In the darkness of night I listen to the silence of yesterday … I hear you
As the rains fall and wash away the debris of today … I see you
In the winds that blow us towards the promises of tomorrow … I feel you
As the bitter sweet emotions flow through my fleshy form … I taste you

Memories that linger in the depths of our minds … haunting us
Wounds that dwell in the shadows of our hearts … hurting us

None of us are alone in our suffering
None of us are isolated from the truth

As we awaken, those around us become more and more restless
Old paradigms die hard
Patriachial systems fight for their survival

As we heal, those around us become more and more curious
Old ways of doing and being are beginning to crumble
In readiness for something new

Change is upon us
But I hold you close
Comforting you in my soft bosom
Kissing the tears as they fall
Giving you strength to fight the fear
Offering you courage to soften and open up your heart

You are not alone in your uncertainty
My energy surrounds you
Together we are one
And as one we will create something beautiful
Each of us guiding each other home
To a place of wholeness and divine union
Where love and light is cherished,
Dark and shadows are embraced
And male and female are equal

Listen … and you will hear me
Look … and you will see me
Open … and you will feel me
Savour … and you will taste me

As I save you from yourself
You save me from myself

Mindful interaction ❤

The Inner Goddess Makeover, by Tanishka … “a map for empowering he feminine within”
Last month at our Goddess book club gathering, Tanishka introduced us to our inner Athena, Goddess of Wisdom and War, governed by our Solar Plexus

Stepping into our own Personal Power

According to Greek mythology Athena was the daughter of Zeus (God of Sky and Thunder) and Sophia (Goddess of Wisdom). Zeus swallowed his pregnant wife whole because he feared that his child would be wiser than himself. Athena, determined to full fill her destiny was born from her Fathers head. This is symbolic of our need to individuate from our Dads influence and to question any thoughts that keep us confined to his world view

Athena energy is the part of us that wont shy away from a challenge

Career focused, she is driven towards achieving success and will fight for just cause and purpose. She is the part of us who listens to her head more than her heart, which often causes some tension and conflict with our Aphrodite energy, who is governed by her heart

“To become truly wise we must experience both success and failure. Because vulnerability provokes reflection and life changes”

For me, this is another chapter rich in self discovery, reinforcing some of the inner work Ive been doing for some time now. Ive already explored who has and does influence my beliefs around self worth, relationships, work and money. So acknowledging the individuation process from our Fathers influence had a profound effect on my experience

Ive learned that when my own inner masculine energy hasn’t been acknowledged or balanced, I have sought out male attention and company, instead of focusing on balancing my own energy. Ive learned that when I have done this, I have made choices and selected mates based on my inability to fulfill my own needs, which has created unhealthy attachments that have lead towards the formation of codependent relationships. This is why I have lost the sense of myself and this is how I have created experiences full of tension and conflict

Hmmmmm … she ponders

Some ugly truths confronted but a huge and very significant lesson to learn

As women, our relationship with our Father has a significant impact on how we feel about ourselves, the choice of mate we select and how we think about work and money. Lets be clear, I am in no way suggesting that our Father is responsible for any experiences we have, whether they are good or bad. I am only pointing out how his presence or lack there of, has an influence on our lives

How does our mind belong to our Dad ?

How physically/emotionally present was our Dad during childhood ?

What limiting beliefs do we have around self worth, work and money ?

What is our greatest fear of failure ?

What is our Dads life lesson ?

How have we internalized this and are trying to complete it for him ?

Although I have my own opinions, I’m looking forward to asking my Dad these questions directly and having a conversation with him about it. Fortunately my Dad thrives on anything that’s likely to spark off a good debate

I was brought up in a middle class family. My Father was and still is a hard working man who takes his responsibilities very seriously. Ive acknowledged some limiting beliefs around money that is changing how I think and feel about work. I’m learning that the only way to live a life of abundance is to believe that we are worthy of having it. This shift in perception has been the catalyst for some big changes in my life, which has and is literally opening up my world to other opportunities and possibilities

I have finally stepped into the ACTION part of one of my manifesting quotes

DREAM it .. IMAGINE it .. BELIEVE it .. ACTION it .. CREATE it .. LIVE it

According to Tanishka, our inner Goddess of Wisdom and War is governed by our Solar Plexus, which is located in the abdomen

This is the core of our personality, identity and ego

Our energy center, where we seek out a mental understanding of our emotional self and  its where we balance our mind, our heart and our instinct

This chakra influences our will power, confidence, self discipline and self esteem

This is where we literally plug in to our own sense of POWER

This is where energy is transformed into ACTION

When we are REACTIVE our solar plexus is imbalanced

When we are INACTIVE our solar plexus is blocked

When we are PROACTIVE our solar plexus is open and energy is flowing

If you want to gauge how your PERSONAL POWER is then ask yourself …

Do you choose love, light and healing ?

