Riding the waves

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After afew wonderful days, I found myself back on that damn rollercoaster of emotions this morning. A chain of thoughts that dragged me back into grief and my frustrations about an uncertain future. More feelings that demanded to be felt and more tears in need of releasing. The hurts from my past and fears of my future. A rollercoaster ride I often want off !!!

Loosing the matriarch of our family is having such a huge impact on me. Especially when I’m feeling so very lost and insecure within myself. I don’t feel like the Woman or the Mother I had expected and hoped to be at 44 years of age. I wonder …

How can I feel unsettled, yet fear settling?

How can I trust in my dreams, when the nightmare keeps replaying in my mind?

Life continues to challenge me !!!

Although I focus on taking one step at a time, day by day and moment by moment. There are times, like today, when I need more support. Today, I’m reminded that family IS love ❤

Love, knows no bounds. Therefore, family is as small or as big as we decide it to be. As I continue to walk my path, not a day goes by when I don’t miss my family in Australia. So, I’m so very grateful for my Aunts, Uncles and Cousins here in the UK. Thankyou for your listening ears, words of wisdom, loving hearts, warm hugs, hot baths and the tasty tatti pot. I love and appreciate you ALL ❤

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