal.” (Romy)

Our pain has purpose, and it can become our greatest teacher, so if you are in the deep end of your healing journey, BE GENTLE with yourself because you are transmuting pain into wisdom, strength and a deeper sense of self worth.

As we approach the The Solar Eclipse on the 12th the divine masculine (SUN) merges with the divine feminine (MOON) to clear out old emotional debris, close chapters, transmute shadow, complete karmic cycles, and release outdated versions of our identity, so our energy can be renewed.

“The Divine Feminine is being called deeper into her intuition, self-worth, receptivity, creativity, emotional truth, sacred power, and ability to love without abandoning herself. The Divine Masculine is being called deeper into his heart, integrity, courage, purpose, emotional presence, protection, responsibility, and ability to stand firmly within his authentic power without closing himself to love.”

I love and embrace the depth this energy is bringing, but the shift is challenging me to keep LETTING GO, and that always triggers stories of loss, but I’m stepping out of the past, releasing old pain, and reclaiming my worth.

Our fate is the cards we are dealt …

and our destiny is determined by how we choose to play✨

Pip: Welcome to Breaking the Habitz Blog, where mindfulinteraction is out here reading the sky, the moon, and a photo that surfaced at exactly the right moment — as these things do.

Mara: This episode moves through two connected territories: how lunar and planetary rhythms are shaping one woman's experience of menopause and transition, and what the Triple Goddess archetype has to say about grief, loss, and becoming. Let's start with the moon and what it's asking us to release.

Full Moon, Menopause, and the Space Between

Pip: The post frames menopause not as a medical event but as an expansion — a shift from tracking the moon through a monthly cycle to reading a whole sky full of planetary signals. The central question it keeps returning to is: what have you outgrown?

Mara: The post puts it directly: "I frequently ask my SELF — what have I outgrown? It could be a habit, a pattern, a cycle, a belief, a relationship, a community, a friendship, or a version of myself that once felt comfortable."

Pip: That list is doing real work. It's not asking you to declutter a shelf — it's asking whether the entire framework you've been living inside still fits.

Mara: And the timing is specific. The full moon on July 30th lands in Aquarius, which the post describes as the visionary energy that challenges old systems. The sun is simultaneously in Leo — bold, creative, self-expressive. The post reads those two signs as a conversation: Aquarius asking where you came from, Leo asking who you want to become.

Pip: So the sky is essentially running a full identity audit. No pressure.

Mara: The Lions Gate portal, opening July 28th, adds another layer — the post describes it as a manifestation window tied to Sirius aligning with the sun, and recommends focusing on the solar plexus chakra to work with that energy. Saturn's retrograde from July 26th through December carries a heavier note, with the post asking whether we're carrying burdens that were never ours. That question connects directly to the grief and identity work in the next post.

The Triple Goddess and the Weight of Grief

Pip: The Triple Goddess post opens with a photograph — a mother flanked by her daughter and her own mother — and uses it to anchor an ancient Wiccan archetype to something immediate and personal: grief, regret, and the slow work of rebuilding a self after loss.

Mara: The post names it plainly: "When we lose someone who mattered to us, the grief never really ends — it comes in waves, and it's triggered by the memories and the moments we've shared together, but our regrets usually haunt us a little longer than it should."

Pip: That line about regrets outlasting grief itself is the part that lands. The post doesn't rush past it — it lists the whole catalogue: unspoken words, unrealized dreams, arguments that could have been avoided, misunderstandings that still sting.

Mara: And then it maps each face of the Triple Goddess onto a different kind of support during loss. The Mother holds the emotional weight and nurtures the future self. The Crone sits with pain, accepts what is, and converts sorrow into wisdom. The Maiden carries hope — she's the spark of renewal after the cycle of grief completes.

Pip: What's interesting is that the archetype isn't presented as a comfort that resolves the hard feelings. The post is honest that even with a strong spiritual framework, the heart still feels heavy some days.

Mara: That honesty runs through the whole piece. It closes not with resolution but with presence: "We are here to BE present — not perfect, not happier, not richer, not more successful, not right, not better — just open to FEEL the fullness of our life."

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Pip: Two posts, one through-line: the question of what you're carrying that no longer belongs to you — whether that's a planetary burden, a grief that's outlasted its season, or a version of yourself built for surviving rather than living.

Mara: The moon keeps moving, the archetypes keep turning. Next time, we'll see what else is on the horizon.

I’ve been looking UP at the moon to understand my monthly ebbs and flow for years, but as my cycle changes (thanks to menopause), I notice how my gaze is expanding towards the stars. I don’t consider myself a star gazer, but I’m learning how planetary alignments influence my thoughts, feelings and energy.

This months FULL MOON (30th July – 12.35am) is in Aquarius

Aquarius is known as the visionary – the part of us that challenges old systems, seeking a better way. The shadow of Aquarius is detachment and disconnection. Aquarius is my moon sign, and I’ve experienced both sides of this energy (the light and the shadow), so each experience has given me a broader perspective.

I frequently ask my SELF … what have I outgrown?

