There are several discomforts and challenges in my life at the moment

Its a struggle to stay centered, balanced and focused because my mind keeps racing with thoughts and my heart is heavy with emotions.

The flow is sometimes like a raging current

Tensions and inner conflict are making me feel uneasy

A battle between the OLD and the NEW

The way I understand, function and experience myself in the world is forever changing. So, I want to write about my experiences with a little more honesty.

  The more truths I confront, masks I drop, darkness I shine light on, shadows I embrace, polarities I balance, wounds I expose and fears I rise above, the more I appreciate how important these experiences are in our process of healing.

Ive filled yet another journal with my thoughts and feelings (note to self: buy another journal). But I often struggle to express myself fully in my blog, which Ive identified as being my resistance to talk openly about my experiences. Acknowledging that the reason I hold back is because my experiences involve other people, so I’m respecting their privacy. But how can I write openly about my experiences if I keep omitting parts of the story ?

Hmmmmmm … she ponders

Ive been reminding myself that my thoughts and feelings around others are rooted heavily in love and my intentions is to support healing and growth. My instincts are telling me that …

NOW is the time for Breaking the Habitz to BREAK FREE !!!

Daring to write my blog entries in the same format as I journal my thoughts and feelings puts me into a state of panic. But as a writer, I want my words to be dripping in more soulful substance (note to self: DON’T buy a journal, BLOG it)

Oh heck !!!

I’m already squirming in my chair … are YOU ?

But I acknowledge that the challenges I confront, make for some juicy journaling. And my writing continues to guide me well through my own life, so I would like to share that process a little more openly with you all.

What will I write about first ?

It makes sense to write about whats causing me the most discomfort NOW, which is the anxiety I’m feeling in my heart … watch this space

Mindful interaction ❤

Today, I took myself to Blenheim Palace because I wanted to see the rose gardens and I needed to spend some time with the mighty oaks. I needed to be held by something bigger, stronger and wiser than myself.

I wandered a while, hugged a few trees, followed a trail of white feathers to the rose gardens, smelled the roses and found myself a nice quiet spot to sit.

My uncertainty leaves me feeling weary, so I lay down. Focusing on my breath, I drifted in and out of sleep, sobbing into the grass.

Connecting my heart with Mumma Earth

  After a little while, I sat up and started to write in my journal. As the words flowed onto the paper, the tears continued to flow from my heart.

As a family, our whole world has been shaken up

Our hearts are breaking  for each other

Two ducks waddled over and sat down beside me. I appreciated the company because I was feeling so very alone in my grief. I kept writing and sobbing, but they stayed. One made herself comfortable beside me on the right and the other nestled down behind my back. They closed their eyes and rested beside me. I felt blessed to have them near because their presence offered me a sense of comfort.

When the words eventually stopped flowing and the tears ran dry, I laid myself back down and rested with them. Neither of them stirred as I fidgeted around, making myself comfortable. They were so close, I could reach out and touch their beautiful feathers.

I woke suddenly with a thought … “Jemima Puddle Duck”

Our beloved Grandma (Ma), Mams mother, Violet had a Jemima Puddle Duck on her kitchen window sill. And for years she searched the Sunday markets for a male companion to sit with her, whom she found a week before she fell to the kitchen floor from a massive heart attack.

I asked the ducks “is this you Ma and Da” .. to which they both opened their eyes

The little brown duck gave a little quack, got up and started to waddle off. The bigger duck, looked at me, then followed his mate.

My heart burst open and I cried tears of gratitude

The ducks came to deliver a special message of LOVE

I know the message they gifted me will touch the heart of all my family and friends and I hope it inspires you all to OPEN up to the magic of Nature, Spirit and Universe.

Mindful interaction ❤

Change, its in the air again …

Tension rises within me
A conflict between what is and what is becoming
No longer standing at the crossroads
My internal compass guides the way forward
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

My heart feels anxious
Unsure about the road ahead
Uncertain about whats yet to come
Unsettled about how it will come to pass
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

My mind is quiet
Accepting the lack of control
Surrendering to the flow
Fully present in the moments
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

Waiting for answers
Wondering about solutions
Hoping for the best
Preparing ourselves for the worst
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

Old patterns are falling away
New energies are emerging
Consciously releasing what no longer serves me
Understanding the manifestations
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

Universe has heard our prayers
But its difficult to accept the gift which as been delivered
Even harder to appreciate the beauty of the healing experience
So she falls into the abyss and trusts the process of change
Note to self …. BREATHE !!!

