Ive been reflecting over a blog I wrote 3 years ago, about people pleasing 3 years ago. Reflecting over some inner conflict I’ve been experiencing over the festive season. My struggle with over drinking and eating and how it impacts negatively on my mind and body.

Although I still choose to overindulge at times, I struggle more with the consequences.

When I drink too much booze, my mind isn’t clear and my writing doesn’t flow. When I eat too much food, my body feels heavy and my energy doesn’t flow, then I start to feel BAD !!!

I don’t want to feel bad, so I know I need to make different choices to feel good, but for me to feel good, I sometimes displease others 🤔

This Christmas, I’ve said NO and noticed the reactions of others, which has triggered me.

I wonder …

Why the fuck do we abuse our bodys?
When and how did overindulgance become the Christmas social norm to be expected?
Why are our self loving choices challenged?

Cognitive dissonance reflects CHANGE !!!

Although the inner tensions and conflicts still cause me discomfort, I appreciate the process and do my very best to flow with what surfaces without being too reactive to my triggers.

Sometimes I struggle with myself and that’s when I need to give myself time and space to reflect, to feel, to release and to understand.

Over the last few days, my emotions have been flowing because I feel a sense of inner conflict.

I’m where I want and need to be BUT I miss my family and friends. I believe in spirit BUT I miss my Mam. I’m excited about the possibilities of the future BUT I’m afraid of what’s possible. I believe in oneness BUT sonetimes I feel alone.

This is MY truth ❤

Over the past few days, I’ve been feeling unwell. So, I dove in to explore my inner world, drawing upon metaphysical theories because they align with my beliefs about health and well being.

Sinus is connected to our 3rd eye chakra, which influences our ability to think clearly (imagination, intuition, wisdom and awareness). I’ve already identified my inner conflict, how drinking too much impacts on my writing flow. So, I ask myself …

What do I need to RELEASE?

A limited belief?
An unexpressed thought?
A surpressed emotion?
A toxic habit?
An old pattern?

Yes, I believe that our physical symptoms are a manifestation of an inner tension/conflict, inbalance or a block of energy flow, which may be connected to any of the above …

But lets dive a little deeper ☺

As our consciousness expands, we become more aware of our being …

We not only have 7 main energy centres (chakra), as multidimensional beings we have 7 layers that radiate from us …

Our PHYSICAL body, which is 3rd dimensional matter. Our EMOTIONAL body, which is how we express our needs and self regulate (feelings). Our MENTAL body, which how we make sense of our world and create new realities (mind: our beliefs and thoughts). Our ASTRAL body, which is our life force (spirit). Our ETHERIC body, which is our energy field (aura). Our CELESTIAL body, which is our connection to the Universal energies (Moon, Sun and stars). And our KETHERIC body, our connection to the Divine (Source of ALL Creation) and this is considered to be the blueprint of our spiritial path.

I believe in our journey towards SELF LOVE ❤ because its the source of our HEALING 🌟

Since Mam’s passing, I believe this more than ever because she still watches over and supports me. It’s more than the memories that I will ALWAYS cherish and the FOREVER love I feel. Our conversations continue, but I’m learning to notice how she communicates.

No … I’m not crazy !!! … well maybe a little 🤣

Trust me, I don’t go looking for anything, but I am open to new experiences. And when I do have a new experience, I explore it, because it helps me to learn from it and it deepens my understanding. I’ve always been someone who needs to experience things for herself. It’s a personality trait that has driven my parents bonkers over the years. I don’t accept things I’m told as truth. I question what I read and I’m often challenged by my new experiences.

Sometimes I doubt what I sense because it’s harder to believe those things we can’t hear, see, touch, smell or taste. Perhaps that’s why our 6th sense is often disregarded and our connection to spirit & Source goes unnoticed?

Maybe that’s why Mam communicates through my senses? A whispering in my ear, an obvious sign I see, a synchronicity of divine timing or a dream. Perhaps she knows that having the “sense” she’s with me isn’t enough to believe?

Mam and I spoke alot about her beliefs and experiences with spirit over the years. Being the 7th daughter, her blind Grandmother, who had the gift of sight, said she had the gift too.

I believe we are all born with the gift of 6th sense, but some of us struggle to reaccess it.

Regardless of being raised by a woman, who openly shared her experiences with spirit. My own life experiences and social conditionings have and did disconnect me from the magic of Universe. It’s been a loooong journey home ❤

Truth is, none of us know for certain what happens after death, which is why we fear it. None of us know for certain if we have a spirit or a soul that never dies, which is why we doubt it. None of us knows for certain if our sense of spirit is real, which is why we question it. None of us know for certain what or who the Source of ALL Creation is, which is why we continue to explore, theorize and debate it.

