No matter what,
just keep on …

Shining in your beauty,
roaring in your anger,
howling in your madness,
burning in your passions and
rising in your power.

Because you are the wild ones,
women of contradiction.

Dancing between the extremes,
of your polarities,
while exploring the grey areas of life.

You are the truth seekers,
the dream chasers,
the magic makers,
the fairy whispers,
the moon worshippers,
the potion mixers,
the star gazers,
the heart healers.

You are the ones
bathing under the moonlight,
sparkling in the sunlight,
dancing with your shadows,
and standing in your storms.

You are the ones
walking barefoot,
diving into oceans,
climbing mountains,
and chasing rainbows.

Learning to balance inbetween worlds,
as you create new realities.

You are the ones
refusing to settle,
seeking an extraordinary love.

Releasing unhealthy attachments,
and deepening your connections.

No longer willing to fall,
because you are RISING in love.

Mindful interaction ❤

What is fear ?

“An unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain or harm”

I began delving into my fears when I started looking deeper into my bad habits

As I explored why I bit my nails, smoked cigarettes, over indulged in alcohol, comforted myself with food and had sex with men who didn’t love me, I eventually realized that at the core of my unhealthy behaviour was either hurt or fear, and usually both.

Explorations that continued to take me deeper and deeper into myself

First making me more self aware, which at times was frustrating as fuck because there’s nothing worse than knowing why you’re doing something that isn’t good for you. It sucks the enjoyment right out of it, raising all those feelings of shame, guilt and self loathing.

Its true, the more you look, the more you find, which is usually why we stop looking. But what if we keep looking ?

Well, that’s exactly what I did and it made all the difference

Its why I’m here doing what I’m doing, going where I’m going

But not without the presence of fear

Last night as I lay in bed, listening to the strange noises stirring through the house, my fear began to rumble. But instead of freezing or fleeing by either hiding under my blanket or staying where I was with the light on, I faced it. I wandered down stairs and explored the house, confronting what I was afraid of. That there was something or someone lurking in a dark corner, waiting for an opportunity to frighten or harm me.

Feeling very brave I was, but I still slept with the lamp on 😊 hahaha

Because I’m far from being the fearless warrior woman that I like to believe that I am. Most of the time I’m freaking the fuck out before I decide to confront whatever it is that I am afraid of. But I do it anyways.

I guess that IS courage

I do believe that our greatest fears are our biggest opportunities for growth

A belief that’s been the biggest game changer, which is altering my experiences in new and profound ways. Because the more fears I confront and the more hurts I heal, the more my reality begins to change.

😊😊😊 Exciting hey 😊😊😊

The thing is, we dont attract our hearts desire, create our dreams or live the life we imagine without fear. Quite the contrary. Our fears actually lead the way forward because whatever it is we are most afraid of, is the very same thing that will lead us towards our success.

If this is so, then why are we afraid of fear ?

Because that is the story we have been told and the very same story we keep telling ourselves

But what if we have the ability to change the story ?

So lets take a closer look at fear

It stems from our innate need to survive

To stay away from those things that could hurt us: falling from great heights, drowning in rough seas or getting bitten or eaten by dangerous creatures.

But as our world has progressed, so have our fears

If we take a closer look at our fears, we will find that many of them are irrational and stand in the way of our progress. Holding us back, keeping us stuck in the same realities, repeating the same patterns of behaviour and experiencing the same cycles of uncomfortable emotions, that continues to provoke our bad habits.

Hmmmmmm she ponders

The reality of fear is …

We dont really fear the dark, we are afraid of what we cannot see

We dont really fear heights, we are afraid of falling

We dont really fear people, we are afraid to trust

We dont really fear falling in love, we are afraid of not being loved back

We dont really fear letting go, we are afraid to accept the reality of what is

We dont really fear the risk, we are afraid of failing

The deeper we look into our fear, the more we see how they reflect how we are thinking, feeling and are experiencing life. When our thinking is motivated by fear we start thinking that the world is a dangerous place, people are not to be trusted and our safety is under threat, which impacts not only on our own experiences, but also influences every other person we come into contact with. Thinking that causes more heart hurts and creates deeper wounds for everyone.