It could be a habit, a pattern, a cycle, a belief, a relationship, a community, a friendship, or a version of myself that once felt comfortable.

For me, during the lead up to this full moon there’s been a strong sense of feeling BETWEEN – but it’s about more than who I was, and who I’m becoming. While walking on the beach the other day, I acknowledged how often I walk between the past and the future – how my mantra during our family crisis was “Hope for the best, prepare for the worst, and function to the best of my ability in-between.” I’m conscious of how this became a NEW way of being for me, but it no longer fits – because life doesn’t feel like an ongoing crisis I need to survive anymore. Thank fuck – because it was exhausting.

In the past, this insight would be enough for me, but there’s so much more going on in the sky that’s having an impact on how I think and feel.

While the MOON is in AQUARIUS – the SUN is in LEO

Leo energy is a bold and radiant astrological force of courage, confidence and creativity – stirring the fires of our passion, amplifying our self expression, and igniting our personal power so we can be fully seen. The shadow of Leo is ego and drama, which I’ve also experienced my fair share of, but as a woman who is open to experience the fullness of my life, it’s served me well.

Oh, I haven’t always wanted to have that shadowy experience, and I’ve never liked it, but there’s always a reason why we experience something, even if it takes a while to be able to fully appreciate what we were learning from it.

According to the star gazers – Aquarius is questioning old expectations, seeking clarification about where it came from (family? society? religion?), and it’s questioning our past decisions, so we can take steps towards our future. Leo is asking us – who do we want to become? so we can step more fully into ourselves, and shine our light. The conversation between Aquarius and Leo is prompting us to find the BALANCE between expressing our own unique light, and remembering we are part of a much BIGGER constellation of stars.

The LIONS GATE opens today (28th July)

In the past, I’ve acknowledged the significance of the 8th of the 8th, but like the moon, there’s an activation process that begins before the portal reaches it’s most potent energy. According to the star gazers – the lions gate occurs when Sirius (a star) is in alignment with the SUN, often referred to as the dog star because of it’s place in another constellation, it’s also known as the spiritual star, because it’s visibility before sunrise brings a divine twinkle to the sky.

The lions gate is a manifestation portal so NOW is the time to focus on our spiritual alignment, by reflecting upon our feelings, so we can let go of what no longer serves us – because opening our hearts to feel the presence of our desires in present time, is how we align with what we want to experience.

Our energy flows where our attention goes

To tune into this manifesting energy – focus on your solar plexus chakra. Interestingly, before realizing that the Sun was in Leo, and before learning more about the lions gate, I intuitively bought a yellow candle the other day with the word SOLAR written on it.

I love those intuitive nudges

Apparently, Mercury ended it’s Retrograde on the 23rd of July, and my body responded unexpectedly – because after months of not bleeding, I started to flow. That’s why I know things are changing for me, but I’m still learning how to navigate the transition – from my usual monthly flow to an energetic pull IN-wards, where I’m integrating the power of my sovereignty

Saturn went Retrograde -26th July, and will end 10th December

This energy can feel heavy, but it’s asking us to BEWARE …

Are you carrying the burdens that were never yours to bare? “You were never meant to carry every season forever, some chapters exist only to shape you, not to stay with you” (Alexa – your beautiful life)

If something isn’t authentically ours, then it doesn’t have the foundations needed for the future, and we will be feeling the weight of this release.

According to the star gazers, Saturn has reactivated the magic triangle of a rare astrological alignment, and as I read about this cosmic event I can’t deny the resonance – because the alignment triggers a personal story for me

• Uranus is in Gemini – representing sudden freedom
• Neptune is in Aries – representing spiritual growth
• Pluto is in Aquarius – representing powerful shifts

I notice how I want to detach from the story triggering an emotional reaction, and focus on the collective story because I can feel the shift, but I know that would be a shadowy response. So, I acknowledge the version of myself that suffered the consequences of wanting to keep everyone else comfortable.

“I release the ache of disappointment and the pain of staying stuck. With the space this creates I play with wonder and curiosity. I celebrate the wisdom of knowing better and the courage I have birthed to embrace the change. Everything is unfolding in perfect timing and divine order.” (Romy)

To work with this months FULL MOON energy during the Lions Gate

It’s about more than what we are releasing …

• Where in my life am I being called to expand?
• Where is my life asking me to awaken?

Today, as I light a candle to honour the life of my beloved father, our DAD, who died 28th August 2019, I acknowledge the past with reverence – to bring peace and light to his memory, but also for my MAM, and my soul sister. The past is gone, and sadly so are they, but our parents are not missing from us, and they will never be forgotten. The enduring love I feel for those in spirit is an ongoing bond that brings me comfort, and it’s a guiding presence that remains with me.

My love is far stronger than any fear of loss I may have

When I heard a song the other day, it brought my attention to a connection I still feel with another, but I no longer desire what was never mine, and I’ve made peace with it. Letting go is never easy, especially when the love still flows, but some chapters are meant to end, and some doors are supposed to close.

What door way is waiting for YOU to walk through?

I can’t see a door yet, and I’m not sure how I feel about that if I’m honest.

I just know … I AM HERE