What we want isn’t always what we need and what we want isn’t always meant for us.

Our resistance to what IS causes us to suffer.

We resist the flow because we don’t want to let go of what was. We try to convince ourselves that love is the reason why we are holding on, when in reality it’s our fear of the unknown.

But …

Some things aren’t meant to work out.
Some doors are supposed to stay closed. Some bridges are meant to burn.
Some relationships are destined to fail.
Some jobs no longer serve our purpose.
Some experiences are supposed to hurt us.
Some people come to teach us.

Life is forever changing and loss is merely a construct of our own minds. In truth, every ending is an opportunity for a new beginning.

Its up to us to learn how to recognize when we’re resisting the flow. To trust the flow of life and allow ourselves to experience the magic.

Always remember that YOU are the love that you seek ❤ and the magic lies within YOU 🌟

I’m the kinda woman who wanders off into the woods alone. I love to walk amongst the trees and sit with the nature spirits. The forest tickles my senses and nourishes my soul.

This afternoon I stepped into some red wellington boots, slipped on my favourite jacket of many colours, put on my winter fur, selected some music and wandered off into the woods at the bottom of the property.

As I walked, I listened to the melody playing from my earphones, and my body soon began to move to the beat. It was the kinda rhythms that made my soul feel like dancing.

Once in the woods, I danced between the trees, loosing myself in the music. Dancing like no one was watching and feeling joy in my heart.

I was fully present in the moments. Noticing squirrels darting to and fro. Birds of pray hovering overhead. Trees swaying in the wind. The waxing crescent moon playing peekaboo with the clouds. And a small deer running across the meadow, heading towards me. I must have captured his curiosity because he came in for a closer look, before skipping off.

As I danced, I thought about the story of Little Red Riding Hood, who was afraid of the Big Bad Wolf. I thought about how often I’ve been told not to wander off too far from the path alone. I thought about how many times I’ve been too afraid to loose myself in the woods. As I danced, I thought about the stories we are writing about fearless women. As I danced, my inner wild woman awoke and I felt she wolf energy flowing through and radiating from me.

I am WOMAN …
watch me RISE and hear my ROAR !!!

The distortions of witch, crone and hag has had a huge impact on who we “think” we are and how we experience ourselves in this world.

Ever wondered why the patriachy wanted to distort who and what women really were ?

I have often pondered over this 🤔

Although, I absolutely agree and believe that what we do NOW is the most important, sometimes we DO need to look back into the past. Because it helps us understand how our history has shaped us. I believe that this is how we increase our self awareness, deepen our understanding, broaden our perspectives and learn from our past experiences.

In the past men have feared the connection women have with Spirit, Nature and Universe.

But we were created to have this connection.

Its our ability to grow life within our wombs that connects us with the Source of Creation.

We birth life and at times experience death through our body. We become acutely aware of the life force (energy) that flows through us.

As women we intuitively know that Nature heals and we  have innate natures to nurture.

Over the years we’ve been led to believe that women were less than, witches were evil and old women were useless. Women have (and still are) being used, abused and murdered. We have (and still) fight for and defend our rights.

Hardly surprising that we often struggle to live fully in our truth, when we’ve been devalued for centuries. But, as our individual experiences change, so does our collective experience.

We are ALL healing from the past ❤

As we heal our personal wounds, masculine and feminine energies begin to flow with a little more ease. We begin to experience ourselves differently and interaction with other changes.

Neither matriach or patriach, masculine or feminine, male or female seeking power and control, but both striving for BALANCE.

NOW is the time to stand confidently in your power and share YOUR kinda magic with the world … WE are WOMAN … and we RISE 🌟

Ive been reflecting over a blog I wrote 3 years ago, about people pleasing 3 years ago. Reflecting over some inner conflict I’ve been experiencing over the festive season. My struggle with over drinking and eating and how it impacts negatively on my mind and body.

Although I still choose to overindulge at times, I struggle more with the consequences.