Mindful interaction ❤

During our greatest challenges there’s an opportunity to move from fear to LOVE ❤

As a family we always HOPE for the best, while preparing for the worst. We FEEL the blows and together we ride the waves of the storm. No matter where we are on the globe we know love knows no bounds.

Truth is, nothing can be healed until it arises into consciousness and manifests itself into reality.

If its happening, its here.

So stand up to the fear and acknowledge the worst case scenario. Say it out loud and give it a voice SCREAM if you must, cry your fucking heart out, curse the heavens, just EXPRESS whatever arises within YOU ….. then exhale

BREATHE deeply and consciously into your heart space. Allow the thoughts and feelings to flow without attaching to them …. observe

LISTEN to what your soul wants

and DO it !!!

For me time in NATURE reconnects me to my truth and reminds me of the bigger picture.

LIGHT shines brightest in the dark
MAGIC is always within and around us
LOVE will set us free

Mindful interaction ❤

My hearts breaking and it hurts to breathe
I desperately need more support
I need to know why the fuck this is happening ?
So I take a walk through the Nature Reserve
I notice the little things
The trees help me to breathe easier
I find a quiet spot to sit and contemplate
Listen to the birds sing and the bees hum
Watch the butterflys and the bunnys at play
Feel the cool air on my cheek
Smell the sweet scent of wild flowers
Curl up onto my side and drift off to sleep
(my kinda meditation)
Roll over onto my tummy
My heart beats against the soft earth
Soothing my heart
I stand and look down
See several empty snail shells on the ground
Snails have been popping up alot lately
Note to self: google spiritual message later
Take afew more steps
See 2 small fuzzy white angel feathers
Take afew more steps
See another lone golden wish clock
I feel the magic in the air
Carry on walking
A young priest passes by with his dog
A word pops into my mind … FAITH
I still don’t have all the answers
But my heart feels calmer and it softens
Fear fades with each exhale
And LOVE begins to fill my lungs
Faith makes all things possible
It’s a belief in that what we can’t see

Mindful interaction ❤

How the fuck do we actually DO this ?

Is it even possible to stay positive while we’re in the midst of a negative experience ?

YES because like everything else, its a CHOICE that we make

But its far from easy because during our most challenging times we are usually confronting some of our biggest fears and sitting with our deepest despairs. During our negative experiences all of our defense mechanisms and coping styles will kick into gear.

Old habits die hard, but its important to challenge them

Notice …

What am I thinking and doing ?
How do I feel and what am I avoiding to feel ?

These are the times when I have lit up the cigarette to ease my anxieties

Drank the whiskey to numb my overwhelming emotions

Scoffed the food to soothe and comfort myself

Fell into the arms of someone I love or into bed with someone I dont

I’m far from perfect and still DO some of those things during my most challenging moments, but the more mindful I become of myself, the less self destructive my habits are.

During our greatest challenges we will often DO anything but sit with the reality of what’s happening within US. We seek comfort and/or divert our attention elsewhere to soften the blow.

Yup, its hard enough to be completely present, let alone to stay fucking positive

Learning how to be fully present and maintaining our positivity during a negative experience is a mindful process. Its a habit Ive been trying to cultivate and I’m not always successful. During my biggest challenges I often fail in my attempts to be positive.

I dont like how I instantly jump and react to the worst possible case scenario whenever I’m delivered bad news. And it frustrates me how I’m fully aware when I’m avoiding myself because if I know better then I should be DOING it better. But I’m learning how to be a little more gentle with myself when I dont think, feel or behave positively.

This is the time I practice ultimate SELF LOVE ❤

How do I maintain a positive attitude during my emotional storms ?

I do my very best to keep it real because if it looks, smells and feels like shit, …

then IT IS SHIT !!!

Sometimes the most positive thing that we can DO is to fully accept the negative aspects of the situation, which comes down to how we THINK about the negative experience.

I understand and appreciate that any unexpected change that’s thrust upon us during a crisis, has the power to shatter our hearts into pieces and break us OPEN to something NEW. Breaking us OPEN to FEEL and to HEAL something WITHIN us.

These are the times when we are walking through FEAR

Its important to note that the purpose of fear is to sharpen our senses and energize us during times of great stress. Facing our fear is dealing with negative thoughts and emotions as they flow. These are the times when we must TRUST that each step we take into our fear strengthens us and helps us to confront whatever lies ahead with courage and confidence. And the more willing we are to stare fear in the face, the more FAITH  and LOVE within ourselves grows. Allowing the next steps of healing and growth to be a little easier.

