The first thought to pop into my mind this morning when I woke at 4am was …

“Tomorrow I’ll be wrapped up in his loving arms again” and my heart leaped with joy. Something I never expected to feel while in the midst of grieving the loss of my Mam 💔

Then again I never expected to fall in love so soon into my time in the UK either. To be honest I resisted any long term relationship thinking because I was figuring my life out and still healing my heart from previous hurts.

But life sure does have a way of bringing the unexpected our way.

From the get go we’ve had limitations and restrictions because of our living/working circumstances. Then Mam’s cancer diagnosis brought even more challenges to confront.

My emotional upsets, flying back to Australia and going through what we have for the last 5 months has tested our relationship.

To be honest I would have totally understood if he had backed off and called it quits. But when the going got the toughest, he booked a flight to Australia. Because during the worst time of my life he wanted to be here with me.

Well, I never expected that and to be honest I never hoped for it either. My hopeful heart has felt the pain of disappointment too many times before. So I’ve learned to expect the worse.

BIG lessons in life and love 💔

Over and over again John keeps showing me how much he loves me.

I call him my Action man ☺

He doesn’t woe me with empty promises, his actions show me. And without promise of a future, he embraces the moments of today.

Truth is, none of us are promised tomorrow. Truth is, we’re all learning in love. Truth is, I’m still a little fearful of trusting love.

But …

He stepped up when I needed him most.
He held on when I’ve fallen apart.
He patiently trusted my process
He let go when I needed to be here.
He jumped on a plane to be with me.

My kinda man ❤

Although we are both so very excited about being together again, we’re also a little nervous. We’re either gonna LOVE being in each others company for the next 5 weeks, or not 🤣

But I’m looking forward to finding out

We’ve spoken this morning and he’s already at the airport (12 hours before check in) because he knew his family were anxious about driving in the snowy conditions. So he wanted to make sure they got home safely before conditions got any worse.

An example of why I love him.

You’ll be here soon honey and I can’t wait to show you how much I love YOU ❤

I had a meaningful conversation yesterday that triggered a neccesssry shift within me.

I LOVE THAT 🤗

Not always so keen on the process though

Although new information can increase our understanding, expand our view and broaden our perspective. It can also shed light on some of our “negative” thoughts and feelings about self/others, that can trigger more discomforts before leading us towards deeper truths. 

My understanding is …

Our ego feeds from the fear in our minds
Our soul feeds from the love in our hearts

What is feeding YOUR experiences ?

I want my soul to GROW (not my ego)

Although I consciously choose love, I’m also aware that sometimes I’m unconsciously feeding my ego.

The shift from fear to LOVE is constant

Today, I’ve needed and prioritized the space and time to process new information. Integrating whatever resonated with my heart and allowing my emotions to flow freely without restriction.

I acknowledged the fear
I acknowledged the anger
I acknowledged the hurt
I acknowledged the guilt

Emotions I’ve been struggling to fully let go of, that have been causing me some tension. Emotions I’ve been holding onto because I couldn’t have the conversation with the person (I believed) could ease my emotional pain and suffering.

I needed to talk to my Mam 💔

But Universe works in mysterious ways

A conversation with my friend gave Mam a voice to share something that I needed to hear. Something that at first increased my feelings of anger, hurt and guilt.

OUCH !!!!

Bringing me deeper into the feelings that I’ve been struggling to fully RELEASE myself from.

Forever and Always she is with us ❤

Why am I sharing this with you ?

Because the more aware of my energy flow (and blockages) I become, the more I notice the changes (and resistance) within myself.

Something that EXCITES me 🤗

Because I’m interested in how we can liberate ourselves from our fears, heal our hearts and allow LOVE to overflow into our world.

I’m learning more and appreciating how the metaphysical offers a holistic perspective to our overall health and wellbeing.

Today, I’ve had an upset tummy and sat on the loo on/off with loose bowels. Suggesting a possible SHIFT as my solar plexus chakra opens (or) perhaps the baked beans I ate last night are moving their way through 🤣🤣🤣

Whatever the cause, I FEEL the shift

I believe that mindfully interacting with ourselves and others brings new meaning to ALL of our interactions ❤

TINKERS

When we were little girls our parents said to us

A promise we have made to you,
that will forever and always be true.

Fear itself, is more afraid of your ability,
to love and believe in otherworldly possibility.

The love of magic
Forever flows through your veins.

Trust your heart
Never be fooled by the fear in your brain.

Whenever you’re in trouble, lonely or afraid,
just close your eyes and wait,
for the fairies to come to your aid.

They told us special stories,
and held us all so tight.
They made us feel safe,
each and every night.

They said, if nightmares come,
as they sometimes do.
Just close your eyes and listen,
to the sound of Tinkers shoes.

Down from your light, she will appear,
And grow ten times her size.
To stand and fight your fears,
While you hold tight our eyes.

So, whenever I feel afraid,
whenever I feel blue.
I still hold tight my eyes,
and listen for Tinkers shoes.

You see, I still believe in fairies,
I still believe it true.
This is why I share,
this special story with you

Mindfulinteraction ❤

Mother moon called to me last night.
She beckoned me from my bed.
Her whispers sang to my soul.
At 3am I stood in the garden,
gazing upon her beauty.
Inhaling the magic of her magnificence.
The cool grass beneath my barefeet,
grounded me to Earth.
No thoughts in my mind needing cleared.
No aches in my heart needing soothed.
No notes to burn.
No intentions to set.
Just energy that flowed between us.
An open mind and heart.
Before her,
stood my soul.
SWEET SURRENDER
As ONE with Universe and Nature.
Can you feel the magic too ?

Mindful interaction ❤