When I drink too much booze, my mind isn’t clear and my writing doesn’t flow. When I eat too much food, my body feels heavy and my energy doesn’t flow, then I start to feel BAD !!!

I don’t want to feel bad, so I know I need to make different choices to feel good, but for me to feel good, I sometimes displease others 🤔

This Christmas, I’ve said NO and noticed the reactions of others, which has triggered me.

I wonder …

Why the fuck do we abuse our bodys?
When and how did overindulgance become the Christmas social norm to be expected?
Why are our self loving choices challenged?

Cognitive dissonance reflects CHANGE !!!

Although the inner tensions and conflicts still cause me discomfort, I appreciate the process and do my very best to flow with what surfaces without being too reactive to my triggers.

Sometimes I struggle with myself and that’s when I need to give myself time and space to reflect, to feel, to release and to understand.

Over the last few days, my emotions have been flowing because I feel a sense of inner conflict.

I’m where I want and need to be BUT I miss my family and friends. I believe in spirit BUT I miss my Mam. I’m excited about the possibilities of the future BUT I’m afraid of what’s possible. I believe in oneness BUT sonetimes I feel alone.

This is MY truth ❤

Over the past few days, I’ve been feeling unwell. So, I dove in to explore my inner world, drawing upon metaphysical theories because they align with my beliefs about health and well being.

Sinus is connected to our 3rd eye chakra, which influences our ability to think clearly (imagination, intuition, wisdom and awareness). I’ve already identified my inner conflict, how drinking too much impacts on my writing flow. So, I ask myself …

What do I need to RELEASE?

A limited belief?
An unexpressed thought?
A surpressed emotion?
A toxic habit?
An old pattern?

Yes, I believe that our physical symptoms are a manifestation of an inner tension/conflict, inbalance or a block of energy flow, which may be connected to any of the above …

But lets dive a little deeper ☺

As our consciousness expands, we become more aware of our being …

We not only have 7 main energy centres (chakra), as multidimensional beings we have 7 layers that radiate from us …

Our PHYSICAL body, which is 3rd dimensional matter. Our EMOTIONAL body, which is how we express our needs and self regulate (feelings). Our MENTAL body, which how we make sense of our world and create new realities (mind: our beliefs and thoughts). Our ASTRAL body, which is our life force (spirit). Our ETHERIC body, which is our energy field (aura). Our CELESTIAL body, which is our connection to the Universal energies (Moon, Sun and stars). And our KETHERIC body, our connection to the Divine (Source of ALL Creation) and this is considered to be the blueprint of our spiritial path.

I believe in our journey towards SELF LOVE ❤ because its the source of our HEALING 🌟

Since Mam’s passing, I believe this more than ever because she still watches over and supports me. It’s more than the memories that I will ALWAYS cherish and the FOREVER love I feel. Our conversations continue, but I’m learning to notice how she communicates.

No … I’m not crazy !!! … well maybe a little 🤣

Trust me, I don’t go looking for anything, but I am open to new experiences. And when I do have a new experience, I explore it, because it helps me to learn from it and it deepens my understanding. I’ve always been someone who needs to experience things for herself. It’s a personality trait that has driven my parents bonkers over the years. I don’t accept things I’m told as truth. I question what I read and I’m often challenged by my new experiences.

Sometimes I doubt what I sense because it’s harder to believe those things we can’t hear, see, touch, smell or taste. Perhaps that’s why our 6th sense is often disregarded and our connection to spirit & Source goes unnoticed?

Maybe that’s why Mam communicates through my senses? A whispering in my ear, an obvious sign I see, a synchronicity of divine timing or a dream. Perhaps she knows that having the “sense” she’s with me isn’t enough to believe?

Mam and I spoke alot about her beliefs and experiences with spirit over the years. Being the 7th daughter, her blind Grandmother, who had the gift of sight, said she had the gift too.

I believe we are all born with the gift of 6th sense, but some of us struggle to reaccess it.