Do you accept that you have the power to change ?

Do you feel a sense of freedom when you make a choice ?

SELF LOVE is at the core of this and every other chakra energy

Self love, self acceptance, self awareness and self worth are the building blocks of this energy center, which helps us to meet our challenges and move forward

When our solar plexus is open and balanced we value ourselves and the work we do. We are confident in our ability to do something. We are willing to express ourselves. We know that we have the freedom to choose and we become the director of our own life

“We have the power to choose to live our purpose (or) live out the karma from past experiences” … the choice is always ours to make

The lessons of this energy is to balance our strengths and shadow traits

Some of those lessons being ….

To recognize that our self worth is dependent upon our inner sense of being

To balance productivity & reflection to succeed both personally & professionally

To mentor those younger and less skilled without fearing they will out shine us

To trust that our intuition is our own sense of power and authority

To fully appreciate our Dads gifts and flaws and own them in ourselves

To validate our emotions by expressing them, instead of rationalizing them

To use money wisely to cover our needs before our wants

To not resent the success of others, but see it as a mirror of whats possible for us

As a reformed People Pleaser, there was a time when I would suffer all kinds of emotional anguish when I thought someone didn’t like me

Oh how times have changed

How did it change ?

I started to challenge those thoughts and ask myself …

What am I doing that may cause this person to not like me ?

Why am I doing it ?

How is what I’m doing unpleasing them ?

Why do I feel responsible for pleasing them ?

The answers are insightful ☺

Now, I notice those things that I dont like in others more and more

I observe how its reflective in me, by asking myself …

What are they doing that I dont like ?

Why does it trigger me ?

How does it make me feel ?

When am I doing this in my own life ?

What we think and how we feel will determine what kind of people we attract and what kind of experience we will have

Those experiences are neither right nor wrong

Those experiences are neither good nor bad

They are experiences that WE choose for our own learning and growth

That IS our journey

When we begin to tire of something or someone, it either holds no more value or they have no more purpose in our lives

We no longer need it

We have healed that part of ourselves and will hopefully no longer attract it

I believe more and more that we are ALL mirror images of each other

I believe more and more that people will flow in and out of our lives depending upon what we choose, what we need, what we tolerate and what we accept

I believe more and more that together we are ONE

Mindful interaction ❤

Why do you believe in magic ?

Why do you believe that you’ve been in other times, different to this world ?

Logic and reasoning says …

 ” Because your mother filled your head with fairy tales and fantasy worlds “

But another voice whispers …

” What if those stories helped to bring you home ? ”

” What if your mothers role was to remind you ? ”

Logic and reasoning says …

” Your mind will think up all kindsa rubbish that isn’t real “

” That is why we dont believe everything we think “

But another voice whispers …

” What if nothing is real and everything is a fantasy that we live ? “

” What if the more conscious we become, the more realities we can create  ? “

Logic and reasoning says …

” You’re tripping and you’re not real “

But another voice whispers …

” Yet we are both here inside of her mind “

Its taken me 42 years to truly understand this

Yup, Im a late bloomer and at times a very slow learner

Yet, my soul whispers … “Darling, you’re right on track”

The road hasn’t always been an easy one

I’ve taken wrong turns, gone over speed bumps, hit dead ends, confronted crossroads, taken detours and been around and around those darn round abouts

Yet, my soul whispers … “Darling, this IS your journey”

Multiple broken hearts have woken me up from a deep sleep

But my heart is still restless

Yet, my soul whispers … “Darling, trust me”

The words … SHADOW and DARKNESS now hold new meaning and purpose

My hurts and fears are signposts

Guiding me towards blockages that are stopping the flow of energy

These blockages can be many things …

A memory, a thought, an emotion, a belief, a person or a place

From my own lived experience (e.g.. a loss)

