Opened up my emails this morning to find the official letter, confirming the training with my new prospective employer. The flight to Perth is already booked, my flight to the UK will be booked this week and my British passport is all set to go. Its ALL happening and I’ll be completely honest with you …
I’ve been quietly freaking the fuck out.
But … why ?
I asked for this, I want this and I need this …
So … why am I feeling so overwhelmed ?
Shouldn’t I be jumping for joy ?
All things considered, its hardly surprising I’m a tad overwhelmed. My life is changing direction right in the midst of a family crisis.
Seriously shitty timing !!!
The changes happening in my outer world are most certainly the result of the inner work I’m doing. Old limiting beliefs are beginning to fade away, as my mind opens up to new possibilities and my heart opens up to more love.
“When you really believe that you are worthy of the best, that you deserve the best and that there is enough of the best for you to have plenty, there will be no need for you to hold onto what you have. Allow yourself to imagine what your life would be like if your hands and heart were to receive something better than what you’re holding onto now.”
This has been the BIGGEST and most influential change. For years Ive been telling myself to never settle for less, to expect the best because I deserve the best … and now I finally BELIEVE it.
I acknowledge, the biggest influence to NOT change my life, is my family
At first, Dads cancer diagnosis put my plans on hold, but when we received the best case scenario, I decided I needed to go ahead with my plans. Because obviously there’s never going to be a good time to do this and the reality is, my plans could be on hold for even more years to come, which would cause me even more tension and conflict.
Whether its right or wrong I want to travel the world and experience new ways of being and doing. I want to have the financial freedom to live between the UK and Australia. I want to love and to be loved passionately. I want to have wild and wonderful adventures. I want to live a life full of inspiration and creativity. I want to be an active participant in creating positive change. I want to inspire and motivate people with my writing. I want to share the magic of manifesting our wildest dreams into reality.
My heart and soul yearns for those things.
Truth is there will ALWAYS be reasons why I should stay, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that staying is the right thing for me to do.
A realization that was soon followed with a sudden sense of urgency to …
DO it NOW !!!
“Maybe you dont have to push yourself forward. Maybe you just have to stop holding yourself back.” (Iyanla Vanzant)
The deeper I dive into myself, the less I can avoid or escape the truth that still lingers in the depths of my heart …
The fear of confronting the missing parts of myself
I’m not entirely certain what that means yet ?
All I know is that Ive been pulled back to the UK for many years for a variety of different reasons, but those reasons all come back to the same thing. A part of my heart still remains in the UK.
Nothing is certain, which means ANYTHING is possible.
But after years and years of dreaming, imagining, talking and planning, my dream is becoming a reality. I finally feel ready to let go of the life I had planned and am opening up to the life that awaits me. However, the timing might be right for me, but its far from being perfect timing. Dad begins his cancer treatment soon, Mam awaits confirmation for her bladder surgery and all 3 of my children dont seem to be in any great hurry to move forward.
As my new life begins to open up in front of me, apprehension increases. And no matter how much and how often my nearest and dearest reassure me that everything will be OK, I still battle with my own demons, that have conditioned me to fear the unknown.
Oh YES, I hear the voices, reminding me that I’m a fool for believing that I can have it all. But in the silence, I also hear a distant whisper, reminding me that I already have it all, and more. I only need OPEN myself up to receive it.
“Dont hold together what must fall apart. The familiar life crumbles so the new life can begin.” (Bryant McGill)
It makes perfect sense, after years of experiencing struggle, tension and conflict, that it can feel a little unnerving when things finally begin to flow, especially when the flow begins to pick up speed. As our reality begins to change, our doubts and worry begin to surface and panic can set it, which triggers off our old way of thinking. Our mind senses all those wonderful physiological changes happening in our body, relaying the message that we need to retreat back into the safety of our comfort zones.
We “think” we are experiencing anxiety …
But, WHAT IF we reprogram our minds and interrupt the message ?
What if we replaced the word anxiety with EXCITEMENT ?
Would our experience change ?
You betcha sexy cotton socks it does !!!
A simple flick of a switch in our minds can change our entire experience, alter our reality and shape our future. We can either increase or decrease the energy around creating our dreams. And it all depends on what we are thinking, how we are feeling and what we are doing
So, HOW do we achieve our BIGGEST and WILDEST dreams ?
Well, I see it like this …
First, we dare to DREAM what seems like the impossible dream. Then we allow our minds to IMAGINE what that dream would look and feel like in reality. Because the more we can see and feel our dreams happening in our waking world, the more we BELIEVE in our ability to CREATE it. But we must also take ACTION and do what it takes to bring life to our dreams.
We must be open to LIVE the dream.
And this my friends, is the hardest part of all …
because Universe will challenge us …
To release ourselves from what is, so that we can create something new. To let go of any unhealthy attachments that hold us back. To accept the sacrifices we need to make, however harsh and unfair they may seem to be. To go deeper within and work on our inner self. To take complete responsibility for our lives and to remove any blockages that may prevent the flow.
“Your dreams remain dreams until you choose to breathe life into them and make them real.”
Dream it .. Imagine it .. Believe it .. Action it .. Create it .. Live it
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