I believe that life is far too complicated to just end. The cycles of Nature and the existance of a Universe, that expands far beyond our limited understanding of time and space, is enough to tickle my Wanderlusting curiousities.

What if, the spirit of our loved ones reconnects with Nature and Universe, What if, this IS the energy we are connecting and flowing with?

Maybe experiences since Mam’s passing are just a natural response to my need to feel her? Perhaps my new sense of reality is just a fabrication of my own mind? Maybe I want to believe she lives on in spirit, because I refuse to accept that it’s the end of her existance?

OR …

Maybe, just maybe there IS something more 🌟

I choose to live MY life mindfully
Consciously aware of myself
Fully present in the moments
Aware of my thoughts as they flow
Identifying any limited beliefs that limit me
Aware of my emotions as they rise and fall
Allowing the full expression of their presence
Aware of the energy I bring to my interactions
Acknowledging any blockages to the flow
Aware of how I feel in the company of others
Taking full responsibility for my own feelings
Aware of how others trigger or comfort me
Taking full responsibility for my own thoughts
Aware of how I trigger or comfort others
Taking no ownership for their experience
Witessing the beauty of Nature
Noticing the synchronicities of spirit
Sharing the magic of Universe
I choose to live life more fully
By embracing both spectrums of the polarity
The light and the dark
Neither being defined as “good” nor “bad”
Every experience valued for what it is
This is how I live MY life mindfully ❤

I choose to live MY life mindfully
Consciously aware of myself
Fully present in the moments
Aware of my thoughts as they flow
Identifying any limited beliefs that limit me
Aware of my emotions as they rise and fall
Allowing the full expression of their presence
Aware of the energy I bring to my interactions
Acknowledging any blockages to the flow
Aware of how I feel in the company of others
Taking full responsibility for my own feelings
Aware of how others trigger or comfort me
Taking full responsibility for my own thoughts
Aware of how I trigger or comfort others
Taking no ownership for their experience
Witessing the beauty of Nature
Noticing the synchronicities of spirit
Sharing the magic of Universe
I choose to live life more fully
By embracing both spectrums of the polarity
The light and the dark
Neither being defined as “good” nor “bad”
Every experience valued for what it is
This is how I live MY life mindfully ❤

I am an open book and share many of my personal challenges. I openly share because by nature, I am an expressive woman. Both writing and conversation is how I process my own experiences, which deepens my understanding.

I have no shame in who I am, what I think, how I feel or what I do. I have nothing to hide, but like you, at times I hold parts of myself back

Some of my experiences are only mine …

Sometimes Iife takes me in new directions, that I must live before I’m ready to share with others. Sometimes I must sit alone with my discomforts, doubts, fears and uncertainties until they make a little more sense to me.

Some of my experiences are only mine …

Sometimes I reflect over my sweet moments in private. Sometimes I explore different depths and dimensions of myself with no need to share. Sometimes I feel called to explore alternative realities and drift between worlds. 

Some of my experiencs are only mine …

Sometimes thoughts run through my mind and words fall away into wide open spaces, holding no other purpose than to flow. Sometimes feelings rise and fall, loosing intensity because they have no further meaning. Sometimes my words have no thoughts or feelings attached to them because they have come from spirit.

Some of my experiences are only mine …

According to the star gazers, this Full Moon is the best time to focus on any new projects, plans and possibilities we’ve been flowing with.

So, we ask ourselves, what action can I take towards manifesting the dream into a reality?

I’m not the same woman I once was
Once upon a time
I mostly travelled in my dreamings
Creating vision boards
Imagining all the places I wanted to see
Pondering over all the things I wanted to do
My adventures were limited to a budget
Because I held onto a limited belief
“To be able to go SEE and DO
I needed to have plenty of money”
But the more I liberate myself
From the limitations of my mind
The less limited I feel
Although I’m still well aware of my limitations
I think very differently these days
I don’t need plenty of money to see or do
The only thing I need is COURAGE
And a sense of humour …
I checked my bank balance afew days ago
And seen a grand total of 6pence
Having spent the majority of life in Australia
My mind automatically seen it as 6cents
And recognized the reference to 6th sense
Instead of freaking out
I laughed out loud
As spirit communicates with me
Universe shares a joke
Truth is,
Not only did I take a leap of faith
To create a life in the UK
This is the 3rd time I’ve lept
And its had an impact
On me and my bank balance
Life has challenged my trust
Loss has tested my faith
Yet here I am
With 6p in the bank
Still living the dream
Why ?
Because I have the courage
To BELIEVE in something far greater than me
And as my thinking changes
So do my experiences
As my energy reflows, so does the money
Inspiration is flowing
Contracts are coming
New possibilities are presenting
I know in my heart
That I’m destined for great things 
Truth is,
We ALL are !!!
I’m not sharing this for pity nor praise
I share my experiences to inspire others
To break free from their own limitations
So we can all shine 🌟