A fear passed down from someone elses experience (e.g.. a loved one wanting to protect me from pain or suffering)

From the collective experience (social and cultural conditioning that shapes my collective consciousness)

Or perhaps from any one of my many past life experiences (which lies much deeper within my consciousness)

The deeper we dive into ourselves, the more we discover

My need to dive deeper into myself is a strong pull that even I don’t always understand. People often question and challenge my choices, which sometimes increases my feelings of doubt

Yet, my soul whispers … “Darling, the answers will come”

I certainly don’t have all the answers … and never will

I’m just moving through life trusting my heart and listening to the whispers

Because they bring new understandings that are changing my life

Mindful interaction ❤

The thing about self love is …

We dont always learn its true value from being loved well by others

Some of us learn to self love by attracting experiences that hurt us

To shed light on how we are depending on others for our happiness

Teaching us how to find a deeper sense of love

We are abandoned, rejected, used and abused

We endure heart ache and we cry ALOT !!!

We confront our fears and we freak the fuck out

Our worlds are shattered and our tender hearts are broken open … OFTEN

But … WHAT IF this is our greatest gift of love ?

My own hurts and fears continue to guide me deeper and deeper inside of myself

To where I truly FEEL who I am

Towards my spirit

To a place where I am more than my thoughts and my emotions

Towards my energy

To a place where I feel supported, held and loved …

by something much bigger than myself

In the past I never understood the purpose of pain and suffering

In the past I couldn’t appreciate loss as much as I did love

Today … I am a very different woman

I no longer fear the fall

I welcome it

Because as our illusions are shattered one by one

Our reality changes

We begin to co-create the life we imagine with Universe

We start tapping into our magic and we become stronger

Our strength coming from our ability to fall apart and rebuild ourselves …

over and over and over again

We become fierce in our ability to feel and relentless in our need to love.

We are the warriors of love ❤

I’m here to live and love my own life out loud ❤

Like YOU …
I’m here to make my own choices
I’m here to learn my own lessons
I’m here to follow my own path
I’m here to create my own reality
I’m here to change my own direction

If our experiences are different, then we are living our own lives, learning our own lessons and walking our own paths

I’m not here to be perfect
I’m not here to please you
I’m not here to impress you
I’m not here to convince you
I’m not here to change you

I’m here to live and love my own life out loud ❤

Like YOU …
I’m here to follow my own passions
I’m here to find my own purpose
I’m here to give my own life meaning
I’m here to create my own happiness
I’m here to live my own dreams

If our experiences are different, then we are following our own passions, have found our own purpose and are creating our own dreams

I’m not here to live up to your expectations
I’m not here to follow the crowd
I’m not here to live life small
I’m not here to believe everything you believe
I’m not here to see everything you see
I’m not here to feel everything you feel

I’m here to live and love my own life out loud ❤

Like YOU …
I’m here to be real about who I am
I’m here to embrace all of who I am
I’m here to embody all aspects of myself
I’m here to be open about who I am
I’m here to love all of who I am
I’m here to love all of who YOU are

So … even in our differences we are the same

Mindful interaction ❤

I used to think I was an empath because of my highly sensitive nature. I now know myself better. I’m not an empath … I’m just learning how to function in the world with an open heart 💔

Empathy is seeing, listening and feeling another … but we cannot truly embody this way of being until we first see, listen and feel our own experiences.

As a child I was in my head far more than I was in my heart. As a teen I was introduced to the kind of change that shakes your world upside down. Literally, by emigrating from the UK to Australia. As a young woman I was thrown out of my mind and into my heart by multiple heart breaks. And now, as a maturing woman I’m learning how to balance my head and heart … alone

When the scales tip and I feel overwhelmed, I feel the most vulnerable. My emotional triggers are more exposed and I become more reactive and less responsive. My primal urges are activated and I can fall back into old habits. My thoughts become scattered and unfocused. My emotions intensify and flow rapidly into each other. It kinda feels like I’m drowning on the inside and like a tap, my heart wants to shut off the feelings because she becomes too uncomfortable in her vulnerability.

But a whisper tells me that I must stay open and FEEL it, however much it may hurt, confuse and unsettle me. I’m learning to listen to those whispers because they seem to know more than I do. I’m learning to trust my inner voice.

