The journey

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Sometimes I ask myself
Is it OK to feel how I feel?
And I wonder,
Why do I need permission to feel?
Why do I devalue my own feelings?

Sometimes I ask myself
Is it OK to believe what I think?
And I wonder,
Why do I feel the need to challenge my beliefs?
Why do I constantly question my thoughts?

Sometimes I ask myself
Is it OK to do what I do?
And I wonder,
Why do I believe that my actions are wrong?
Why do I doubt myself?

Sometimes I need to give myself permission
To BE whatever the fuck feels right for me
And flow with whatever shows up for me
Without feeling the need to justify myself

Why should I be someone I’m not?
Why do I struggle to stay true to me?

I don’t want to do what’s wrong
But I don’t want to do what’s right either
I want to be fully in the reality of what IS

I wonder …

What if the polarity is an illusion?

Positive/Negative 
Good/Bad
Hope/Fear
Love/Loss
Light/Dark

Aren’t they all part of the whole?
An experience to be had in its entirety
To live life fully is to embrace ALL of it

Yet we struggle

Truth is,
We fight to be all of who we truly are
It’s an ongoing battle within ourselves
As our light struggles to shine
During our darkest of times

Those are the times we must dig deeper
Those are the times we must hold tighter
Those are the times we must open wider

During the storm
Nothing is as it seems

While I try to stay strong for you
I feel weary

While I try to stay positive for you
I feel defeated

While I try to offer you reassurance
I feel unsure

While I try to be of support to you
I feel shakey

Sometimes I ask myself
Is it OK to drop the mask?
And I wonder,
Why am I afraid to show you?
What are you afraid to see?

My energy moves in ebbs and flows
My thoughts aren’t always useful
My emotions aren’t always pleasant

But they are real !!!

The days come and go
Rolling into each other
Time seems irrelevant
Yet so very important

Sometimes I feel so very alone in my struggle

I know who I am
But why is this happening?
What is it teaching me?

Just when I think I get it
Universe delivers more
The challenges seem relentless

Sometimes the fear gets a firm grip
And I’m propelled back into the depths
Into my mind
Where the shadows lurk
Falling into an abyss of darkness

What is to be found here?

Sometimes the anxiety takes hold
And I’m suspended in panic
My breath becomes my focus
A reminder
That we control nothing

I surrender !!!

Life just keeps on happening around us
As we are tossed around inside of our bubble
Life is so very wonderful
But it can also be so fucking cruel

The fun fair isn’t much fun
When we can’t get off the roller coaster

Mindful interaction ❤

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