As most of you know, Dad’s been in hospital with multiple spinal fractures, getting his pain under control. So, we’re riding a rollercoaster of emotions because it’s another reminder of a harsh reality, we would rather not confront.
No matter what, Dad continues to face what comes with immense courage. And my sisters continue to be the amazing women they are. Supporting Dad and keeping me up to date.
As for me, I continue to feel torn between the life I’m trying to create in the UK, and my need to be with my family in Australia during times like this. An inner tension that created conflict and an abrupt ending to our relationship
Something I’ve been reflecting over …
Maybe I walked away too quickly?
Perhaps he let me go too easily?
But although our similarities compliment us and our differences challenge us, being in a relationship has been far from easy. Truth is, our relationship began during the worst time of my life and life doesn’t seem to be getting any easier.
Maybe that’s why I walked away too quickly?
Perhaps that’s why he let me go so easily?
Fortunately I was between contracts, so I headed north, seeking the support I needed to just BE the mighty mess I was. To allow myself to break down and fully FEEL what was rising.
The last 5 days have been turbulant !!!
But as I navigated through my inner world (my deeper most thoughts & feelings) during a NEW Moon when Mercury is in Retrograde …
I noticed something …
My inner Bridget isn’t dwelling in the usual soundtrack, “All by my self” feeling forsaken. Instead, she’s becoming better aquainted with her wounded self. The part of me that needs healing by my own love and compassion.
Is this the break through I needed?
Is this the healing I wanted?
I’m back on contract, in a much better mindset but still riding the waves. Focusing on the job, honouring what rises and preparing for my trip back to my family in Australia.
If you’re also navigating through turbulent times, then please don’t give up on love.
TRUST the process
…. and may the force be with YOU ❤