My first up close and personal experience with Lilith


The Inner Goddess Makeover, by Tanishka … “a map for empowering he feminine within”
In the first chapter of Tanishkas “The Inner Goddess Makeover” we are introduced to Lilith, our inner wild woman. I was raised as a “good” Christian child who had a pretty close relationship with the Church of England growing up. I was christened, confirmed, went to Sunday school and was even in the Church choir (dont laugh). So, the first time I heard the story of Lilith I felt a multitude of emotions, the loudest being anger, sadness and frustration. Acknowledging and RELEASING these emotions was the beginning of my heart healing and my first up close and personal experience with Lilith energy

So … what is the story of Lilith ?

According to Hebrew mythology Lilith was the 1st wife of Adam, who refused to lay beneath him in sexual intercourse because she would not kneel to his demands for male dominance. She fled, refused to come back, was cursed by “God” who then created a more subservient and submissive Eve for Adam. Lilith returned to the Garden of Eden (the evil ex wife) with new insights and knowledge that she wanted to share with Eve. We better know Lilith as being the serpent who offered the apple “knowledge” to Eve

Hmmmmm … she ponders

Some say that the story of Adam and Eve was actually the beginning of the patriarchal system, which kinda makes sense. Perhaps this explains why Lilith has been demonized over the years ?


What if her disobedience and promiscuity threatened this system ?

Hmmmmm … she ponders

Its not just our own individual stories that impact upon our experiences

ALL of our stories from the past continue to influence the present and help to shape our future … so I believe that this is a story well worth knowing

As a culture we are GROWING and forever CHANGING because of our stories

Our EVOLUTION depends upon it

But, we no longer seek to follow a matriarchal or a patriarchal system

We seek BALANCE and EQUALITY between the two

And I believe that we can CREATE this by learning from our past


The first time I worked though the wild woman chapter I had to work through a lot of my own crap that was getting in my own way … the superficial BULLSHIT that deterred me away from the deeper truths that sat in dark corners

All those wonderful little gems waiting to be found

Treasures that unleashed MORE emotion, MORE thoughts, MORE questions

I was ANGRY as fuck for being misled and suppressed by a patriarchal system. Led to believe that the creation of our wonderful world began with the story of Adam and Eve

But, seriously … have any of us really believed that as TRUTH ?

I’m not saying that I dont believe in a Higher Power of Creation … because I DO

I’m not saying that Ive blindly followed the masses … because I haven’t

I’m only expressing my belief that ALL of our sacred scriptures are stories that share a version of truth, not THE ultimate truth to be swallowed up as being gospel … I believe that this is one of the biggest downfalls of religion

I was ANGRY as fuck for all the BULLSHIT women have had to go through over the years to get us to this point in time, which triggered off some deeper emotions on a collective level. A profound sense of connection to our ancestors before us who were persecuted as witches and beaten into submission. Those brave souls who refused to SIT DOWN and SHUT UP and instead STOOD UP and SHOUTED OUT !!!

If it wasn’t for them then WE as women wouldn’t be able to EMBRACE the GODDESS

So … from my heart to yours I THANK YOU ❤


Working through the “Lilith” chapter wasn’t all that pleasant the first time around for me because I unleashed so much emotion during my own personal acknowledgments, which had my energy in a frenzy for several months. Keeping an open mind and heart wasn’t always so easy while I was sitting with those horrid hurts and fucked up fears, but something kept telling me to …

“STAY OPEN in any which way you can”

So I did … with my French lover ❤

But I’m pleased to say that my experience has been VERY different the second time around. After staying OPEN and releasing the emotions attached to this energy, Ive been able to tap into the source of Lilith and my own sacred space … for want of a better word ☺


This leads me to introduce you to CHAKRA (wheels of light)

According to C. G Jung they are “The Gateways of Consciousness”

“The 7 main chakras lie along the nave of the spine and through them a persons spirit and soul become receptive and communicate with cosmic energies. Each chakra has its own purpose, association and connection. Balancing the chakras and making them receptive to the Divine Universe is not only beneficial to our well being but also the only way of uniting the Individual soul with the soul of the Universe”

According to Tanishka our Lilith energy is strongly connected to our ROOT chakra, which is SURVIVAL based (instinct) and is the very FOUNDATION of who we are. It links us to our physical world and defines our concept of BEING

When this chakra is blocked we have an inability to trust. We focus on material possessions and we either have a strong need to satisfy or deny our desires

When BALANCED and in HARMONY we experience a profound CONNECTION to nature. We TRUST and have a deep understanding and appreciation for the EBB and FLOW

Our root chakra is located between our genitals and anus, which explains why my sexual energy has been whirling like a whiz. An interesting space to find myself while abstaining from sex because my sexual frustrations seem to be transforming into something else … something NEW

“Lilith INSISTS that we feel through, let go and surrender to something essential and transparent in us that is the bedrock of the soul” (M . Kelley Hunter)

Hmmmmm … you betcha she does


Gathering in circle with other women to share our individual experiences with Lilith energy has been a wonderful part of this process

Some are a little reluctant to fully open up as yet, so are tentatively dipping their toes into the chapter, the circle and themselves. Some are sitting with uncomfortable realizations, so are in the midst of conflict and tensions. Some are throwing themselves into the depth of the process, digging for those unknown treasures and secrets that await to be found in the darkness and we ALL move in between and across those spaces, depending upon what surfaces for us


But regardless of walking different paths, having had different experiences, facing different challenges, sitting with different discomforts, confronting different tensions, healing different hurts and overcoming different fears …

We are ALL opening up to NEW experiences ❤

Ive always known that there is so much MORE to life and this journey INWARDS is bringing me closer to what I seek. For me I wrap up this first chapter with a deep sense of appreciation for both Eve and Lilith. I express GRATITUDE for both energies within myself because they each hold value and important links to our past, present and future


I believe that SOCIAL MEDIA is a platform for CHANGE, which is why I choose to SHARE my process with you

I believe that one person has the ability to CREATE the flow of energy for others

I believe that we INSPIRE and SUPPORT others to OPEN and HEAL when we DO

I believe that this is only the BEGINNING of something EXTRAORDINARY


For me the EMBODIMENT of Lilith energy is about our autonomy, sexual equality and the beginning of our destined journey of CONSCIOUSNESS ❤

Do YOU want to tap into YOUR Lilith energy ?

Then do ALL you can to stay OPEN in mind, body and spirit

STAND in and EXPRESS your truth


Tap into ALL of your SENSES

Unleash your WILD WOMAN in the way that feels right for YOU

EXPERIMENT with and EXPLORE this energy

Because it WILL change YOUR life

As we know MEDITATION takes on many forms and for me DANCING to tribal music has been helping me to channel my Lilith energy almost instantly

Oh yes …. those wonderful whirly whizzing red vibrations ☺

So empty the house of people, BE ALONE, draw the curtains, light the candles, play this music, close your eyes, feel the sounds, rip off your clothes, sway your hips and let the mood carry you away to wherever it wants to take you

I invite YOU to liberate yourself☺

❤ ❤ ❤ … ENJOY … ❤ ❤ ❤

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