So, ask yourself …

Are you feeding fear or are you sharing love ?

What am I afraid of ?
What am I holding onto ?
What am I scared of loosing ?
What would I do if I wasn’t afraid ?

Accepting that fear lives with us just as much as love, is a challenging concept to grasp. We usually avoid what ever it is we are most afraid of and we certainly wouldn’t want to openly share our fears with other people.

Why  ?

Because it exposes our vulnerabilities and our weaknesses

Something we ALL have, yet we all hide behind masks, avoiding the truth of who we really are, which is beautiful complex creatures full of wonderful contradictions. Ravishing creations of both positive and negative, light and dark, masculine and feminine.

Each one of us learning how to balance our polarities, maintain healthy relationships, live a meaningful life and love those who matter most to us.

Mindful interaction ❤

“The first step to solving any problem is first acknowledging that there is one”.

We are witnessing an increase in tensions and conflicts that are creating chaos because a NEED FOR CHANGE is upon us.

I think its safe to say that we all agree that things need to change in our world. And if we’re paying close attention, then we are feeling the shifts happening within and around us.

But ask yourself …

Are you adding to the problem?
Or are you part of the solution?

Whether it be about ourselves, our relationships, our communities or the world at large. It’s got very little to do with which political party we support. Because when shit comes to shove, it all comes down to this …

Are you feeding the fear?
Are you stroking ego?
Are you opening your heart?
Are you choosing love?
Are you pointing fingers?
Are you blaming others?
Are you taking responsibility?
Are you diving deeper into yourself?

The truth is, if we want to change the world then we must first be willing to change ourselves 😊

Mindfulinteraction ❤

Sometimes I not only embrace the solitude,
I crave it.
While other times its endured.
Feeling the need to reach out,
because I struggle with being alone.
Yet compelled to pull back,
deeper into myself.
And I wonder,
Why the fuck must I travel this journey alone,
while others share life with their others?
Love forever guides me,
yet never lingers long enough to grow.
Why does my path twist & turn in roundabouts,
while others seem to know the way home?
Deeper truths discovered,
but I’m forever spiralling down.
Into an abyss of ever expanding spaces,
that seek experiences to keep filling the gaps.
But I wonder,
Am I destined to be forever the lone wolf lover,
or am I fated to live life with my other?
The passion within me keeps rising,
relentless in its need for release.
Yet here I am,
alone with my desires.
What the fuck am I to do with this fire,
that keeps burning deep inside of me?
I fear the flame may become a raging inferno,
and cause mass destruction to all in its path.
What if it all burns down in a blaze of glory?
The Goddess tells us to RISE UP and SHINE !!!
But what if we stand too tall,
and burn to brightly?
Hush now,
say the whisperings of my soul.
Listen to the silence

Mindful interaction ❤

As I read these words,
I contemplate over my own journey.
Working in Aged Care,
death has been a constant companion.
Opening up to the fall in love,
has broken me open to deeper truths.
My fears lessening over the years,
death and loss becoming teachers.
Aware of deaths ever powerful presence,
whenever it enters the room.
Sometimes rushing in suddenly,
while other times it lingers in the shadows.
For days, weeks, months or even years,
before carrying a soul to the other side.
But its not death we fear,
its fear itself.
For when the moment of death finally arrives,
there is often relief, silence and peace.
Transformation occuring before our very eyes,
yet our fear blinds us.
Tears fall from the ducts of loved ones,
because they sense their own loss.
But those with minds open to other possibility,
see more than a lifeless body before them.
The open hearted feel the rush of energy,
when breath transforms into spirit.
Like birth,
the experience can be beautiful.
A moment in time,
to be cherished forever.
Yet we struggle to witness the beauty,
because we connect to the body.
Our focus on the flesh,
instead of feeling the warmth of energy.
That radiates from the soul,
forever through all space and time.
As death dances closer towards those I love,
I can’t help but wonder.
What if we didn’t fear you?
How would it alter our experience of life?
If we knew when death comes for us,
would we choose to live a different life?
If we fear the loss,
then are we choosing to live in fear?
If we’re open to live in a deeper sense of love,
how do we let go of what we fear to loose?
Hmmmmmmm, she ponders.
Many nights I’ve laid down in my bed,
alone with such thoughts in the darkness.
My own fears lurking in the shadows,
threatening to distinguish my own inner flame.
If I dare to stay in the depths of my mind too long.
But to let go of all we fear to loose,
we must first acknowledge the fear itself.
Something that has the ability to break us,
opening up our tender loving hearts to feel it.
We ask ourselves,
How do I loosen my grip on what I fear to loose,
when my fear causes me to hold on tighter?
Then we sit in the silence,
and listen to the answer we already know.
Release it and surrender,
because LOVE forever flows through YOU