I strongly believe that maintaining a “positive” attitude is essential, but if we don’t fully privilege the “negative” then we experience a false positive, which is self destructive.

So PLEASE dont ask me to stay positive or to be strong when I need to fall down, break open and fully FEEL the experience as it flows. In those moments I am supposed to be feeling raw and vulnerable.

Ask yourself WHY do you want me to be positive and strong ?

And you may find that its about YOUR discomfort with the situation

HOW the fuck do we positively experience a negative experience ?

By changing the way we “think” about our “negative” experiences

Its true what they say …

” When we cannot control something then we are forced to change how we think about it”

When my heart breaks open and I’m shattered, its because the world as I know it is changing. I’m in the midst of chaos and I’m struggling to make sense of it.

During my biggest challenges I AM the storm

And just like Nature, my moods are wild and unpredictable. My mind is either racing with a multitude of thoughts or a complete blank. I lack the ability to give a fuck about those who are watching from the safety of the shore. You are either in the boat with me or offering something of value that I need.

And what I need in MY storm may differ to what YOU may need

What do I need ?

I dont need your advice … unless I ask for it

I need you to trust that I can survive this
I need you to allow and encourage me to FEEL whatever flows
I need you to believe that something far bigger than you or I is at work
If I forget, I need you to remind me about the purpose of the storm
I need your love, your hope and your prayers

During crisis, its ESSENTIAL to maintain a positive attitude but its equally important to allow ALL thoughts and emotions to flow.

Our thoughts will be conflicting and we will feel uncomfortable. But accepting the storm is how we navigate more mindfully through it. And in time we may even begin to celebrate the storms

During YOUR storm allow the grief, the confusion, the fear, the anger and whatever the fuck else arises to flow freely.

Live it FULLY !!!

OBSERVE your thoughts and process the experience
Don’t believe every single thought that you think

FEEL every good, bad and ugly emotion that flows
TRUST the process and hold onto HOPE with every ounce of FAITH that you have

Stand up to your fears and say YES I see you

Ask yourself …
What am I most afraid of ? ? ?

Voice it … say it … SCREAM it !!!

I am afraid to fully feel this
I am afraid of loosing you
I am afraid to fully live this experience

Then notice how the fear begins to fade and welcome the RELEASE

SURRENDER and TRUST that Universe is SUPPORTING you

My note to self during surrender is …

Stay OPEN hearted and FEEL it because that’s how we HEAL it

Inhale and exhale DEEPLY because our BREATH helps us to stay fully PRESENT

NOTICE where the energy is FLOWING or blocked

Rise above the fear and embody the LOVE

Mindful interaction ❤

The strong woman’s strength is her weakness

Ironic isn’t it

Shes challenged most by her strength, which makes her a difficult woman to love. Because whenever shes feeling emotionally fragile, she reluctantly exposes her vulnerability to the man she loves. Yet when shes feeling vulnerable, she needs to be seen and longs to be held the most.

A beautiful contradiction

She wont ask for your time or attention, but sometimes she will need it.

She struggles with the “need for other” because she knows it dis-empowers her.

So, she takes deep breaths, dives inwards and breathes into her sense of discomfort. Allowing emotion to rise and fall, focusing her full attention on what’s happening inside of her.

Asking …

Where am I avoiding myself ?
What don’t I want to see or feel ?
Who or what am I reaching for ?
What do I need from someone or something ?
How can I give this to myself ?
What am I resisting ?

I acknowledge that whenever I feel “needy” I experience it as weakness. And its my biggest challenge in my intimate relationships.

 I notice that I need most when I’m tired, poorly and feeling overwhelmed. This is when I feel “sooky” and “sensitive” and need someone to take care of me. Those are the times when I’m challenged most by thoughts and feelings around “other.”

When I’m in love, I fear “depending” or “relying” on him.

Why ?

Because Ive had many disappointments in the past. But the strong woman soon learns that such disappointments serve her growth. Because when we confront disappointments in our relationships, we confront our expectations that guide us towards our own lack of self love.

We fall into the depths of despair and into the darkness of our own minds, where we fight our inner demons. And this is how we gain our emotional strength and learn how to SELF LOVE.

A woman of strength will NEVER need a man in her life, but she will ALWAYS want to share a life of love.

