YES … I’m a tad excited … can ya tell ? 🤣

NO … we’re not having this for dinner 🤣

I’ve been eating clean for 7 days …

Breakfast – porridge with water & milk
Lunch – salads + protein (tuna, egg or bacon)
Dinner – veges + protein (meat, fish or chicken)

I’ve increased my water intake and only drinking tea (mostly dandelion root)

I weighed myself this morning and have lost 4.8kg. Being the visual person I am, I’m holding 3kg of potatoes and 1kg of carrots.

WOW … Imagine that much excess fluid and fat has been released from my body and I can honestly say, it hasn’t been difficult to do.

My sugar withdrawal only lasted one day and because I temporarily cut out sugar and carbs completely, I haven’t been tortured by cravings.
My appetite has reduced, my energy levels and motivation have increased and I feel GOOD !!!

It’s Easter Sunday tomorrow and Dad’s bought a stash of chocolate for our annual egg dump. I’m not sure if I’m gonna indulge because I know once I put sugar back into my body, I’ll begin to crave again. So, while I’m seeing such positive results I may keep going as I am 😊

PS … I’m not sharing to brag !!!

My intention is to inspire ❤

A Sunday morning mind orgasm for ya …

We are not the thoughts that we think
We are not the emotions that we feel

Our thoughts and emotions serve to navigate us on the journey of our human experience.

We are a pure energy
We are immortal
We are part of Nature
We are part of Universe
We are as ONE with the Source
We are in essence, the magic 🌟

Our greatest challenge in this life time is to find the core of who we are. Uncovering the truth of our coexistence so we can live in harmony.

YES, we are the change we seek in this world.

We are peeling away what we’ve been told and rediscovering what we know. We are breaking free from our minds and trusting in the truth of our hearts. We are being guided home to heal.

What if I told you that ” Every woman that heals herself, helps to heal all women that came before her and all those to come after her ”

What if I told you that all relationships trigger us because they serve to guide us deeper into our truth, so we can balance our energies.

Would you walk through this world with more intention ? ? ? Would you live your life with more deliberation ? ? ? Would you open up to life and love with complete abandonment ? ? ?

To believe in the magic, is to believe in yourself

Life, is all about the journey ❤

It was a FULL MOON last night and it fell on Equinox. I fell asleep feeling completely drained. My energy was at ground zero. Then I awoke feeling somewhat reflective. So I wrote …

As an awakening conscious woman, I’m often misunderstood. Truth is, how can you know who I am and what I want, when my own understanding of self is forever changing and expanding?

I no longer align with out dated beliefs about the happily ever after fairytale kinda love. The Damzel in distress is no longer waiting for her knight in shining armour to rescue her. Our stories are changing. We are exploring our distress.

What does a conscious woman want ?
What does an awakened woman need ?

She wants you to drop the defences and needs you to be fully PRESENT with her in the moment, even when the moment is messy. The woman who loves YOU wants you to get out of your head, step into your heart and share your truth with her.

She doesn’t want to avoid your shadow !!!

She wants to bring all doubt, fear, insecurity, grief, anxiety and wounds to the surface to be seen. She wants to see ALL of you and she needs you to see ALL of her. So that the energy of love can be fully expressed through you.

She wants you to OPEN up your heart

She doesn’t need a relationship to feel loved, nor does she need a man to complete her. She SELF loves and balances her own energies to feel whole. And she wants to be in relationship with a man who does this too.

She believes that love isn’t something to be found, but an expression of SELF

A conscious woman won’t need you but if she CHOOSES to walk through life with you, then you will experience the magic with her.

… and NEW stories will be written ❤

As most of you know, Dad’s been in hospital with multiple spinal fractures, getting his pain under control. So, we’re riding a rollercoaster of emotions because it’s another reminder of a harsh reality, we would rather not confront.

No matter what, Dad continues to face what comes with immense courage. And my sisters continue to be the amazing women they are. Supporting Dad and keeping me up to date.

As for me, I continue to feel torn between the life I’m trying to create in the UK, and my need to be with my family in Australia during times like this. An inner tension that created conflict and an abrupt ending to our relationship

Something I’ve been reflecting over …

Maybe I walked away too quickly?
Perhaps he let me go too easily?

