“Sometimes we have to die a little inside, to rise a stronger and wiser version of ourself ”

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

I appreciate how loss is an opportunity to learn deeper truths about love. I appreciate how my professional challenges provide opportunities to learn and enhance my skills. I appreciate how my personal struggles guide me inwards to better understand myself. I appreciate how our relationship triggers are opportunities to deepen intimacy. I can and DO fully appreciate how loss, challenges, struggles and triggers are essential to our healing and growth.

However …

I don’t always like what surfaces to be seen and I don’t always want to show and share it.

My dilemma being …

Suppressing my truth creates an inner tension and expressing my truth can create conflict.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

I’ve reached a stage in my life where I can no longer avoid myself, even when I want to.

Suppressing my truth brings me a sense of discomfort. I suppose, having a preventative focus and having explored the many variables of health and wellness, I can fully appreciate how a lack of ease or harmony within the body, can be a source of dis-ease, which is why I no longer avoid or fear conflict.

But I’m still a work in progress …

Although I’m learning to appreciate how my inner tension guides me towards conflicting truths, which I see as an opportunity to communicate more honestly with myself and others. Conflict also triggers our shadows, which is something we unconsciously want to avoid, deny and hide from each other.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

Like every break through, the break down I had last week had been slowly building up to it’s gradual climax. My experience of loss, professional challenges, personal struggles and relationship triggers were my undoing.

Truth is, I’m not always as strong as I seem !!!

Whenever I struggle with the presence of shadow, whether it be my own or someone elses. I notice the conflict between the WANT to run, hide, avoid, deny, shut down and suppress and the NEED to stay open, expose and express our truest thoughts and feelings.

I don’t feel the need to publicly share details of my professional challenges, personal struggles and relationship triggers because my intention is to share the process of change itself.

What is our shadow self ?

Our shadow is the unknown darker side of our psyche. The parts we deny exists and prefer to hide from others. It includes: repressed ideas, instincts, impulses, desires, weaknesses, perversions and embarrassing fears. And it represents wildness, chaos and the unknown.

When we deny our shadow, we act shady !!!

Shadow behavior is the biggest block to our best self and greatest cause of our suffering, which is why shadow work is so important.

YES, we are beings of love and light, but we cannot deny our shadow or avoid the darkness in others because like it or not, they both exist.

Our greatest challenge is transforming ALL energy into higher frequencies of love & light.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

The EGO naturally defends itself, by denying our shadow, while projecting it onto others.

EGO being the part of our mind that mediates between the conscious and unconscious. It’s responsible for the opinions we have about ourselves. And it senses and adapts to our ever changing reality. So, as we become more conscious of ourselves, we also become more aware of our internal conscious shifts. It can feel like a part of us is dying … because it is !!!

“Sometimes we have to die a little inside, to rise a stronger and wiser version of ourself ”

TRUST the process of change and growth ❤