It takes courage to love ourselves, which is why its easier to focus on loving someone else
Maybe that’s why my heart was suddenly pulled back towards you ?
Right now … I’m sitting in some emotional funk
Revelations have popped up into my consciousness that bring new insights
Insights that serve to transform me … but into what ?
This doesn’t feel like an awakening … it feels more like the damn quickening !!!
A cellular rush
A molecular miracle
A strange, yet wonderful feeling …
Of being fully aware of the changes occurring inside of my body and mind
As if actually feeling the deconstruction of an old belief system and the reconstruction of a new paradigm ?
Consciously aware of the thoughts that are running at high speed in my mind, as my ego frantically tries to make sense of the new information … but its like Ive left the computer running and just walked out of the room
Consciously aware of the feeling of unrest that keeps my heart in a constant state of anxiety, as my heart excitedly contracts and opens up to receive more love … but its like Ive left the engine running and just vacated the vehicle
As if observing myself from a safer distance
Maybe … its just another form of AVOIDANCE ?
Or perhaps … I’m relaxing into a state of BEING ?
As I relax into the space and choose to flow with whatever may surface …
all I can do is WAIT
No need to explain, rationalize, justify or even understand
Just allowing me to simply describe it … is enough ❤