There’s so much about living a gypsy life I miss, and being infront of an open fire in Nature is one of them. Building a fire outside makes me feel connected to my ancestoral roots, it ignites my inner flame, uplifts my spirit, and brings immense joy to my heart.

We live in a world of convenience, and its much quicker and easier to plug a kettle in, but when I use electricity I miss an opportunity to connect in this way. So, this is one way I am consciously slowing down this Winter.

A simple act of boiling water in my copper kettle, over an open flame, on a cold morning, while the sun rises is priceless, and it reminds me that happiness is something we create.

… but it’s natural to feel unhappy in loss.

To be honest, sometimes I feel frustrated with myself, but healing doesn’t have a timeline, and it’s a deeply personal experience. I’ve been rebuilding my life, re-engaging with systems that challenge me, reconnecting with MY truth, rebalancing conflicting energy, healing a disregulated nervous system, and realigning with my spiritual self.

It takes patience … and lotsa practice.

Healing an abandonment wound isn’t about finding someone who stays … it’s learning how NOT to abandon ourselves in relationship with another.

Healing a beytral wound isn’t about being with someone who won’t betray our trust … it’s learning how to trust our own intuitive guidance.

Maintaining healthier boundaries has been essential to my process, so I can fully appreciate when others need to detach and disconnect from me, and that’s why I still feel the LOVE ❤️

As I continue to learn from the past, feel more present in the moments, and imagine a better future, the collision of realities feel less confusing, because I understand the purpose of each timeline, and can give it meaning.

That’s how I grow from my experiences.

Oh, I still get the wobbles whenever I’m triggerd because I can still be a beautiful hot mess, but I am no less divine in my human expression of my true SELF.

I feel supported and guided by an energy with many names (Universe, Nature, God/Goddess, spirit, soul, Divine Mother and Father, Sacred feminine and masculine). An energy I consciously choose to connect with because it serves my highest good, and therefore the GREATER GOOD OF ALL.

Truth is … life will ALWAYS have its challenges, but with or without a significant other, my life continues to be a wonderful adventure ✌️😍