But although our similarities compliment us and our differences challenge us, being in a relationship has been far from easy. Truth is, our relationship began during the worst time of my life and life doesn’t seem to be getting any easier.

Maybe that’s why I walked away too quickly?
Perhaps that’s why he let me go so easily?

Fortunately I was between contracts, so I headed north, seeking the support I needed to just BE the mighty mess I was. To allow myself to break down and fully FEEL what was rising.

The last 5 days have been turbulant !!!

But as I navigated through my inner world (my deeper most thoughts & feelings) during a NEW Moon when Mercury is in Retrograde …

I noticed something …

My inner Bridget isn’t dwelling in the usual soundtrack, “All by my self” feeling forsaken. Instead, she’s becoming better aquainted with her wounded self. The part of me that needs healing by my own love and compassion.

Hmmmmmmm 🤔

Is this the break through I needed?
Is this the healing I wanted?

I’m back on contract, in a much better mindset but still riding the waves. Focusing on the job, honouring what rises and preparing for my trip back to my family in Australia.

If you’re also navigating through turbulent times, then please don’t give up on love.

TRUST the process

…. and may the force be with YOU ❤

My daughter and I were talking about Other Worldly magic yesterday. I shared some of my conversations with spirit and afew of Mam’s spiritual experiences. Reminding us both about the magic that flows within and around us.

After our conversation I pondered 🤔

As a family, we each ride our own waves of grief, yet we share in the same loss because the same special someone is missing from our lives 💔 Even though I believe Mam’s still with us in spirit, there’s still so much to miss about Marjorie Fletcher because she was such a BIG part of our lives. She was the matriach of our family and loosing her shattered the world as we knew it and EVERYTHING has changed !!!

None of us are the same person we once were

Perhaps that’s the point ?

Loss being the kind of change we DON’T want to experience, yet must learn to accept. 

Hmmmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

Admittedly, I choose to focus on the CHANGE more than the loss itself. I make this choice consciously because my intention is growth.

But change and growth isn’t always easy !!!

Whenever I’m confronted with a challenging experience, I seek to understand how and why it’s changing me. I’m often told I dive TOO deep and I think TOO much, but I seek to understand the influence we have on each other and how it changes our worlds because I believe …

” WE are the change we seek in this world ”

As a collective, we can ALL resonate with the pain of loosing someone we love. And that’s what motivates me to share some of my own personal tensions, realizations, conflicts,  challenges and insights. I write because it helps me to process my experience. I share to support others on their journey, and to make others feel less alone in their own struggles.

Truth is, sometimes I’m a right fucking mess !!!

…. and there’s no shame in admitting that ❤

As I process and feel my way through grieving the loss of Mam and adjusting to a new life, here in the UK without my family and friends, I notice how I sometimes struggle with myself.

Life IS a wonderful adventure, but sometimes I’m overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings.

…. and there’s no shame in admitting that ❤

Our parent’s terminal cancer diagnosis, Mam’s death and Dad’s ongoing fight has forced us to dig deep. To confront and transcend our worst fears and live a life that continues to challenge us. Like you, I’m not immume to dark thoughts, heavy emotions and bad moods. But I notice my struggle whenever I’m conflicted between old limiting beliefs and my truth, which provides me with an opportunity to choose.

I either fall back into old habits (or) respond in a new way and I don’t always choose wisely !!!

…. and there’s no shame in admitting that ❤

Sometimes my unhealthier coping strategies and defence mechanisms drag me back. But like all of our habitual changes, recognizing our inner tensions and conflicts reflects growth.

Breaking free from the limitations of my mind, and expanding my consciousness is a process that continues to challenge me. I notice how I begin to question my reality and rationalize the unfathomable whenever my mind doesn’t fully understand what it is that I’m experiencing.

Some of my experiences are Other Worldly and like any writer, these are the experiences that motivate me to write and share my stories.

☆˜”*❊დ❊˚✲.✲ ‿.✲˚⁀❊დ❊*”˜☆ ƸӜƷ ☆ ~•~•☆ I want YOU to experience the magic 😊

“Sometimes we have to die a little inside, to rise a stronger and wiser version of ourself ”

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

I appreciate how loss is an opportunity to learn deeper truths about love. I appreciate how my professional challenges provide opportunities to learn and enhance my skills. I appreciate how my personal struggles guide me inwards to better understand myself. I appreciate how our relationship triggers are opportunities to deepen intimacy. I can and DO fully appreciate how loss, challenges, struggles and triggers are essential to our healing and growth.