She wants you to understand WHY she doesn’t need you.

What she needs most is to feel SAFE to be exactly who she is

Mindful interaction ❤

The bravest thing we can ever do … is to love again

I had plenty of reasons why I shouldn’t meet him, but I decided to focus on the reasons why I should. I was new in town and wanted to make new friends. Since arriving in the UK I had met some wonderful women, but was lacking male energy around me. I enjoy being in the company of men, so decided to hop onto POF and check out the local lads. But this time I wasn’t looking for a lover, I was hoping for a friendship.

He was new to the online dating scene and I had been back on the site for only a week, already feeling quite frustrated by the whole thing. We were both just looking for some company without any expectations, so it sounded like the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

On our 1st date (that wasn’t a date) there was an instant connection

We decided to meet at the Redlion pub in the center of Oxford. We both turned up half hour early, but neither of us were aware. Because while I sat in a booth indoors, he was waiting for me outside in the beer garden. I wandered up to the bar to see if he had arrived and noticed him straight away. He was sitting outside looking at his phone, typing a text to me. As he looked up and smiled, I instantly had a good feeling about him, so hugged him hello.

Being in his company felt “right” and our conversation flowed easily. He didn’t say much (when I eventually stopped for breath) but his eyes spoke to me. He wore glasses that magnified his baby blues and framed the windows of his soul beautifully. He kept smiling at me. I wondered what he was thinking and how he was feeling about meeting someone for the first time from an online dating site.

So, I asked him …

He told me that he was comfortable in my presence and that he was glad we had decided to meet as friends. Maybe that’s why we both felt so comfortable? because there wasn’t any pressure of hoping for a romantic spark or if we were attracted to each other. It was just two people sitting down, getting to know each other and it was wonderful.

Several times throughout our conversation I thought to myself “WTF are you telling him that for, ya fool” but I just kept on sharing my stories. We took a walk to another pub down the road, in search of food for my hungry belly and we shared a bowl of nachos (which were terrible). Neither of us like hot and spicy foods, so I dared us to eat one of the jalapenos for a laugh.

I liked how he enjoyed being silly and it was nice having fun together. As we hugged goodbye, I smiled as I wandered home because I knew that we had connected on purpose. I felt my heart opening up to him the moment we met, but it was OK because it was the beginning of a beautiful friendship … no pressure.

On our 2nd date there was something flowing between us

We met at the Victoria pub in Jericho. He was waiting for me outside and I noticed how his eyes lit up when he seen me. I liked how he walked over to meet me instead of waiting for me to arrive. We hugged hello and he took my hand in his for the first time. “Oh heck”, I thought to myself. “Don’t ya think that this is a little bit TOO friendly.”

He told me that his car had broken down just outside the park and ride, but he was more concerned about being late for our date. In that moment I felt important in his life and my heart opened a little more. As we chit chatted over dinner, his gaze made me feel a little uneasy because his attraction to me was obvious. But I wasn’t completely sure if I was ready for romance. My heart was still healing, I was focused on my work and so very uncertain about my direction in the future. So I tried my very best not to openly flirt with him, but my heart kept asking, “why are you holding back?”

My mind replied, “The fear of falling ya fool.”

But what was I afraid of ?

I was afraid of making the wrong choice
I was afraid of rushing into love
I was afraid of avoiding myself
I was afraid of hurting him
I was afraid of being hurt

As we stood outside saying goodbye, I knew he wanted to kiss me, but I avoided his lips. I needed to be certain about what I wanted. Did I want his friendship ? or did I want to explore a relationship with him ? I needed more time to gain some clarity because I wasn’t expecting to feel something more than friendship.

It was dusk when I strolled home from our date. Listening to the church bells ringing in the distance, I smiled. “Universe sure does work in mysterious ways”, I thought to myself.

On our 3rd date there was romance in the air

He took me to a place called Christmas Common because he knew I loved the forest and wanted to see the blue bells. I packed a picnic and he brought me pink roses and irises. I suggested he bring some chocolate along and when he asked “what type,” I said surprise me. So he brought me a Kinda Surprise, which made me smile.

I giggled at the look on his face when I took my tights off, so I could get some sun on my legs while we sat on the blanket. But was delighted how he honorably turned his back as I struggled to put them back on again. I liked how we were laughing a lot together. My heart just kept on opening up to him, but in truth, my mind was having a little dicky fit. So I hit the MUTE button and enjoyed the wonderful day as it flowed.