Mindful interaction ❤

They say to avoid disappointment then don’t expect too much from others, but I disagree because I am the TOO much kinda woman 😊

How can we ever live the kinda life we imagine if we keep lowering our expectations of others?

I want YOU to rise up and be ALL you can be ❤

But your choices DO impact on my experiences and therefore determine my choices

So, we must ask ourselves …

Do we want to linger in feelings of resentment because someone isn’t living up to our expectations (or) are we willing to take complete responsibility for our own experiences ?

This has been a BIG switch in my thinking that’s making all the difference to my experiences 😊

TRUTH is disappointment is a big part of our lives because we ALL want and need things from each other. Therefore, to gain insight into our feelings of disappointment we must first look at our own wants and needs.

Ask yourself …

What do I want?
What do I need?
Have I communicated my wants and needs?
Can the other person fullfill my wants?
Are they satisfying my needs?

Truth is our disappointments are all about US and present themselves to teach US something

By holding another person responsible for our experience, we are giving someone else power over our experience. So, how can we RISE in our own power if we keep giving it away ?

Sure, we could waste precious time and energy with our internal conflicts that motivate us to be in conflict with other (or) we can ACCEPT that our wants and needs change as we do 😊

And this my friends, is how we respect each others choices and move forward with LOVE in our hearts

Mindful interaction ❤

Valentines DAY (or) Single Awareness DAY

Hmmmmmm … she ponders 🤔

As I scroll through the newsfeeds, I realize that it’s a day that reflects how we truly think, feel and experience intimate LOVE ❤

Some are all loved up with their “other halves,”
while others are wishing they weren’t alone.

Some are hoping for more from their partners,
while others are waiting for love to find them.

Some are burning in the passions of new love,
while others are growing in deeper connections.

Like many of you, I’ve experienced this day both in and out of relationship. So its another day that brought alot of reflection for me …

So I thought I’d share 😊

I BELIEVE …

When we choose to flow with love EVERY DAY then Valentines day becomes just another day to share the love, whether we’re in or out of relationship with another ❤

But I haven’t always “believed” this

There was a time when I was the other half in relationship. A woman who felt incomplete without the presence of a man she loved. Creating unhealthy attachments & dependencies, that intensified my feelings of grief & loss when a relationship came to an end.

There was a time when I was the single woman seeking or avoiding male company. A woman who felt alone in her own company, which increased my feelings of loneliness and a sense of longing to share my life with another.

There was a time when my relationship lacked the romance and passion I desired. A woman who yearned for a lover to fan my innner flame, which increased my feelings of frustration as I struggled to settle for less than in relationship.

ALL experiences rich in lessons of SELF LOVE ❤

Today, as a much wiser 43 year old woman, I feel open to the love that flows from WITHIN myself, which is making all the difference to how I think, feel and experience this day and every other day that follows because I’ve finally fallen in love with ME 😀

Mindful interaction ❤

Universe has a way of bringing us to our own attention, and sometimes its with an almighty BANG !!!

My fall on slippery rock the other day winded me and literally shook my very foundation. Two more falls on the same walk certainly captured my attention.

The second fall was on slippery mud, inbetween soft grassy mounds. So I managed to cushion my fall as I slid onto my ass. But the third fall brought me down onto my knees.

Hmmmmmmm … she wondered 🤔

Mother Nature then blew up a storm the next day, prompting me to stay indoors.