However …

I don’t always like what surfaces to be seen and I don’t always want to show and share it.

My dilemma being …

Suppressing my truth creates an inner tension and expressing my truth can create conflict.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

I’ve reached a stage in my life where I can no longer avoid myself, even when I want to.

Suppressing my truth brings me a sense of discomfort. I suppose, having a preventative focus and having explored the many variables of health and wellness, I can fully appreciate how a lack of ease or harmony within the body, can be a source of dis-ease, which is why I no longer avoid or fear conflict.

But I’m still a work in progress …

Although I’m learning to appreciate how my inner tension guides me towards conflicting truths, which I see as an opportunity to communicate more honestly with myself and others. Conflict also triggers our shadows, which is something we unconsciously want to avoid, deny and hide from each other.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

Like every break through, the break down I had last week had been slowly building up to it’s gradual climax. My experience of loss, professional challenges, personal struggles and relationship triggers were my undoing.

Truth is, I’m not always as strong as I seem !!!

Whenever I struggle with the presence of shadow, whether it be my own or someone elses. I notice the conflict between the WANT to run, hide, avoid, deny, shut down and suppress and the NEED to stay open, expose and express our truest thoughts and feelings.

I don’t feel the need to publicly share details of my professional challenges, personal struggles and relationship triggers because my intention is to share the process of change itself.

What is our shadow self ?

Our shadow is the unknown darker side of our psyche. The parts we deny exists and prefer to hide from others. It includes: repressed ideas, instincts, impulses, desires, weaknesses, perversions and embarrassing fears. And it represents wildness, chaos and the unknown.

When we deny our shadow, we act shady !!!

Shadow behavior is the biggest block to our best self and greatest cause of our suffering, which is why shadow work is so important.

YES, we are beings of love and light, but we cannot deny our shadow or avoid the darkness in others because like it or not, they both exist.

Our greatest challenge is transforming ALL energy into higher frequencies of love & light.

Hmmmmm 🤔 she ponders

The EGO naturally defends itself, by denying our shadow, while projecting it onto others.

EGO being the part of our mind that mediates between the conscious and unconscious. It’s responsible for the opinions we have about ourselves. And it senses and adapts to our ever changing reality. So, as we become more conscious of ourselves, we also become more aware of our internal conscious shifts. It can feel like a part of us is dying … because it is !!!

“Sometimes we have to die a little inside, to rise a stronger and wiser version of ourself ”

TRUST the process of change and growth ❤

I’ve been struggling with myself over the last few days. Another opportunity presented itself and I said “NO thankyou” 🤔

I wondered …

Why aren’t I seizing the opportunity?
What is the right path for me?

And I started to doubt myself and my direction

My thoughts have been messy
My emotions have been overwhelming
My energy has been low

Yesterday, I woke feeling like my body was out of alignment and emotional sensitivity that had me feeling way TOO damn much at once !!!

The last few days I’ve been surfing my feelings like waves, doing my best to flow with each rise and fall without drowning. Listening to music when I walked helped me to connect and flow with my feelings. Writing helped me to make sense of my messy thoughts. Mindful masturbation helped my creative energy flow.

I knoooow, any excuse for a fiddle 🤣

Yesterday, a bee buzzed around the window sill on his back. My heart felt his struggle, so I flipped him over and took him outside, where he flew off happily … and I smiled ☺

As I walked, listening to music, I thought how bizzare it is that whenever I feel the most alone on my path, I feel a stronger sense of spirit and Mam’s presence. I looked down and noticed a small white feather … and I smiled ☺

I believe synchronicities are meaningful coincidences and conversations with spirit. I believe that nothing happens by chance. Everything serving a purpose for the greater good when we walk a road less travelled.

Last night I had a restless night of dreamings, but woke feeling a little more confident in my choices and more certain of my direction.

Acknowledging that opportunities have been an opportunity for me to clarify my intention. To stay focused on my BIGGER dreams.