We strolled through the woods and got lost. Our stroll turned into a 3.5 hour hike, but we both embraced our unexpected adventure. We eventually found our way back to the car and went to the Victorian Arms pub, which was a lovely place by the river that I found a few weeks prior. The pub and gardens were packed with people but we found a table outside to watch the sunset. As the wind picked up and I got cold, he suggested I sit beside him (“Oh heck”, I thought to myself). He wrapped his arm around me to keep me warm and I felt myself melting into him. I knew he was holding back his desire to kiss me, so I leaned in and our lips touched for the very first time.

The perfect first kiss ❤

So, why did I pull away and look for my mobile phone?

I needed to hit PAUSE because my mind was racing with a multitude of thoughts and I needed to breathe. Although it felt right, my mind was struggling.

On our 4th date the feelings were flowing between us

He took me to the University Arboretum just outside of Oxford because he knew I’d love the grounds. I giggled how he ever so awkwardly hugged his first tree, but loved how he was open to the new experience. We walked holding hands, stopping on every seat that we passed, just so we could kiss and cuddle. It started to rain, which aroused the senses and made me feel all warm inside as the energy flowed between us.

Later that day, he took me to a beautiful spot by the river and we sat on a seat under the willow tree, watching the sun setting. He surprised me with an Easter gift, a Cadbury cream egg box set (my favourite) and a Lindt bunny. My heart burst open when he told me that he got it for the little gold “Tinker” bell. My mind was giving me the silent treatment, so I welcomed the quiet thoughts and just indulged in the feelings.

On our 5th date my head and heart were in conference

I took him to the University Park down the road because I wanted to share the beauty with him. As we lay on the grass, wrapped up in each other, I could sense the desire in his body stirring, but his touch was ever so gentle and respectful. Once again, I felt myself melting into his arms and I felt my body begin to open up to him. I thought to myself how not so long ago, I had sat in this very same spot, longing to be sharing it with someone special. And here I was, in his arms. WOW !!!

“How did this even happen” ? … I wondered

Although my heart was feeling the love, I held myself back from saying the words … but why ?

My fear was getting louder and my mind had a lot to say. It needed to remind me to take it slow and not rush, to make sure I knew what I was doing and why I was doing it. Telling me what a wonderful man he was, so make sure I knew for certain. Reminding me about how painful my heart breaks had been. Asking me if I really wanted to go there again? Asking if he was right for me and if I was right for him?

My heart wondered why the heck my brain had to ask so many damn questions?

Just OPEN up to the love and STOP thinking TOO much !!!

I noticed that there were no thoughts in my mind about whether I was worthy of his love or if he was worthy of mine, which made me smile. Truth is, he was a man of action, not words. It was his actions that kept showing me how he truly felt about me. I knew he wanted to love me.

On our 6th date passion started to heat things up

We met at the red post box around the corner and I took him to Port Meadow Nature Reserve. Feelings were flowing between us and our bodies wanted so desperately to touch, leading towards some heavy petting on the grass, which captured the interest of a dog walking his owner. We were giggling like a couple of high school kids, which only heated up the energy between us even more. When I moaned with pleasure, he later questioned if I had faked an orgasm and I thought to myself “WTF” ? because it took me by complete surprise, but demanding the kind of honesty that I appreciated.

Truth is, sex is never far from my mind, but my heart needed a soulful connection. So I had promised myself that I would make better choices in love. As a woman who had fallen deeply in love with herself, I was going to wait and only share my body with the right man at the right time, no ifs or buts !!!

I wondered, “Is this the right man and is this the right time?”

I appreciated how he was happy to flow at my speed, without any pressure. I was grateful that he was respecting my feelings, even though I knew he was hopeful for more. It was his patience and understanding that began to ease my mind.

On our 7th date I knew I was screwed before we even made love

We drove and drove and drove, trying to find the perfect place to be together somewhere beautiful and private in Nature. He kept looking at me with his soulful smiling eyes, saying so much without words. But how I so wanted to know what he was thinking and I wondered if he could read my mind. He suddenly pulled the car over because he couldn’t wait any longer to kiss me and I thought to myself …

“Oh fuck, I’m screwed” !!!

That was it, in that moment I knew

I was in love ❤

As we drove around in search of the perfect place to park, we came off the main road and took a side road towards a little village, which we circled twice because we took the wrong turn. Turning left for the third time, we kept on driving for over half hour, getting lost in wonderful surroundings. Only to find ourselves right back in the very same village again. WTF ? It was like something out of an Alfred Hitchcock episode. But when we turned right we noticed something we didn’t see coming into the village. A road veering off into a beautiful green meadow. The perfect place to park.