Alone, sore and sorry, I didn’t leave the cottage all day. And with no comfort foods, booze or meds to soothe myself, I was forced to literally SIT IN the full discomforts of my body.

Ouchee !!!

The damage is muscular and the pain radiates across my lower back, which connects to my sacrum chakra.

“The sacrum is the center of feeling, emotion, pleasure, sensuality, intimacy, and connection”

OK I’m listening !!!

“The energy of this chakra allows you to let go, to move, and to feel change and transformation occurring within your body. Allowing you to experience this moment as it is, in its fullness”

OK, you have my full attention !!!

“The main challenge for this chakra is social conditioning. When our feelings are not valued and our passionate reactions are frowned upon. We are learning to “control” instead of flow, which disconnects us from our bodies, feelings and deeper truths.

I’ll be fucked !!!

My body IS communicating with me and Universe IS guiding me through the freaking process. But geeez you could be a little less brutal about it 😦

So, now what ?

Well, it tells me that just as a broken heart serves to break us open to love.

Our physical pains and discomforts serve to bring us closer to our deeper truths.

For me, it reinforces how we ditch the fear and relearn how to flow with love of the Universal kind

Now …

Instead of holding onto the pain and suffering, I choose to focus my attention on opening up and BALANCING my sacral chakra, which (in theory) will increase the energy flow that will support the cellular repair required for healing.

Instead of avoiding myself, blaming others for my own emotional experience (or) seeking out others to help balance my inner state of being, I choose wholeness by nurturing my own mind, body and soul.

And instead of pushing myself and causing more injury, I choose to privilege the experience and be gentle with myself.

HOW do we do this ?

In a variety of different ways but for me …

Although I was in pain last night, instinctively I swayed my hips as I danced around the lounge room (with the occasional ow). But DANCING and movement is a great way to open up this and any other energy center.

Although I craved the presence of another and did reach out in an effort to “connect”, I also indulged in mindful masturbation because it helps me to relax, open up, releases tensions and increases energy flow.

And there’s nothing quite like blowing your own god damn mind !!!

Of course you dont have to make love with yourself …. but why not ?

After all the sacral chakra is ALL about our sensual pleasure

This energy center also influences the flow of our creativity and our emotional state of mind, which suggests that our experiences are influenced by so much more than just our thoughts. For many, changing the way we think seems to be almost impossible. So for some, focusing on how our energy flows may just be the way to achieve change.

However YOU choose to OPEN up and BALANCE your energy

Just do whatever feels most right for YOU 😊

I can honestly say that each time I expose a deeper truth, I fall a little more in love with ME, which is making all the difference for YOU

Mindfulinteraction ❤

BRACE YOURSELF … a rant is coming 😜 hahaha

Decided it was time to jump on my pedistal and share some thoughts and feelings around all this political hoo haa that we’re seeing in our newsfeeds. I strongly believe that discussions are a great way to improve our understandings. But I’m seeing more people trying to convince others to change their thinking to suit theirs, instead of ALL of us taking a long hard look at our own thinking.

Lets start by asking ourselves …

What is YOUR vision for your country ?
What is YOUR hope for our world ?
What do YOU want our political leaders to do for US the people? and HOW do you believe that it can be successfully achieved ?

PLEASE keep in mind that Trump states that he is in power for the people. So the protestors are the people. They may hold different opinions but their voices and concerns matter too.

There’s no denying that we live in a society that’s been fighting for equal rights for MANY decades and YES we are making progress. But our recent confrontation with the male chauvinistic behaviour of the now leader of America has triggered many of us

WHY ?

Because we give a damn !!!

Have you ever asked yourself WHY did America only have Trump and Hilary to choose from?

Have you ever questioned WHY there’s been so much drama and show biz on the political arena?

Accusations about Trumps abuse of women, may be false, but his negative attitude towards women (among other things ) has been blatantly obvious and that’s why people are standing UP and shouting OUT.

Saying ENOUGH !!!

We are no longer buying into the political BULLSHIT of mainstream OR conspiracy media because many of us believe its NOT the way forward. Those women ( and men ) roaring are choosing not to feed their fears.