While sitting at the kitchen table this morning, sipping on my cuppa, I soaked up the beauty. Frost on the ground, a clear blue sky, the warm sun shining, birds and squirrels busily going to and fro, deer in the far fields and I had my very first sighting of a beautiful red fox

Today I’ve had some discomfort in my womb, suggesting my hormones are flowing intune with this months wolf FULL MOON eclipse.

My she wolf dances in the woods may have had more significance than I realized. I’ve prewarned my collegue that I’m setting my alarm for tonights eclipse and I may feel the urge to dance naked in the woods 🤣

What we want isn’t always what we need and what we want isn’t always meant for us.

Our resistance to what IS causes us to suffer.

We resist the flow because we don’t want to let go of what was. We try to convince ourselves that love is the reason why we are holding on, when in reality it’s our fear of the unknown.

But …

Some things aren’t meant to work out.
Some doors are supposed to stay closed. Some bridges are meant to burn.
Some relationships are destined to fail.
Some jobs no longer serve our purpose.
Some experiences are supposed to hurt us.
Some people come to teach us.

Life is forever changing and loss is merely a construct of our own minds. In truth, every ending is an opportunity for a new beginning.

Its up to us to learn how to recognize when we’re resisting the flow. To trust the flow of life and allow ourselves to experience the magic.

Always remember that YOU are the love that you seek ❤ and the magic lies within YOU 🌟

I’m the kinda woman who wanders off into the woods alone. I love to walk amongst the trees and sit with the nature spirits. The forest tickles my senses and nourishes my soul.

This afternoon I stepped into some red wellington boots, slipped on my favourite jacket of many colours, put on my winter fur, selected some music and wandered off into the woods at the bottom of the property.

As I walked, I listened to the melody playing from my earphones, and my body soon began to move to the beat. It was the kinda rhythms that made my soul feel like dancing.

Once in the woods, I danced between the trees, loosing myself in the music. Dancing like no one was watching and feeling joy in my heart.

I was fully present in the moments. Noticing squirrels darting to and fro. Birds of pray hovering overhead. Trees swaying in the wind. The waxing crescent moon playing peekaboo with the clouds. And a small deer running across the meadow, heading towards me. I must have captured his curiosity because he came in for a closer look, before skipping off.

As I danced, I thought about the story of Little Red Riding Hood, who was afraid of the Big Bad Wolf. I thought about how often I’ve been told not to wander off too far from the path alone. I thought about how many times I’ve been too afraid to loose myself in the woods. As I danced, I thought about the stories we are writing about fearless women. As I danced, my inner wild woman awoke and I felt she wolf energy flowing through and radiating from me.

I am WOMAN …
watch me RISE and hear my ROAR !!!

The distortions of witch, crone and hag has had a huge impact on who we “think” we are and how we experience ourselves in this world.

Ever wondered why the patriachy wanted to distort who and what women really were ?

I have often pondered over this 🤔

Although, I absolutely agree and believe that what we do NOW is the most important, sometimes we DO need to look back into the past. Because it helps us understand how our history has shaped us. I believe that this is how we increase our self awareness, deepen our understanding, broaden our perspectives and learn from our past experiences.

In the past men have feared the connection women have with Spirit, Nature and Universe.

But we were created to have this connection.

Its our ability to grow life within our wombs that connects us with the Source of Creation.

We birth life and at times experience death through our body. We become acutely aware of the life force (energy) that flows through us.

As women we intuitively know that Nature heals and we  have innate natures to nurture.

Over the years we’ve been led to believe that women were less than, witches were evil and old women were useless. Women have (and still are) being used, abused and murdered. We have (and still) fight for and defend our rights.

Hardly surprising that we often struggle to live fully in our truth, when we’ve been devalued for centuries. But, as our individual experiences change, so does our collective experience.

We are ALL healing from the past ❤

As we heal our personal wounds, masculine and feminine energies begin to flow with a little more ease. We begin to experience ourselves differently and interaction with other changes.

Neither matriach or patriach, masculine or feminine, male or female seeking power and control, but both striving for BALANCE.

NOW is the time to stand confidently in your power and share YOUR kinda magic with the world … WE are WOMAN … and we RISE 🌟