I wrote my previous blog to initiate a deeper reflection about my writing process, as suggested by a writing mentor.

Unsure which direction to go next, I asked …

• Do I just self publish my story as it is?
• Do I pay the big money for editing support?
• Do I look around for more affordable options?

And the answers were clear …

• NO … it’s not ready to be published yet
• NO … there are other supports out there
• NO … be OPEN to receive what you need

I also asked the deeper questions …

• What is the value of my work?
• What are my words worth?
• What is my relationship with money?

To explore my thoughts and feelings about my intrinsic worth (who I am), and my extrinsic value (what I do). Acknowledging how and why I’ve internalized projection has been a BIG and courageous step in reclaiming my self worth.

“Your perception of me is a reflection of you …

… and my reaction to you is an awareness of me”

• EVERY life matters, and MY story has value
• My purposeful words are worthwhile because they offer insight
• Cultivating an abundant mindset is how I shift the energy

Since sharing my previous blog things began to unfold, but it’s been an emotional few days, and it began with a voice message that triggered a reaction within me, and my choice NOT to reconnect left me feeling conflicted.

Part of me wants to reconnect, but I know myself better now. So, I acknowledged my truth, felt my feelings, processed my thoughts, and went to work that night. Before going on shift, I put on the compass pendant a soul sister in spirit gave me. I wasn’t really sure why I was thinking about her, or why I wanted to wear it again, but it was a gift she gave me at the airport, when I was heeding the call OUT to adventure in 2016.

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams,” (Thoreau) are the words she engraved on the back, to remind me to believe in the visions of my BIG dreams.

While on night duty I seen a post on Facebook, someone offering a FREE webinar for those wanting to write a memoir. Intrigued, I clicked on the link …

“If you’re interested in learning what it takes to transform your personal story into an excellent memoir, then this class will help”

• What is your story about?
• How can others gain meaning from it?
• Why would a reader choose to relive your experiences with you?

So, I signed up for the webinar, finished my shift, drove home, slept for a few hours, and woke 5 minutes before the webinar was about to begin. I was feeling the usual jet lag energy of a post night shift, but I dragged my weary butt out of bed, and clicked on the link to hear what service she was offering.

A (12) week program …

• Find the heart of your story (WHY does it matter?)
• The gift of thinking small (reducing overwhelm)
• Separation and transformation (the story comes through you)
• Creating a container (narrowing the focus)
• Unexpected directions (expanding horizons)
• Structure is sculpture (how to do it)
• Truth and memory (honour the truth, yourself, and others)
• Voice and permission (who are you writing for?)
• Family and other animals (when others object)
• Speaking of dialogue (bringing someone to life)
• Writing craft (show, not tell)
• Where next? (keep momentum)

I got those soulful goosybumps of resonance when she referred to the movie “Wild,” because that was a story that touched me deeply before my call OUT to adventure, and my own story is about how I’ve also learned to live beyond the loss. After the webinar, I felt overwhelmed by the presence of spirit, and the tears of both love and loss flowed from my heart.

Every connection and conversation felt significant yesterday, and those resonating were feeling it too, and I’m deeply grateful for their presence.

Instead of paying the hefty fee I was quoted by an editor, I’ll be paying less, and receiving more, so my next step is now known. I feel extremely grateful, but I believe Universe is a cosmic mirror, and it’s responding to who we are, not what we want or wish for.

How do we align with those juicy receptive Universal energies?

• Be clear about your intentions – know what you do and/or don’t want
• Be the version of you that’s already achieved the dream – know it’s yours
• Be patient – have faith and trust the process
• Be grateful – to align your energy with (+) receptive frequencies

Writing the first draft of my story has been to understand my healing journey, but there’s too much information, and too many words. So, after I do the (12) week program, I will have reduced the content, and then I will give it to an editor because they charge by the word count.

WHY am I so persistent about sharing my story?

• I want to give insight, inspiration and HOPE to others
• I want to offer another perspective of loss
• I want to help others to see death differently
• I want to share my understanding of relationship

So, as I move towards actualizing my BIG dream, I’m embracing the journey because I am always living within the dream in some way, shape or form.