We focus on HEALING the heart of our world ❤

Diving into our own heads and hearts, instead of watching and following “news”, then claiming to be all knowing and informed. We are taking full responsibility for the bullshit we keep telling ourselves based on social conditioning.

Paving the way forward and creating something NEW for ourselves, our children and OUR WORLD

A VISION …

Of a world where WE the people are OPEN to love and respect everyone regardless of opinions, beliefs, religion, sexuality, culture and status.

A world where both men and women are loving and respectful to each other and themselves.

A world where money and power is NOT the driving force and main motivator.

A world where we refuse to buy into the media and political hype and drama that only creates more fear frenzys, warped sense of reality and deeper woundings of self and others💔

Truth is NO ONE knows the truth behind all of this political bullshit, no matter how much research we do. In fact all the research is irrelevant if we ourselves havent experienced it first hand. Research is as biased as our opinions and perspectives are. Because we generally only see what we are looking for and only listen to what we want to hear.

I for one am NOT happy about having a business man with a bad attitude in such an influential leadership role. Because he now has the power to infuence the flock who mindlessly follow.

Lets not forget that we ALL have the right to express our concerns and a GOOD leader will LISTEN and seek solutions instead of all this show biz nonesence we keep seeing.

I may not be well educated in the political arena, but I consider myself to be an everyday working class citizen who, like YOU has valuable insights to share. Insights that are informed by an education and life experiences.

I for one want to have more conversations with those who are living different truths. Ive been having conversations with pilgrims and missionaries who have, and are wandering the world seeing first hand the experiences of refugees from those war torn countries.

Conversations that are opening my eyes to so much LOVE and human kindness. And I hope to travel the globe myself and SEE things as they are first hand with my own EYES.

Truth is its easier to sit in the comforts of our own safe homes, following the world through the media, refusing to see the bigger picture of how WE ourselves are part of the problem.

But …

When we acknowledge that ugly truth, then we begin to be part of the solution 😊

We should fear those who are feeding our fears and NOT those from other countries and cultures, who we “think” threaten our safety.

Because its the everyday people, striving for a better life, who are suffering all over the world, as a result of all this political manipulation and shitty public attitudes.

Attitudes that YOU yourself may also share.

YES !!!

I am WOMAN and hear me roar with rage in my heart because I give a fuck about the world my kids and future generations are growing up in.

And I know that YOU do too.

So I invite you to explore your own thoughts, feelings, beliefs, attitude and behaviour.

Lets work TOGETHER 😊

Mindfulinteraction ❤

I remember the first time I experienced the powerful energy of a Dark Goddess within myself. She demanded with such authority to STAY OPEN !!!

No matter how much it hurts …
No matter how afraid you are …

STAY OPEN !!!

she whispered,

        You are burning away the bullshit,
        you are peeling back the layers,
        you are shedding your skin,
        So, burn baby BURN,
        Let it hurt, let it bleed and RISE !!!

Whenever we feel the need to OPEN we are being blessed with the presence of Goddesses, such as Kali and Hecate, Lilith. Those powerful darker energies that help us to understand our shadow self.

Supporting us during our transformational shifts, guiding us back to our truest selves.

Lilith comes to support us in our quest for truth. Hecate comes to guide us through the shadow lands and Kali comes to support us in our shedding away of the old and is midwive during our rebirth.

Don’t fear their presence,
WELCOME the energies when you feel them near.

They say …

Break OPEN and FEEL the burn,
Allow the pain to bleed from the very depths of your aching heart. Remind yourself that your discomfort, your frustration, your pain, your uncertainty, your disappointment, your confusion and your suffering has nothing to do with anyone else and everything to do with YOU !!!

CLAIM it
It’s your GIFT

They reminds us …

That those who trigger an emotional response in us are our teachers. Souls who recognize our need to break open and seek our deepest truth.

LOVE ❤

So, dig deep and take back your power,
Reconnect with the magic flowing within you.

ALLOW it to transform you … and RISE 🤗

Mindfulinteraction ❤