Regardless of being raised by a woman, who openly shared her experiences with spirit. My own life experiences and social conditionings have and did disconnect me from the magic of Universe. It’s been a loooong journey home ❤

Truth is, none of us know for certain what happens after death, which is why we fear it. None of us know for certain if we have a spirit or a soul that never dies, which is why we doubt it. None of us knows for certain if our sense of spirit is real, which is why we question it. None of us know for certain what or who the Source of ALL Creation is, which is why we continue to explore, theorize and debate it.

I believe that life is far too complicated to just end. The cycles of Nature and the existance of a Universe, that expands far beyond our limited understanding of time and space, is enough to tickle my Wanderlusting curiousities.

What if, the spirit of our loved ones reconnects with Nature and Universe, What if, this IS the energy we are connecting and flowing with?

Maybe experiences since Mam’s passing are just a natural response to my need to feel her? Perhaps my new sense of reality is just a fabrication of my own mind? Maybe I want to believe she lives on in spirit, because I refuse to accept that it’s the end of her existance?

OR …

Maybe, just maybe there IS something more 🌟

I choose to live MY life mindfully
Consciously aware of myself
Fully present in the moments
Aware of my thoughts as they flow
Identifying any limited beliefs that limit me
Aware of my emotions as they rise and fall
Allowing the full expression of their presence
Aware of the energy I bring to my interactions
Acknowledging any blockages to the flow
Aware of how I feel in the company of others
Taking full responsibility for my own feelings
Aware of how others trigger or comfort me
Taking full responsibility for my own thoughts
Aware of how I trigger or comfort others
Taking no ownership for their experience
Witessing the beauty of Nature
Noticing the synchronicities of spirit
Sharing the magic of Universe
I choose to live life more fully
By embracing both spectrums of the polarity
The light and the dark
Neither being defined as “good” nor “bad”
Every experience valued for what it is
This is how I live MY life mindfully ❤

I choose to live MY life mindfully
Consciously aware of myself
Fully present in the moments
Aware of my thoughts as they flow
Identifying any limited beliefs that limit me
Aware of my emotions as they rise and fall
Allowing the full expression of their presence
Aware of the energy I bring to my interactions
Acknowledging any blockages to the flow
Aware of how I feel in the company of others
Taking full responsibility for my own feelings
Aware of how others trigger or comfort me
Taking full responsibility for my own thoughts
Aware of how I trigger or comfort others
Taking no ownership for their experience
Witessing the beauty of Nature
Noticing the synchronicities of spirit
Sharing the magic of Universe
I choose to live life more fully
By embracing both spectrums of the polarity
The light and the dark
Neither being defined as “good” nor “bad”
Every experience valued for what it is
This is how I live MY life mindfully ❤

I am an open book and share many of my personal challenges. I openly share because by nature, I am an expressive woman. Both writing and conversation is how I process my own experiences, which deepens my understanding.

I have no shame in who I am, what I think, how I feel or what I do. I have nothing to hide, but like you, at times I hold parts of myself back

Some of my experiences are only mine …

Sometimes Iife takes me in new directions, that I must live before I’m ready to share with others. Sometimes I must sit alone with my discomforts, doubts, fears and uncertainties until they make a little more sense to me.

Some of my experiences are only mine …

Sometimes I reflect over my sweet moments in private. Sometimes I explore different depths and dimensions of myself with no need to share. Sometimes I feel called to explore alternative realities and drift between worlds. 

Some of my experiencs are only mine …

Sometimes thoughts run through my mind and words fall away into wide open spaces, holding no other purpose than to flow. Sometimes feelings rise and fall, loosing intensity because they have no further meaning. Sometimes my words have no thoughts or feelings attached to them because they have come from spirit.

Some of my experiences are only mine …

According to the star gazers, this Full Moon is the best time to focus on any new projects, plans and possibilities we’ve been flowing with.

So, we ask ourselves, what action can I take towards manifesting the dream into a reality?

