As a SEEKER of truths I ask alot of questions. Especially around death …
If death isn’t the opposite of life, but a part of it, why are we so afraid of death? If life and death is an illusion because we’re in a constant state of transformation, why does death feel so final? If death is the only 100% certainty in life, then why do we resist death’s presence?
Some of the questions I’ve pondered over 🤔
Truth is, there’s no escaping death even if we want to. We can’t out smart it and we can’t avoid it, which is why I want to know it better.
Having looked a little deeper into grief and loss for 20 years, I have a relationship of sorts with death. I’ve worked in Nursing Homes where it lingers in the shadows, waiting for the next soul to leave it’s body. Death danced around our parents, tormenting us with it’s presence for 3 years. So it was no surprise that death found me in my dreams, during times of great uncertainty. Taking me towards the depths of my despair. To expose my deepest and darkest fear to be seen. It was then I discovered my greatest fear is death IS the end. That there is no light, only darkness. That we are consumed by an eternal darkness and then fail to exist.
An existential crisis that tested the strength of my faith several times during our family crisis, when all hope was lost. From those traumatic and challenging experiences the daughter lived through her worst fear and lost her BE-loved parents 💔 but the SEE-KER gained deeper truths by dancing a little closer with death 💀
I’m not a religious woman, but I am a spiritual BE-ing who believes in a higher power. My FAITH is strong, but like many, it’s been tested by experiences of loss. Regardless of our faith based beliefs, many of us agree that there’s a higher power. I refer to it as The Source of ALL Creation, rather than labelling it as a God. However, I’m far more interested in knowing how your beliefs have and DO shape your faith, than proving what we believe is right or wrong.
Because our FAITH usually comes into play when death presents itself, we can’t deny how loss impacts upon our lived experience. This is something I understood when working in Aged Care. But we can’t talk about death without also acknowledging the significance of our lives.
What and who IS the source of ALL Creation ?
Many of us hold onto a particular theory about creation, but like death no one knows anything for certain. We seek answers to find meaning in our lives and purpose for our losses. When answers can’t be found, we keep exploring until we find something that fits within our belief systems (or) we may come to realize that we know nothing for certain, so our minds open a little more to other possibilities. We don’t hold onto (or) defend our belief systems, because we’re no longer afraid of being proved wrong.
The seeker becomes a SEE-ER when she/he releases themselves from the need to be right.
Over the years I’ve heard many different faith based beliefs, that have either resonated or challenged my own beliefs. Although I believe that a higher power is a source of energy, I accept that I don’t know for certain what it is.
I believe …
We are so much more than the thoughts we think and emotions we feel. Spirit is the true essence of who we are. Love and light is the expression of that essence, which is energy in its purest form. Energy is our life force, but it’s not the only way to exist. Spirit is our eternal BE-ing, but I wonder if our immortal soul is part of the whole that is the collective conscious?
Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders
Whether we believe that death brings us eternal darkness (or) infinite light when our essence is transformed is irrelevant. Because no one knows for certain until we cross that threshold for ourselves. What matters most is how our beliefs influence our lives NOW. Truth be told, even if the cynics are right and I discover there is nothing after death, it won’t matter because I’ll be dead anyways 🤷
So, I choose to keep on living my best life in whichever way that feels right for me. BE-ing the LOVE ✌️😍 Shining LIGHT on the darkness 🌖🌑🌔 and sharing the MAGICK ✨