But during those times of overwhelming change and increased stress, I find it harder to be around people. I need those around me who understand my messy mind and hurting heart. Those who dont challenge or question my experience. Those who are willing to listen to my irrational thoughts and allow me to ramble. Those who hold space for the flood of emotions, allowing them to flow without restriction. Those who dont fear the darkness of the unknown. Those who let me BE whatever the fuck I am in that moment. Those I trust. Those who celebrate and support my ever changing self.

When my head and heart are unbalanced I become more empathic because my emotional self is on higher alert. The world becomes too peopley and I struggle to stay open. If I fail to listen to myself and respond to my own needs, then one of two things can happen. Either I will shut down and function on auto pilot, becoming numb to myself and others. Or I will stay open and start freaking the fuck out as multiple energies hit me at once. And because I’m a work in progress l struggle to maintain a sense of self in the midst of chaos.

Now I know WHY the spiritual guru seeks out solitude

I seem to be calling TIME OUT and seeking solitude more and more lately.

My reality is in the midst of change and I can feel the dream coming to life

So … WHY am I experiencing so much more tension and conflict ?

In the space of a few days, Ive been confronted with multiple challenges …

I’m packing up house and closing another chapter, which stirs up a variety of emotions as I more consciously move through the process of change. I’m moving back in with my parents to save some serious dollars, which stirs up feelings of going backwards, rather than moving forwards. My daughter expressed feelings of abandonment, which stirs up feelings of guilt. My heart has reconnected with my uncomfortable truth, which stirs up feelings of fear. I was pushed past my limit within my professional role, which stirred up feelings of frustration. And to top it off my sexual libido has been stirred to its peak ….. and I’m abstaining

Arghhhh !!!!

The more I feel pulled back into previous mindsets, the more my changing reality is challenged. Although at times it may feel like I’m being pushed back into a corner, the Universe is actually blessing me with the experiences I need to become more focused about my direction.

Why do I believe this ?

Because I believe the Universe is always talking to us … we just need to pay more attention to what is being said

After pushing myself way past my limits, I decided to wave the white flag and call for a much needed TIME OUT so I can process and release all the crap and shit. I was feeling a little guilty about calling in sick and thinking about the uncomfortable stings of misinformed judgements, that I was already feeling by those who dont understand my journey.

Then I opened up my email and found this sitting in my inbox

Another reminder from Universe that I am moving in the right direction

Another reminder from Universe that I am following the right path

Another reminder from Universe that I am making the right choices

Mindful Interaction ❤

I wont bore you with the details, nor the variables of the stressful situation because its neither the time nor the place. However, I do feel the need to talk about the process.

Like you, I try my best to flow in those moments of stress. Sometimes I do it well, other times I could do it better. While feeling under pressure and overwhelmed with responsibility, we either do what needs to be done or we fall apart. How we react will depend upon what we think and how we feel about stressful situations. And it will also depend on what else we are juggling in our lives.

Some people thrive on challenges, while others are barely surviving in their comfort zones.

What is the purpose of stress ?

I believe such experiences are a challenge to test how positive, productive and loving we can be during physical and emotional pressure.

I believe such experiences either challenge or reinforce our choices and motivate our forward action.

I’m learning how to make better choices for myself, so that less stress is experienced because lets face it, its not good for us or the people around us.

But sometimes we find ourselves thrown into a situation where we haven’t been given much choice. So we either sink or swim. We either DO or die. We either stay or GO. We either fight or flow with it.

We either moan about how its impacted on our own life or we seek the message and the lesson that this experience brings.

The choice is still ours to make

During the stressful situation we usually dont have much time to reflect over what we are thinking or how we are feeling. We are generally focused on trying to maintain a positive attitude, getting the job done and responding to the needs of others. But the aftermath of a challenging or stressful experience is another experience in itself.

If we are consciously aware of ourselves then our mind will process the thoughts and our body will express itself with all those yummy “feelings”

We may feel disappointed, annoyed, frustrated or angry with those who we “believe” have placed us in this situation. Or we may feel disappointed, annoyed, frustrated or angry with ourselves for putting ourselves there in the first place.

Whatever we feel is valid … allow the emotion to flow without attaching to it

Whatever we think is valid … allow the thoughts to flow without attaching to it

This process is important, which is why debriefing is highly recommended. Depending on how stressful the situation has been, we will either offload to our friends and/or family, or seek out professional support.