I felt Universe having a little fun and guiding us that day.

As my body fully opened up to him and his vulnerable heart fully opened up to me, my mind accepted what my heart already knew. There was so much more to this connection than just two people looking for company.

Since that day, I held back my true feelings because I wanted to be completely certain. I wanted to make sure that my feelings were about more than sex.

Truth is …

Opening up to love, is opening up to the possibility of falling in love

But I don’t want to FALL in love again

I want love to OPEN me up so that we can both RISE from it

I want to share the kinda love that awakens the parts of our soul that still sleeps

I want to be with someone who isn’t afraid to grow in love

Truth is …

Neither of us can guarantee the future, we can only fully embrace our today and flow into our tomorrow’s . I can’t promise him forever but I know that our togetherness is some kinda wonderful. I know that my heart wants to share love with him and I know that my soul recognizes him.

So, I waited until we were in Paris, the city of love and light, to say without reservation and complete certainty …

I love YOU ❤

This is a little story about a snail 🐌

It’s one of those fifty shades of grey kinda days in Oxford today. A rainy day that keeps everyone indoors. Its the kinda day we want to be snuggled up under the blanket sharing stories with each other, while sipping a hot cuppa tea.

As I hurried down the garden path towards the rubbish bins. I noticed the snails weren’t indoors and was a little amused to notice how they seemed to be enjoying the wet weather.

So, I bid them a good day and hurried back indoors with a smile ☺

I shared this with my client and she said “I used to call my younger brother, the snail” … and she smiled too ☺

I asked her to tell me about her brother and why she called him that.

She shared …

How he was affectionately given that nick name because as a child, he moved soooo slowly. As she spoke, she smiled as she recalled the fun they had shared together. The snail became symbolic even in his latter years because he walked ever so very slowly. A picture of a snail was placed on the funeral invitations and envelopes for his funeral.

When she finished sharing her story, I smiled and said “then the snails gave us a wonderful gift today”

She looked confused …

I continued to say how the snail had captured my attention on purpose. That sometimes we miss opportunities to connect with spirit because we fail to notice the messages they send us. I told her that I believed that the snail was her brothers way of saying “hello sis” 🤗

She smiled, her eyes sparkled and I thought to myself, thats what we ALL have the ability to share with each other. To help people see the magic that’s both within and around us, so that their own light can shine a little brighter 🌟

Memories are a connection to our past and they are also the key to our future.

So, I thankyou very much Mr Snail and it was very nice to make your acquaintance Bryan. You know, its funny, because as I write these words I have a visual image in my minds eye of an elderly gent nodding his head, as he tips his cap and smiles 😊

Mindful interaction ❤

If its something that I shouldn’t say, then I’ve probably already said it. Most likely put it in writing and am very likely to record myself saying it, just incase you didn’t hear me saying it the first time 😜 hahahaha

But, Im learning to love that about me because it reflects the bold ass attitude I lost many years ago. It reflects that I’m sharing my truth a little more confidently, regardless of how it may sound to others. It reflects how I no longer allow the opinions and judgements of others to hold me back from being completely myself.

YES I sometimes say the wrong things
YES I sometimes share half truths
YES I sometimes think irrationally
YES I sometimes feel messy
YES I sometimes fuck up

Don’t we all ?

But I no longer hide from myself. Instead, I hit RECORD and shine a god damn light on myself. So I can see her in all her glory, which is making all the difference.

Everytime I rewatch a recording, I fall a little deeper in love with what I see because I see the real ME 😍

I’ve shared a few of those recordings with you, but most are for my own private viewing. It’s taking my journaling one step further and I’m gaining a little more insight into myself, which better supports my flow in the now and helps to direct my thoughts, emotions and behaviour towards healthier directions.

Do you wish the world was different ?
Do you want more love in the world ?

Choices

We either remain part of the problem,
by pointing fingers and blaming others for the problems in our world (or) we become part of the solution,
by focusing on changing ourselves.

“BE the change you want to see in our world”

For fucksake drop the masks
Seek balance within yourself
Dive deeper into your mind
Become conscious about who YOU are
Open up your heart
Feel EVERY emotion that flows
Confront your fears
Better understand your shadow

Because this is how we heal and grow, which changes our world

Mindful interaction ❤