I’m not the same woman I once was
Once upon a time
I mostly travelled in my dreamings
Creating vision boards
Imagining all the places I wanted to see
Pondering over all the things I wanted to do
My adventures were limited to a budget
Because I held onto a limited belief
“To be able to go SEE and DO
I needed to have plenty of money”
But the more I liberate myself
From the limitations of my mind
The less limited I feel
Although I’m still well aware of my limitations
I think very differently these days
I don’t need plenty of money to see or do
The only thing I need is COURAGE
And a sense of humour …
I checked my bank balance afew days ago
And seen a grand total of 6pence
Having spent the majority of life in Australia
My mind automatically seen it as 6cents
And recognized the reference to 6th sense
Instead of freaking out
I laughed out loud
As spirit communicates with me
Universe shares a joke
Truth is,
Not only did I take a leap of faith
To create a life in the UK
This is the 3rd time I’ve lept
And its had an impact
On me and my bank balance
Life has challenged my trust
Loss has tested my faith
Yet here I am
With 6p in the bank
Still living the dream
Why ?
Because I have the courage
To BELIEVE in something far greater than me
And as my thinking changes
So do my experiences
As my energy reflows, so does the money
Inspiration is flowing
Contracts are coming
New possibilities are presenting
I know in my heart
That I’m destined for great things 
Truth is,
We ALL are !!!
I’m not sharing this for pity nor praise
I share my experiences to inspire others
To break free from their own limitations
So we can all shine 🌟

I’m feeling a lack of authenticity because I wasn’t smiling when I posted “Keep smiling”

So, why did I post it ?

I posted it because I noticed how our smiles were the same. I posted it because no matter what Mam kept smiling. I posted it because no matter what I also keep smiling.

But I also keep it real !!!

I don’t want to impress by sharing only on the positives. I want to inspire you with the truth. I don’t want to comfort you with half truths. I want to challenge you to love the negatives.

Because if we’re truly embracing our TODAYS then we are living and loving ALL of it !!!

Although I believe that Mam is with us in spirit, I still flow with the waves of my grief. Although I trust the process of change, I sometimes struggle with the flow. Although I respond to the whisperings of my soul, I sometimes feel challenged. Although I follow my heart, I’m still balancing my energy and healing my wounds.

For me, writing is part of my healing process. I write to make sense of my world. I write to express and explore my inner most thoughts and feelings. I write to connect with myself and others. I write because I’m called to write.

So, how am I really feeling tonight ?

Tonight I’m not feeling as strong as I seem.

This contract has it’s challenges, as they all do, but I’m also flowing with memories as they pop up. Inbetween the professional, I acknowledge the personal. So, on my breaks, I write because it helps me to process my experiences.

As a sharer, I feel it’s important to be authentic with my offerings, so I drop the mask.

This afternoon, my insides were unsettled and I’ve been cramping. My periods are coming but they haven’t yet arrived. A hot bath usually soothes, but tonight the heat only increased my discomfort. So much so, that I had to get out.

Laying on the bathroom floor, I felt the blood flowing rapidly through my body. As I lay there I was aware of my life force pulsating, but my heart was pumping blood way too fast, so I focused on my breath. As I lay on the cold hard floor, a thought flowed through my mind.

I thought about Mam’s life force leaving her body, cold and lifeless. A thought that brought sadness to the surface. As I cried, I rolled into the foetal position and allowed myself to feel.

In that moment I felt far from strong.

In truth, I needed Dave. I wanted to feel the comfort of his presence, but we are apart and I’m missing him. To be honest, although I share my thoughts and feelings openly, I still struggle with my sense of vulnerability in relationship.

This is the kinda stuff I usually journal, but every now and then, I’m called to share my inner most thoughts and feelings because someone somewhere needs to read it. To know that they’re not alone in their struggle. Perhaps I share so I don’t feel so alone in mine?

As my body flows with the energy of Universe, I feel a deeper sense of connection and a stronger sense of purpose. I don’t fully understand but I trust the process and surrender to the flow. Knowing that all will be known in divine time. Until then, I allow my thoughts and emotions to rise and fall without resistance … and FEEL ❤