When we dont observe our thoughts and express our feelings, then our not so great habits can kick in. We smoke more cigs, we drink more booze, we eat more junk, we complain more, we suppress more. Habits that we “think” soothe and comfort us, but in truth they are destroying us.

I believe that our stressful experiences are valuable opportunities of learning. We not only learn a lot about ourselves and others during such times, we can also reflect over how we can make better choices for ourselves and others.

I feel like staying in my jimmy jams, scoffing junk food and guzzling down some whiskey. I could quite easily replay the situation over and and over in my mind and continue to feel frustrated about something I have no power to change. But instead, I said YES to my sisters offer of an afternoon walk.

Mindful interaction ❤

Do YOU dare to manifest your dream ?

Here are some great questions that will help you to discover exactly what and why you want to manifest …

Are you clear about what it is you want to manifest ?
What do you truly desire ?
Does thinking about it excite you ?
Would this desire hurt anyone ?
How would it positively impact on your life and the life of others ?
Are you willing to do whatever it takes to manifest this dream into reality ?

Reflect over y0ur answers because what we think and how we feel influences our energetic vibration, which impacts on what we will ultimately attract into our lives. So, the more gratitude, joy and excitement we feel, the more Universe will respond to that vibration and our desires and dreams will begin to manifest much quicker.

But successful manifesting demands us to be in the heart space of FEELING ❤

Diving deeper into our thoughts and feelings helps us to clear out anything that may be blocking the flow of energy between us and Universe. Our blockages are any negative thought patterns, unexpressed emotions and/or limiting beliefs that prevent the natural flow of energy. These are our biggest obstacles that prevent us from successfully manifesting our desires, achieving our dreams, living a life of abundance and creating the life we imagine.

We also need to be clear about the feeling we want to experience.

For example …

A desire to manifest more money is generally related to the want to experience more freedom. A desire for a soul mate is generally related to the want to experience more love. A desire to manifest a dream job is generally related to the want to experience more creativity and inspiration. Experiencing more freedom, love, creativity and inspiration in our lives not only brings more joy to our own lives, it also empowers us to inspire others to do the same.

When we want to feed back good energy into our world, then our intentions are to serve the greater good. Universe likes this ALOT and will conspire to make your wildest dreams come true. However, we must be prepared to receive some unexpected twists and turns because sometimes we need to experience something important before we are able to fully receive our desire. So it may feel like we are going off track and going in the opposite direction to what we actually want to manifest.

Trusting this is challenging and we can start to loose heart, but we are being guided towards an experience that’s creating space and preparing us to receive what we asked for. At times it may feel like the Universe is testing us … it is

When we choose to manifest our desires, our path can often change direction, which impacts on our own life and the lives of others. Our choices may cause indirect harm if we are no longer satisfying the needs of someone else.

For example …

If we decide that we want to manifest our dream job, then we might need to further our education. Maybe our classes occur at the same time as our son goes to soccer practice, that we have always attended. So we disappoint our son by not being there to support him.

If we decide we want to manifest a more satisfying relationship, then we might need to let go of the relationship we are currently in. So we hurt our partner when we tell them that the relationship is over.

But we need to ask ourselves …

Do we feel responsible for the other persons experience, and if so … WHY ?

Each of us are here to follow our own path, learning and growing from our own experiences on our journey. If we feel responsible for someone elses life, are we truly following our own path or are we living out someone elses life, based on the expectations that others have of us ?

We can often convince ourselves that our needs come secondary to our family.

Our dreams and desires put aside until our son graduates high school, until our daughter successfully achieves her goals, until our children leave home, until our husband is in a better paying job, until we loose all of our excess weight, until we have this, until we find that, until we feel ready.

What the fuck are we waiting for ?

“Never allow waiting to become a habit.  Live your dreams and take risks. Life is happening NOW”

The bigger our dream, the deeper our desire will be and the more effort will be required to successfully manifest it …

So, if YOU are willing to commit to creating the reality you imagine, then you are ready to start manifesting. If you’re keen to explore this further then click on the link below and enjoy creating your own kinda magic with the support and guidance of Sarah Prout ❤

Sarah Prout

And feel free to follow my progress as I manifest my own desires into reality