Feeling overwhelmed, I decided that I needed a break away from study, work and motherly responsibilities. I was in dire need of some ME time. So I booked myself into a place called “Heaven in the Hills”. I usually took myself away to the mountains to reconnect, but this time I felt like a little romance and a lota sex. Although not in a relationship, I had friends with benefits, who satisfied my wants and fullfilled my needs.
So a weekend of lustful love was planned with (lets call him Felix). He had to work, so I gave him the details. Felix planned to join me later and I arrived early. Booking myself in for a massage from the lady in the main house, who offered a variety of healings and relaxation therapies. I’d seen her before and swore she had magic flowing through her hands. Intuitively, knowing exactly where the tension was in my body and using the right amount of pressure to relieve it.
Yup, it was heavenly alrighty !!!
At the end of the massage, I was laying on my back, in a state of blissful relaxation, when she positioned herself to do some reiki. I felt the warm buzz of energy as soon as her hands rested on my head. An energy that flowed in a way I’d never experienced before. Waves of emotion vibrated through my body. I felt my heart chakra open up and was overcome by an overwhelming sense of sadness. I was mindful of my thoughts, “Don’t make a fool of yourself, DON’T cry” !!!
But I couldn’t stop the tears from coming. I cried and cried and cried, then felt the energy moving from my heart, up towards my head. Pressure began to build in my head but her hands seemed to absorb it. The whole time, she kept her hands resting on my head, until my entire body relaxed again. I lost track of time and drifted off into a deep sleep.
When I woke, I felt strange, as if I had arrived on a new planet. I thought to myself “WOW, that was amazing.” My body felt relaxed but heavy when I got off the table. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and thought “Geeez, you look bloody rough.”
The woman was waiting for me outside the room, with a cool drink of water and a smile. When I told her how embarrassed I was for crying, she explained to me that it was the release my body needed.
She suggested I go take a bath, drink plenty of water and sleep. Inviting me to come along to the group sound meditation the next day. I said I’d think about it, but I was looking forward to being ravished. I was there to indulge in lotsa sex, not hang out with a bunch of people listening to a gong. So I pottered back to the cabin, ran myself a bath and opted for a glass of whiskey instead of water. But it wasn’t long before I could barely keep my eyes open. So I dried myself off and decided to take a nap.
When I woke it was dark outside because I had napped for 3 hours. I checked my phone to see if there was a message from Felix, but there was no connection. I figured he must have worked later than expected and was opting to join me the next day. Because there’s no way he could find this place in the dark. So I got the log fire going, made myself a bite to eat, poured another whiskey and settled down with a book before sleeping.
The next morning, I felt a little heavy in the head, so I poured a big glass of fruit juice and ate a hearty breakfast. Feeling a flow of creative inspiration, I grabbed my journal and started writing. Afew hours later, I wondered if Felix had been trying to reach me. So I got dressed and walked up to the main house, hoping there would be phone reception there.
Nope, no phone reception, but I wondered if he would call the office if he couldn’t reach me. So I rang the doorbell and asked if anyone had rang asking for directions. No one had, so now I was starting to feel a little annoyed. He had been known to let me down before, so I was starting to feel abit disappointed.
Walking back to my cabin, I noticed a large gong in the corner of the therapy room and lotsa cushions on the floor. The note on the door said it started in an hour, so I thought what the heck, why not.
There was eight of us and we were told to make ourselves comfortable on the floor with the cushions. I had no idea what to expect because I’d never been to a group meditation or heard a gong of this size before. So, I found myself a quiet corner to lay down and I waited for guidance. She told us to close our eyes, focus on our breath and to allow the sounds to take us wherever they carried us.
In the beginning I felt abit awkward being the newbie. Totally out of my comfort zone and a little anxious about fully letting go. But the sounds from the gong were divine, so it didn’t take long for the mind chatter to stop.
As I slipped deeper into a state of relaxation, I began to feel like I was somewhere else. The rhythmic sounds of the gong carried me away. I was suddenly running through a forest at great speed. I could feel the branches of trees against my body, as I rushed past them. I felt the exhilaration of the wind on my face and when I looked down, I didn’t see my feet.
I was a Tiger !!!
My heart beated to the vibrations from the gong and I felt like every cell in my body was excited. I was transfixed by the sounds from the gong. The faster I ran the more my breath increased. I was panting heavily, but as she changed the rhythm on the gong, my experience began to change. My heart rate slowed down and I was in my own body again. My mind was trying to understand what the fuck had just happened, but I couldn’t open my eyes. I kept focusing on the sounds from the gong and my breath. Allowing myself to fall deeper and deeper into relaxation. The tone of the gong changed again and I was suddenly running ontop of a mountain top. I wondered what was I ?
I was an Eagle !!!
Fearful of heights, my mind wanted to stop me from falling, but I wasn’t in my body. I was the eagle. I watched my feet as I ran for the edge of the mountain and gasped as the wind took my breath away. “Fuck me, I’m flying.” I thought to myself. As I soared above the clouds and over the mountain ranges. My chest expanded as my lungs inhaled the air and I felt alive. The rhythm of the gong eventually changed and I was once again in my body. But it wasn’t over yet. She changed the rhythm once more and the deeper tones took me into an unfamiliar place. I wondered where was I and what was I ?
I was in the ocean as a Whale !!!
Fearful of drowning, my mind wanted to throw me out of the meditation. For a few moments I was floating around in the dark depths, but panic soon threw me back into my body.
“WOW that was fanfookintastic” !!!!
The gong was still vibrating and everyone else was still in relaxation, but I layed there with my eyes open, eager to share my experience.
I didn’t walk back to the cabin, I floated. I still hadn’t heard from Felix but I no longer gave a fuck. I had just experienced something that left me feeling in a prolonged state of climax. I ran the bath, undressed, submerged my naked flesh into the warm water and made love to myself. I had several intense orgasms that night, no whiskey and a restful sleep.
When I woke I felt amazing and I was starving, so I cooked up a big breakfast and poured myself a cup of tea. As I sat at the dining table, I gazed upon the garden. Noticing how the crimson sunrise was shimmering light inbetween the trees, through fairy ferns and upon fallen leaves. I was in total awe of the beauty.
I noticed the bugs buzzing to and fro and tiny winged creatures that danced with the light. “But what was that I just seen” ? I blinked and looked again. Something the size of my index finger was playfully dancing with the tiny winged creatures that danced with the light. My eyes widened and my heart fluttered because I’ve always believed in fairies, but this was the very first time I’d ever seen one.
She had noticed me too and was equally curious about me. Slowly approaching the window, we gazed upon each other. She had long brown limbs and although she wasn’t wearing clothes, her body was covered in what looked like leaves. As she got closer, her head tilted to the side and I leaned in to get a closer look. Her small round face was so very small and delicate, the size of my smallest finger nail, but she was captivating.
I blinked and she was gone !!!
Rubbing my eyes, I wondered what had just happened ? Had I caught a glimpse into another dimension ? Was I face to face with a magical creature ? Had I connected with a Nature Spirit ? Did I really just see a fairy ?
Excited to tell my family but reluctant to share my story with others, who may believe me crazy. I realize now that it was the beginning of a wonderful relationship with the Nature of spirit.
You may wonder what happened to Felix. Well, he told me that he had tried to reach me without success. Apparently his car played up and he lost the directions, but I was doubtful. So I thanked Universe for intervening with my plans and began to open up to the magic 🌟
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