If my truth is different to your truth and their truth is different to our truth … then WTF is the truth ?

Poses an interesting question … dont ya think ?

I BELIEVE that to be true …

Something I appreciate most about my university education is how the experience taught me how to truly think for myself. It gave me the opportunity to learn the importance and benefits of questioning, reflecting and challenging everything … including MYSELF !!!

IF this is true … then TRUTH as we know it is forever changing as our experiences continue to shape us, which then changes the meaning as well as the purpose of truth. This has been a HUGE change of thinking in my life, which has caused a MASSIVE shift in my entire being

This is a GREAT image to reflect what I’m trying to say, which is …

If my truth is different to your truth then we are going to waste precious time and energy arguing about who is right or wrong. Because that is NOT the problem. The problem is how we are perceiving our reality, and how we understand the experience depends upon how much we understand ourselves … which brings it back to YOU !!!

Let me share a recent dilemma that caused me some discomforts …

My lover told me that he had lied to me. He admitted to have fallen deeply in love with me and could no longer hide nor deny his truth, which was that he lived with his “girlfriend” … OUCH !!!

YOU BETCHA !!! … it certainly got a reaction from me, but not quite the reaction I had expected. Instead of ranting and raving, instead of pointing blame and playing woe is me, instead of disconnecting and running away, I pulled back and told him that I needed time and space to digest what he had just shared with me because I acknowledged that it changed EVERYTHING between us … and it DID

I responded instead of reacting, which suggests some emotional maturity and FINALLY some growth I can work with

When we seek TRUTH then we cannot forget his/her partner … LIE

Both exist on opposite sides of the spectrum. Just as light cannot be present without dark and love cannot be lived without the experience of loss … Therefore, can the truth exist without the presence of a lie ?

Hmmmmm (she ponders)

Do you ever find yourself with holding in your relationship ?

Have you ever compromised your own needs to keep the peace ?

Are you afraid to rock the boat of comfort ?

Do you prefer to sail your ship on smooth seas ?

 Sometimes … the lie is unintentional because the truth is hidden from our sense of awareness. Those times when we avoid or deny our own truths because we are not yet ready to acknowledge or accept it

The truth bubbling away beneath the surface of our consciousness

When my lover shared his truth with me, I wasn’t expecting to forgive him so easily and I certainly wasn’t expecting it to bring my own hidden truth to the surface … that was a little unsettling

HONESTY … the fundamental truth that is the foundation for trust

As my lover shared the details of his truth, I found myself conflicted with my own truth … DAMN IT !!!

Although my truth may be different to your truth and their truth may be different to our truth … how we perceive it, will ultimately determine how we EXPERIENCE it … and if the experience we seek is related to the lesson we need

WHAT are we learning and HOW does it support our growth ?

Maybe I’m talking in nonsensical riddles ?

But how YOU perceive my words will depend upon YOUR own truth

I feel most alive in those moments of sexual pleasure when my mind, body and spirit are opening up. The pleasure zone brings an overwhelming sense of connection, relief and release. It’s when we LET GO and it’s where we can BE completely present in the moment … but it requires TRUST

As the waves of climax flow through our bodies we become more and more aware of our energy. Where ever the energy flows, stops or circulates tells us where we are holding back and blocking ourselves … but it requires HONESTY

Sometimes my orgasm pulsates through every part of my body and my energy flows freely. Sometimes my orgasm intensifies in one or several specific parts of my body. Sometimes I feel pain, discomforts or heaviness. Sometimes waves of climax flow but orgasm doesnt happen

 But only when I am alone, naked, vulnerable and exposed

Ripped open of all my defenses

Safe …

can I release whatever energy surfaces

Sometimes after I have climaxed, thoughts drift into my mind about past loves, hurts and longings. Allowing them to drift without attaching to them is becoming easier, which enables me to be completely present with what is

Accepting that moments of pleasure can also bring us closer towards our pain allows us to flow more freely with what is, which is a beautiful combination of light and shadow

Do you avoid sex and intimacy ?

How do you express your sexual and sensual energy ?

Can you identify the difference between sex and love ?

Do you seek out sex to satisfy your need for love ?

Important questions I often ask myself as a sexual active woman and my answers vary depending upon my wants, needs and my level of conscious awareness

Therefore my truth is FOREVER CHANGING …

Have you ever cried during sex ?

Have you ever cried after an intense orgasm ?

Tears are the words our hearts are not yet able to speak

Ive only ever cried  during orgasm with one partner in my life, my ex-husband, during a time when our connection was breaking. Since then, although I have experienced those overwhelming feelings of disconnection during intimacy, I’ve never felt safe enough to completely let go in the same way with any other sexual partner

But I sometimes cry after an orgasm when I’m alone, especially during those heart aches and hurts when I feel most disconnected. A disconnection I now understand as being from myself

Having a healthy sexual appetite, loving heart and passionate spirit means that sexual energy has a huge influence in my life. But it can also impact negatively on my experiences when I either try to deny that part of myself or when I confuse sex with love

 In the past my choice of intimate partners hasn’t always served me well, but they always bring me closer to my truth and for that I am GRATEFUL

My sexual energy holds a lot of power for change. So the more I heal, love and trust in myself … the more I embrace my own divine feminine energy and the more authenticity I seek

I am a work in progress